I wish all my smiles were real
And not just barricades
to hold back tears
cause I'm to broken inside

I wish all my dreams were true
And not just the nightmares that
haunt me even at daytime
cause you can't wake up from reality

I wish that I would trust my friends
And not assume constantly that
They are judging me behind my back
cause I'm just not good enough

I wish I would be fun at parties
And not the silent girl that
Is always standing in a dark corner cause she can't dance nor flirt

I wish I liked my face in the mirror
And wouldn't see a monster that
Is staring back through the glass
Cause there is just no beauty in me

I wish I would be
someone else
I really wish that
I could change
But even if I try to
Like I did many times
It is only wasted energy
and me lying to myself
Which has to end in disappointment
Because the truth is that
I am just a small and scattered soul
Broken beyond repair
So all I can do is wish

- A/N written in an Italian diner in Munich that had WiFi because I had feelings.
Stay human,
Sero 💙✌-