"Be free to laugh.
Be free to cry.
But never be free to judge. "

- Z. A.

Kim Tae-Hee

What you are doing, Won?

I put hands on my heart, it's beating so fast.

Why did he say that?

I like him. No, I can't like him. I had no feelings for him. It's just nothing.

It just a mere liking and nothing else. I can't like him. He will leave me once he came to know about my destroyed past. He will also accuse me for my mother's death. No, I can't let that happen.

He likes me, it's not good. He will leave me alone. I can't let him do that. I will not allow him to enter in my world. I will not allow him to break the walls which I have built around me. I can't let him do that. This will only destroy him more than it will destroy me.

Bell rang and I just divert my mind from Kim Won's comment.

I have to go for my games class.

Ahhh!!!

I don't want to do anything now. I just want to sleep and go to my dreamy world.

***

I went to my class and find it empty. Then I went to the changing room and changes into my tracksuit.

Today, I feel like flying. I just want to feel free. I just want to forget about Kim Won-Jun, dad, brother, best friend, stepfamily, my past, and my messed up feelings for Kim Won-Jun.

I went to the horse riding area. I went to stable and found my black horse standing at the last. I told dad a few days back to get me my own horse and he is standing here.

A few days back.

I return from school without riding because I just want my own horse which mom had gifted me on my 6th birthday. When I had gone to California I means dad sends him to a very properly maintained stable. No one will take proper care of him so I have to agree with dad.

I find him in his office going through some files.

"Dad, I need my horseback."

He looked at me. He observes me. I think he had forgotten about him.

"Dad, my horse," I said while putting hand on my waist and staring at him.

"Okay! I got it and now you can go. "He takes his phone from his table and dials someone's number.

He was just looking at me. He eyes me to go out of the room.

"I will only go out when you talk in front of me. You will forget it, dad. You always forget what I say," I demanded just like I do eleven years ago.

He instructs the person to put my horse in school private stable carefully.

As, he put the phone on the table, tear also slide from his right eye. He brushes it away.

Present

I petted his back, neck, and jaw. He was happy while I was petting him. I gently run my hands on his head. He smells me and when he remembers the smell, he neighs loudly.

When I ask, him how he is? He answered with a loud neigh. Then I saddle and bridle up my horse.

I look at my suit which I was wearing was not suitable for riding and in the excitement of riding the horse I forgot to wear a dress for riding. I ran to the changing room. I change into a comfortable stretching legging and a tracksuit T-shirt and also wear the helmet.

I ran to the stable. I place my left foot in the stirrup, pull myself up, and swing my right leg over the horse's hindquarters. I drop my right foot in the stirrup.

I pull the reins and get each at equal length. I hold reins in one hand steady while on others I gently exert pressure straight backward and horse move forward. I urge the horse to move fast means to run fast.

All were busy riding their own horses. I find Ji-Hu seeing me from the glass wall of the swimming pool.

I ignore his stare and command my horse to run fast. It feels amazing. I called him Pali which means fly.

I was riding so fast. It feels like I am flying high. The cool air was kissing my cheeks, forehead, and lips. It feels free.

Freedom.

I tightly hold the reins. My saddle starts moving I try to balance it. I try to slow down the speed of the horse. Before the horse could slow down, I fall on the ground with the saddle on the left side and my whole weight was on my left hand.

Pain shoot in my left hand and whole left side body. It hurt. Students start gathering around me. The pain was increasing. I can't move. If I try to move the pain increases. My vision was a blur due to unshed tears and in a blink, blackness took over me.

***

I try to open my eyes. My vision was not clear. I am in a very white room. Someone was holding my right hand. My head hurts a lot. I remember falling from a horse and after that, I remember nothing. I try to move but my body's every part hurts a lot, mainly my left hand. I blink due to whiteness its hurting my eyes.

I tried to move and a person releases my hand from his or her hold.

"Tae-hee you wake up. Thank god. Let me call the doctor to see you," he said and move out the room leaving me so confused.

Kim Won-Jun, what he wants from me?

Can't he see that I am totally not interested in talking to him?

I think he is blind. I am acting so mean.

I can still feel his hand warmth on my hand. My throat was dry. I try to sit but a pain shoots in my whole body. My left hand has a cast on it. I think I broke my hand or sprain it.

Ahhh!!! I have to wear this now.

The doctor opens the door and behind him was Kim Woo-bin.

I am dead.

Kim Won-Jun didn't return again. I tried to sit. Kim Woo-bin helps me to sit. I tried to look at him but I didn't have the courage to look in his. He will pity me and say me that I can't let people live peacefully without disturbing them. He will say that I can only create problems for others.

My thoughts were disturbed when he put a glass of water on my lips. I drank water without braking our eyes contact.

He didn't speak anything. He carefully listens to the doctor's instructions. He goes out of the room after giving him the prescription.

He looks at me. He sits on the chair kept on the right side.

"What happened Kim Tae-Hee? How do you fall from the horse? Do you know I was so scared when I got a call from the hospital saying you...?" He stops in mid-way and what he did next was unbelievable.

Thank you for reading.