"Many of us crucify ourselves between two thrives -Regret from past 

And Fear of the future." -Fulton Oursker 

Kim Tae-Hee

"Tae-Hee you were... "

He stopped.

He went back to his own world to find a correct answer or to find the lie to tell me. I literally feel like my life is a lie, a secret hidden from me.

"Kim Tae-Hee why are you asking this?"

He again questioned me, instead of giving me a simple answer yes or no. I am not dying to ask him to explain to me this one-word answer.

His face shows no expression. It's just blank, like a plain white paper with nothing written on it.

Dad, I want an answer.

"I... just want to know dad. You abandoned me after mom's death. You never visited me. You just send money but you never send love for which I carved every night, every morning. I waited every day for you to come and take me back. "My voice was breaking because of the tears forming in my eyes.

Every word I said bring the memories which I had forgotten. The memories which haunt me day and night.

Students in school taunt me of not having mom and dad. Having no one to come when I completed my elementary school when I won a football match in school when I got the first position in every class.

'Kim Tae-Hee you have no one. ′

'See John, Kim Tae-Hee had no family. '

'Rosy do you know Kim Tae-Hee got the first position in class still her dad and mom didn't come.'

'I don't know from where she got money to pay her school fee because she had no family. '

'Her family abandoned her. '

'Her mom and dad don't like her because she is a pain for everyone. No one loves her. She can only trouble everyone. '

'She is alone. She should be in an orphanage.'

'Kiara, see this Tae-Hee is orphan.'

He said in a normal tone, "Kim Tae-Hee go to your room. I don't want to answer your unimportant questions. You are my daughter why you will be bad for me? It's just unimportant."

He said like its not important but he didn't know my mind and heart are in chaos. They are clouded with negative thoughts like the clouds in the sky of different shapes and colors. But he is not ready to answer my question.

"Dad but I want an answer. Why you are not ready to answer it. "

"Because it's not important. Can't you understand one time or it's hard for you to listen to me once, "He said in a loud voice? His voice sounds dangerous.

"But dad, truth, and secrets never remain hidden for a long time. Time is very dangerous. It reveals everything whether it's important or not. No one can hide anything from it, "I said to him while looking in his eyes.

For a second his eyes and fake expression change and show guilt but he hide it fast.

He turns on his heels to leave me in my own world finding or imagining an answer to satisfy my thinking that I am good for them and not bad. He isn't ready to give me an answer but his silence has told me and broke me into a thousand pieces.

"Hey dad wait," I shouted to stop him.

He turns to me and questioned me, "Now, what happens?"

"Just wait here. I want to give you something which I had preserved for many years. Many years. Its value is so high. No one can pay for it. I don't know what you will feel but still wait here. It won't take a long time. I am just coming in two minutes. And about the answer dad sometimes silence holds answer" I said to him before running to the room.

I had been waiting for many years to give him these. These are things that I had kept safe for so long years. Every day I see them and pray to god to anyhow bring my father in front of me. So that I could him these gifts. They had something which no shop can have, no person can pay for them. They are priceless.

I open my cupboard and take out two boxes freshly wrapped in a beautiful gift wrapper of the blue and white check. One box is small and the other one is quite bigger than it.

I hold them and ran downstairs. Dad was standing at his place only.

He was thinking about something when he saw me with these two gifts.

I know he will be thinking something bad only.

I hand him those boxes.

"What are these?" His voice sounds shocked and excited.

"Small one had all the gift wrappers which I had wrapped on the big one on every 11th February of every year. I change them because they got worn out and that one had something which you should see yourself. "

I point to the big box.

He opens it slowly like it will get hurt. He thinks about the non-living to get hurt which has no emotion but he never thought about the pain which he had given to people in his life.

He takes out the CD. He examined it carefully to find the answer to what is inside it from it only. As he doesn't have any will to ask me but it will not answer him. I only know what is inside it because I only know what's inside.

He asked, "What it had?"

"It had a video. If you see it. You will cry dad from the heart and you will regret it. You will wish to go back in time and enjoy that day with us," my voice will break in no time. I am just controlling anyhow.

I don't want him to regret or feel guilty. I just want to show him the love we had at that time for him and till now we had it. But it got a little less with time in my heart. He is my dad and will remain forever. What he did with us is wrong. He will regret it at any course of his life. He will be in pain at that time which can't be described. The pain will be emotional. It will hurt him so much that he wants to die. He will want it to end anyhow. No one will be there to understand him. He himself will not be able to make others understand his state.

But I don't want him to feel that pain. It will break him to the point that no one will join him.

He did those things because of some reason, I know. I want to find those reasons. I want to reveal the secrets of my father and mother relationship which is till now are Unrevealed secrets.

Q: Do u know what 'That Day' is?
Q: Any guesses for unrevealed secrets?
Q: Can you guess what that CD holds?
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