Sid: I know I made a huge mistake. The shit I said to her in past. Those still sometimes ring in my ears and make me feel guilty. I get nightmares of our fights. I know I should have given time to her. Those were the days she needed me the most. Every girl needs her husband the most. I felt my work is more important. I accept all that. I did accept my every single mistake but thing is it was too late. She had already left. I know we both suffered a lot be it before divorce or after divorce. Par chalo hamari to galati thi. Ek doosre ko samaj nhi paaye. We hurted each other a lot. Shayad iss cheez ki sazza mili. Par chubta ye hai ki hamare galatiyo ki sazza hamare bacho ko kyo bhugatni padi. Why they had to crave for their father or mother since birth itself? Kabhi kabhi to ye khayal bhi mann mein aata hai ki apne parents ki hi baat maanli hoti. Chahe unka reason galat hi kyo nhi tha. Par agar hamari shaadi nhi hui hoti to mere bacho ko itna suffer nhi krna padta. Galati hum dono mein se kiski thi mujhe nhi pata. But tum dono ko itna sehna pada

He bit his lower lip to control a sob as tears rolled down his eyes. He joined his hands.

Sid: I am sorry. I am so sorry beta. Because of us you two had to suffer. I don't know if I deserve your forgiveness or not but I can just apologize from you

He said breaking down. Sana held his hands while sobbing. She shooked her head vigorously.

Sana: Please no. Don't do this. Don't join your hands in front of me. Aap mujhse itne bade hai

Sid: I deserve it. I wish I had made more efforts. I had given more time to us, to our relationship

With Avu and Rahul

Avu: I wish I had tried to understand him more. I know he didn't give me time. But he was just working for us, for our family. I didn't even try to understand him. I wish I had talked to him calmly once to ye din nhi dekhna padta. I wish I had not behaved like a jerk. I even blamed of lot of things which even I know he cannot even think of. I don't what got into me those days that I thought all that shit about him. Ek time tha jab hume kehna bhi nhi padta tha aur hum ek doosre ko samaj jaate the. Aur ek ye time aa gia ki wo bol bhi rha tha ki mein kaam mein busy tha and I refused to understand

Rah: So basically the reason between your divorce was just lack of communication, lack of understanding

Avu nodded.

Avu: I always knew it was my mistake and thought of apologizing at every step. But I even knew it was him mistake. Aur jab jab maafi maangni chahi, ek hi baat mind mein aayi galati to uski bhi hai why can't he make an effort? He can also apologize. Hamesha usse blame kia ki he is not making any effort for our relationship. Usko kadar hi nhi hamare rishte ki. Ye ek time par aakar realize bhi hua ki agar effort usne nhi ki to maine bhi kaha ki. Agar wo maafi maang sakta tha to mein bhi to maang hi sakti thi. Aur agar maine khud koi koshish nhi ki to I am not even in position to blame him for unsuccessful marriage, for our broken relation. I am equally at fault. Par jab tak ye realize hua it was way too late. Wo kehte hai na fir pachtae kya ho, jab chidiya chug gayi khet

She said as a humorless chuckled escaped her lips.

Avu: I wish thoda effort kar lia hota to atleast tum dono ko apne ma baap ke pyaar ke lie itna nhi tadapna padta. I am sorry because of our faults you two had to suffer so much

Rah: You don't have to apologize from us. Humare lie to aap the dad the. You gave Sana love of both parents. Dad gave love and care to me. I or even Sana for that matter. We ain't angry from you

To be continued

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