Since the day that I first saw you. I felt something special that was tingling through my nerves. It was like a poison that was slowly crawling to my system. And before I knew it, I fell for you deep that it was so hard to surface.

Hindi ko alam kung destiny na bang matatawag pero pakiramdam ko, pinaglalapit tayo ng tadhana. Magkaibigan ang mga Nanay natin. Naging magkapitbahay tayo. Nakakasama na kita sa inuman. Nakakausap.

Pero bakit kahit na gaano na tayong kalapit dalawa, parang ang layo mo pa rin. Ang hirap mo pa ring abutin. Naalala ko nung isang beses na magkaroon ng inuman. Birthday mo.

Nag-uusap kami ng Nanay at Ate mo, pero ang atensyon mo nasa cellphone mo. Hindi ka nakikisabay sa usapan, at titingin lang kapag ikaw na ang tatagay. I was looking forward to that day para mas mapalapit pa sayo pero ikaw na mismo ang may ayaw na kausap ako.

I tried to strike a conversation when we were left alone to that cold night outside your house. I asked you something but you'd only answer me with a nod, and a simple word. Hindi.

That's when it's sinks to me that after all, you didn't even notice me a bit. Mas nadepina nga lang ng dumating ang mga kaibigan mo at nag-umpisa ka ng maging maingay. You weren't so talkative when it's only the four of us. Pero sa kanila iba ka. Siguro hindi lang talaga tayo compatible sa isa't-isa.

In the middle of your conversation with your friends. You say something that stuck trough my mind.

'Kapag nakausap nyo yung isa kong tropa.' Which is my pamangkin. 'Hindi kayo mabo-bore. Kase sobrang solid non. Masayang kasama.'

Maybe I was boring. But I tried to be lively and easy to go with, just for you to notice me. But maybe that wasn't enough.

Right now I'm trying my best to move on from you. Lalo na nalaman kong may girlfriend ka na. It's hard on my part kase palagi kitang nakikita. Nakakasalubong at minsan pa'y nagkakaroon ng pagkakataon na magkakausap tayo.

Umaasa pa rin naman ako sayo. Hindi na mawawala yun.

Na realize ko lang na pwede pa rin naman akong umasa sayo, but at the same time. Paunti-unti akong mag-mo-move on hanggang sa makalimutan ko na ang nararamdaman ko para sayo.