This is inspired and dedicated to two friends of mine. I tried envisioning both of their sides, I could say they're both in really tough places at the moment and I hope they work it out.

I'm especially worried for the one who plays "him" because he's very suicidal. He's really not in the right place and state of mind, also suffering from a severe sickness. At first, I had doubts in posting this, but why not share it? Enjoy!

-him-

i see her smile everyday

she laughs at the most little of things

her personality like the sunshine,

opposing my black and dark persona

-her-

i see his dark orbs staring up at me

i wonder why?

do i have something on my face?

i look away, ignoring the feeling at the pit of my stomach

-him-

another gloomy day, another useless day

i live a stupid life

but when i see her smile,

my heart stops a beat, and i smile, my worries wavering

-her-

he likes me

it's not like i do not know,

i just never thought that it is true

sadly, i do not return his feelings

-him-

i think she likes me

she always smiles at me,

is it a sign?

then again, she smiles at everybody

-her-

terrible, terrified, dread

he is a dark, sad person already

i do not want to add to it

. . . i do not want to hurt him

-him-

she is far away,

slipping through my fingers, like trying to grip sand

we are two different people

too different

she smiles, i frown

she is my sunshine

she is my light

as i close my eyes, tears trickling down my face

i know i am not hers

for i am nothing,

just a useless human being living in the wrong world.