Chapter 42: I can wait Forever

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Why did be bring me here?

I don't fancy this kind of place.

But why do I get this sudden feeling of excitement and...

Butterflies in my stomach?!

No! I can't possibly be falling for this guy's trap. I won't join those fangirls who shriek because of him.

A bandwagon definitely not a good idea to mingle with.

Medyo nag-liwanag ang paligid. At eto, parang theater ang kapaligiran. Nasa second story ako tapos nakita ko namang bumaba si Flynn diretso sa stage. What's he doing?

Nakatayo lang ako dito, frozen. Oblivious to what will happen next. Kahit na alam kong may fancy seats behind me, I ignored it. I'm having the perfect view while standing.

Then he started...

♪ You look so beautiful today. When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away ♪

...Singing?

♪ So I try to find the words that I could say. I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away ♪

Yun mga mata nya, sa akin lang nakatitig. Hindi na talaga ako makagalaw. Bakit ba feeling ko malapit na sakin 'tong taong 'to? Pakiramdam ko kilala na kita.

♪ And I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns gray. ♪

Kaso lang parang mali ako eh. Imposible naman yun. Kakakilala ko lang sayo eh. Diba Jake?

♪ And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight, 'cause I just can't take it... ♪

♪ Another day without you with me is like a blade that cuts right through me. But I can wait, I can wait forever. ♪

Yeah. I miss someone. </3 Bakit ba ganito iniisip ko?! Nakakainis lang.

♪ When you call my heart stops beating, when you're gone it won't stop bleeding. But I can wait, I can wait forever. ♪

♪ You look so beautiful today. ♪

Ngumiti sya sakin pagkakanta nya nun line na yun.

♪ It's like every time I turn around I see your face. ♪

Tinuro nya ako sabay nagwink. I felt restless. Nanghina ako dun ah.

♪ The thing I'll miss the most is waking up to see you. When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay. And I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns gray ♪

But this time parang may sadness na sa mga mata nya. He's feeling the lyrics.

♪ And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight. 'Cause I just can't take it. Another day without you with me is like a blade that cuts right through me. But I can wait, I can wait forever ♪

He stopped singing, but the music is still on background. Anu yun? Pinapatunayan ba nya na siya talaga yung kumakanta by leaving the minus one playing?

Edi siya na!

Then bigla naman siyang nagsalita.

"Katherine, I know it's hard to believe this, but...

I like you. Really, I do."

Yeah. It's hard to believe in it. E anu ba naman yun, it's way too fast!

"Think all you want but," napatawa siya ng mahina. "I think it's more than that. That's harder, right? But I'm not asking for you to believe nor speak some comment. All I want you to do is listen."

Naglakad siya papuntang gitna. Sa tapat ko. As in tapat. Height and distance is the only thing in between.

"You're special. I've never felt anything like this before to someone."

My forehead creased in deep confusion. What?! I'm not easy to fall mister!

"You're curious, I know. Close your eyes and just feel. You'll know something, feel it. Please?"

So there. 

♪ I know it feels like forever. I guess that's just the price I've gotta pay, but when I come back home to feel your touch makes it better. Until that day there's nothing else that I can do. ♪

I really felt someone familiar. Ano ba! Ayoko nang maging curious. Bakit ba ganito ang nangyayari? Ang weird na. Can somebody explain?

And I just can't take it...

♪ Another day without you with me is like a blade that cuts right through me. But I can wait, I can wait forever ♪

"I hope you'll call when this heart stops beating." he did not sing. Nagsalita lang siya na parang totoo na ina-adress nya talaga yung mga ito.

"Because when you're gone, it won't stop bleeding."

"And you know that..."

"I can wait forever." he said silently.

Bumaba siya sa gitnang stairs ng stage at lalakad papunta sa part ko. Wala lang akong imik. Bakit, ano bang dapat kong sabihin? Meron ba? Wala naman eh.

Habang naglalakad sya, nagsalita ulit sya.

"You know, Katherine.

I've never expected someone to give me this kind of feeling." Mabagal lang syang naglalakad, habang nasa magkabilang bulsa ang kanyang mga kamay.

"I've been this cold guy who knows nothing about love.

I thought of it as a nonsense thing, and that there's nothing wonderful about it."

I can understand English but not his version. Anu ba! Wala akong maintindihan. Naiinis ako na ewan.

"All I know about love is family, friends, God and my career."

"Until," malapit na sya sakin. Lumapit sya nang malapit na malapit at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"I found you."

He looked me in the eyes. We're staring at each other. But I broke the connection. I looked away and pulled my hand back.

"Is there something wrong?" tanong nya.

"Yeah. You're joking." tumawa ako nang pilit. "Stop now. Bring me home."

"Well I'm not. And I won't. Not just yet."

Nawala ang pilit kong ngiti. "You're not? Bakit?"

He shrugged. "I can't tell."

"You can't? That's absurd!" umisnob ako. "I'll be frank now."

Huminga muna ako nang malalim.

"First of all, I don't even know you. Okay?! Bear that in mind! And obviously you don't know me. Ano pala yang mga sinasabi mo ha?! Kasi ba ako na lang yung nagiisang hindi mo mapaibig gamit ang charms mo?! Insanity!"

"I never said anything. Did I?"

"That's what you're trying to do! I'm not dense, fyi! Don't mess around. Bring me home!"

Asar! Lumayo ako sa kanya. Ayoko eh. Feeling ko baka bumigay ako sa kanya kasi I feel like he's someone familiar. Someone na madaling magustuhan. Someone I know I'm comfortable with.

At tsaka,

Mahirap magmahal ng artista. Maraming issues, rumors, at kaagaw. Lalong lalo na ang time. So excuse me. I'll pass.

Lumapit sya sakin at akmang hahawakan kamay ko. Nilayo ko naman bigla.

"Don't touch me!"

Parang naoffend sya sa sinabi ko. I feel guilty.

Umatras sya. "Fine. I won't. Good bye." at tsaka siya tumakbo palabas.

Gusto kong umiyak sa totoo lang. Bakit ba parang gusto ko syang habulin? Kung may dapat pala akong kainisan, sarili ko yun.

Hinabol ko sya. Kaso hindi ko naman sya nasundan. Walang katao-tao. Nakalabas na ako ng theatre, pero wala pa rin sya. Umuwi na kaya?

Maglakad lakad lang ako. I don't know the place. Pero parang may park or something dito. Still I can see a humongous gate very far away from me. School din ba 'to? Company? May mga buildings din kasi. Wala naman akong magawa. I'll call kuya later na lang kapag nalaman ko kung nasaan ako at magpapasundo. Naglalakad muna ako papunta roon sa parang park nga. Ang laki ng place, wala nga lang tao. Yung paligid puno ng lights in different color.

May fountain sa gitna. Just like in the movie When In Rome. Kaya lang mas maganda yun, parang imitation lang 'to.

Pumunta ako roon. Inikot ko yung fountain and then I found HIM on the other side. Hindi nya ako nakikita. Kaya eto ako nagdedecide pa rin kung lalapitan ko ba.

Should I?

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