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  I groaned softly, my body consumed with a dull ache as I opened my eyes. I was on a tall, four-post, bed with a crimson-colored comforter. To my surprise and utter disgust, I had a radar dish-shaped plastic around my head so it was hard to maneuver my head. 

'Heh were in a cone' Damien spoke with a light chuckle

Shut up it's entirely humiliating.

There was no one in the room so I decided I needed to find out what the hell was happening. As I stood my muscles stretched in protest as I realized there was a cast on my leg. Fuck. This would make everything harder. As I did a weird three-legged shuffle off the bed towards the door it swung open and the black-haired man came in. "Oh well hello!" he greeted. "How is the leg feeling?"

I immediately crouched in a defense posture and bared my teeth thinking of how funny I looked with the fucking cone on my neck. "Calm down. Just checking in. My name is Blake. How about we take that cone off him?" 

As much as I didn't want him near me the cone was annoying the hell out of me so I gave a gruff nod. He approached cautiously and the second he took it off I backed up further. "Alright, but if you start chewing on it I will put the cone back on" he threatened. I growled softly. I just wanted to get out of here.

His eyes glazed over as he mind-linked the pack. Within seconds I heard shouting at the door and two more me and one woman came in. I sniffed the air and realized that the two men were alpha and beta and the woman I assumed was a healer from her herby scent. 

The alpha crouched forward and I realized he was the one next to the black-haired man that caught me. I growled and backed up my rump hitting the wall. "Your probably hungry," he said as he put a dish with meat in front of me, "My name is Andrew and I'm the alpha of this pack. We had spotted your cave a couple of weeks back and thought to leave you be. That is until you went and hurt yourself," he chuckled and slid the plate closer. I cautiously leaned forward as saliva gathered in my mouth. 

My instincts kicked in and I growled at Andrew and the black-haired man to back up as I was protecting my food. Once they did I gingerly started eating. At one point I stopped glared at Andrew and spit a small white pill out of my mouth. He instantly frowned and picked it up. "It's for pain," he started moving forward and noting his head at Blake. 

Blake suddenly lunged gently but firmly holding me to the ground as Andrew grabbed my muzzle and pried it open, putting the pill in the back of my throat. Once they realized I wasn't swallowing it Andrew massaged my throat causing me to swallow. The second he realized my muzzle I had his forearm in my jaws gently biting down on it just enough to draw blood. I quickly released him and ran under the bed slightly terrified as I realized I was just bit an alpha.

Thankfully they left me alone and pushed the bowl of food under the bed, but I refused.

Mateo says I'm too fat..and he's right I shouldn't eat that.

My body was sore and the cast was annoying the hell outta me as I curled up near the back of the wall. Once I heard the door close signalling that the trio left I closed my eyes. Immediately a terrifying nightmare came.

I was running in the forest, pumping my legs as hard as I could while my blood left a trail behind me. The wounds all around my body couldn't be counted as they were more then a usual rouge. I was is terrible pain, but I couldn't stop. I had to get over the border or Mateo would catch me and the torture would continue. It had been months since he rejected me but he kept me in that dungeon for his pleasure. 

I woke up realizing I was in the middle of a panic attack and hyperventilating badly. I prayed that I wouldn't have flashbacks but soon the memories dragged me under 

---TRIGGER WARNING---

Apparently Mateo and his pack found it fun to use me. Two of them would come at a time one would hold me down while the other raped me. It hurt so much but my pleas for them to stop didn't matter. Afterwards, I felt disgusted and they would beat me for not being good enough. 

I was laying on the floor after the men had just left and were sobbing. I heard a creak and looked dip to find Mateo sneering at me. "I heard you thought you could hit one of my men?" my face drained of color as I remembered trying to hit them to get them to stop. "We'll have to fix that then hmm?" I couldn't move as I was chained to the wall as he grabbed a knife and drove it into both my wrists before breaking both of them with his boot. When he was done I was screaming bloody murder, but he didn't stop.

He stepped on my fingers smiling as an audible crack was heard. I was a sobbing mess and he just kicked me on my back and whipped me. Each time I screamed, but no one heard or cared. When he left I kept thinking over and over. Why? Why would my mate do this? Mates are meant to love and care for each other. There supposed to be each others lovers and caregivers. Maybe I'm just not good enough. Maybe mateo hates me because I'm disgusting. He said so himself. Maybe I deserve this?

I came to when someone was shaking me, gripping my fir gently. In my panicked frenzy I snarled and turned to snap my jaws on the arm. But the person was too fast. I growled and as I calmed down I saw Andrew standing in front of me with a surprised yet gentle smile. 

"Are you ok?"

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