Sorry for the late update guys.😥😥😥

Had a lot going on in my life and mind.

This chapter is dedicated to OcsThoughts

I really appreciate your words of encouragement.

Notice: There are mentions of suicide, death and other things you might not be comfortable with . So kindly beware.🙏🙏🙏

Erinfolami's Pov.

One thing I know today is , I have no excuse today . I have got to be inside that house today either I like it or not.

I took Kelvin's notes with me and headed to the library to settle my head , nerves and entire body . I was becoming irritated and annoyed and I knew sooner or later I am going to take my anger out on  someone innocent.

Exactly what I was avoiding.

I sat down gently, opened his notes and dived veraciously in the note . Funny how I did not even rush , I took my time drawing all the curves and intricate letters so beautifully than I have ever done in my life.

The reason for this decision unknown but, nevertheless I was so much enjoying it .

Extremely satisfying

***

Ring Ring

I was interrupted from my writing , looking at the phone which I had sneaked into the school.

Our principal must not even know, but do I give two fucks about ? Absolutely not .

Looking at the time on my phone, I exclaimed "Jehovah Nissi".

2:48

12 minutes to closing time.

Hastily I packed all my books into my bag, arranged everything and made sure I did not forget everything.

"Good bye Mrs Adebisi" I said to the librarian.

Without waiting for her response I jetted out of the library, by the time I would make my way from the library into the class.

The bell for closing time had been rung .
Well because I practically cat walked very slowly.

Sighing I buckled my bag closer and began the journey back home.

I had to walk to my home due to the fact that aunt labake did not seem to think that I deserved to be driven around in a car .

I had walked for fifteen minutes and it felt like the sun decided to shine on only me today because my armpits and face were soaked with sweat.

After a long walk , I finally got home.
"Here goes nothing" I whispered to my self .

Opening the door with the last amount of courage left inside of me.

I immediately went on my knees and began to crawl towards Aunt Labake who was sprawled carelessly on the chair.

In suprised and shock, she stood up from the chair in a hurry to me and pulled me up to my feet.

"What do you think you are doing? Sho Fe koba mi ni? What will Big mummy say if she had seen you?
"Se o ya were ni? " She whisper yelled.

"I have your time today "

Refusing to stand up I stayed rooted to the floor , with my knees kissing the floor.

Just immediately, I heard Big mummy's  footstep coming from somewhere inside the house and soon enough she was with us in the parlor.

Her line of vision soon located me in the parlor , kneeling down.

"Ahhhhhhhh ! Erin baby what happened why are you on the floor" she queried .

With a wicked smile and bombastic side eye . I looked at Aunt Labake who by now had panic written all over her face , before replying " Big mummy , that is how Aunt Labake said I should be greeting her o. " I said with a mischievous smile and tone.

" Big mummy do not mind her o" Aunt Labake quickly cut me off.

"Big mummy, It's a lie oo."
I quickly interjected.

"Wo, The two of you are not okay". Big mummy chided in playfully.

I guess she could not get the hint . Well nobody ever does.

After lots of persuasion and excessive begging from Big mummy and Aunt Labake, I stood up finally.

I knew that at this point . Auntie Labake was vulnerable and could not do anything to be .
I decided to use this opportunity to taunt and torment her.

Funny enough, I really don't know how Aunty Labake is to me.

All I know is as I came of age , she is always that one person that is always with me.

I can't call her my mother because, she does not behave like one.

Apart from her, Big mummy is another significant person in my life.

All my life as always been dictated and directed by this two people. We on most cases are always together but yet I feel no emotional attachment to them.

Drawing myself away from my array of thoughts. I reluctantly pulled my self into my room to get a bath .

I started with my tie , then my shirt , Soon enough I was  almost stark naked in my room when all of a sudden I heard the creepy and eerily sounding voice whisper to me.

"Go close to the mirror"

I went close to the mirror hanging at a side of my room and looked straight into it.

What I saw in there shook me into my bones.

Standing before me, stood a lifeless soul with blank eyes staring straight at me with an intensity strong enough to drill holes into my head.

I gulped at how the force of the intensity of her stare no glare was intimidating.

The only confusing thing was not the girl in the mirror looks so much like me but ...

And just like that she opened her mouth to speak.

When I saw her mouth move , I was expecting one thick voice . Instead, I was surprised at the babyish voice coming out of her voice.

First of all , I'll just pretend that , the fact that my mirror is talking to me is not creepy and scary and continue.

Erinfolami, Ayanriola , Elizabeth, Sharon, Ibukunoluwa, Oluwajomiloju.

She called all of my names in a single breath.

" You see the image that is reflected towards you from is exactly what and who you are." she started fiercely.

"That is not me" I countered fiercely with the same tone she used .

"Oh shut up slut! You really think that, that is not you? " She questioned rhetorically.

" What do you expect a person who lets different men and specimen get between her legs to look like? "
" Lifeless and useless ".

She answered her  own question.

Without giving me a chance to talk she continued.

" I really do not know your purpose here on earth , You are nothing but a worthless and filthy piece of shit. Everything that Aunt Labake is making you go through, is exactly what you deserve" She spat fiercely and cruelly.

"Nonentities like you deserve to be used and maltreated like the slave that you are."

She was barely done talking at the tears that had welled up in my eyes because of her hurtful words.

"Ever wonder what you are?  You are monster. A big and heartless monster " She shouted , her voice getting louder with every word.

" It's only a matter of time before everyone gets to know the kind of monster you are. Like that you will get to realize how worthless you are to everyone" She continued not minding how I was gasping for air due to my excessive crying.

" To save you from that stress, Erinfolami Ayanriola . My one and only advice to you right now is DIE!!!" She bellowed venomously at me while the veins on her neck were looking so strained.

"Die . Yes kill yourself you are not wanted on earth . "

DIEE!!!!

She screamed and voilla the effects of her words began to slowly sink in .

" Die"
"Slut"
"Worthless"
"Useless"
"Monster"
"Not wanted"
"Heartless"

"Die"

Those words kept ringing in my head .

In a matter of seconds I let out a gut wrenching scream.

" Noooo"

"Leave me alone" I cried profusely.

Without thinking I took out a scissors from my bag and dug into my skin.

I watched how blood gently seeped from my hands. Not satisfied with the way the blood was rushing.

I dug deeper into my skin and made sure that the scissors was touching the bones in my hand.

I watched amusingly at the rate the blood was rushing out like tap water.

"So satisfying"
I mumbled.

In only pant and bra , I sat on the floor in the room and watched interestingly as the blood quickly formed a pool .

Till I could faintly hear my heart beat and like that life slipped out of me.

OMFG!!!!!!!

What did Erinfolami just do???😥😥😱😱😱😱.

Now on a more serious note, suicide is never an option please Biko I'm begging.🙏🙏

I get that things are can very tough and frustrating but please never consider suicide as an option.

There are still lots of his that God has beautifully mapped out for you so please be patient and endure.🙏🙏

Make you no die young Ejeh 😔❤️ please don’t chase what hard more than your power ejeh I will not lose you 🙏 .

Leave everything to God Almighty. He is the all sufficient God.

I just feel like someone needs to hear this.

P.s : This is unedited. I just felt the need to publish this . I don't know why I am feeling this way.🙏🙏🙏

Xoxo lovelies.🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Remember that there's someone that cares.🥰🥰🥰🥰

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