Harry's pov:

A half hour later and Me, Draco, Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Pansy, Luna, Blaise, Seamus, Dean, Hannah and Neville were all sitting in the room of requirements. "So do you all want to play truth or dare? Or spin the bottle." Draco asked around.

"Why don't we play wizard truth or dare?" Pansy asked smirking. I tilted my head in confusion, "what's different about wizard truth or dare and muggle truth or dare?" Draco giggled, looking at me, "wizard truth or dare is magically binding. You cast a spell that basically makes everyone tell the truth, it also makes you complete your dares." I nodded nervously, not knowing whether I wanted to do that or not. "Let's do it!" Neville says.

I smiled fondly at him, proud of how much he's come out of his shell. Seeing everyone agree, I agreed as well. Draco cast the spell, and we began to play. "Pansy truth or dare?" Blaise asked eyeing the girl fondly. "Dare!" She shouted excitedly, making me chuckle at her energy.

Blaise ended up daring her to snog him, which she happily did and I rolled my eyes at the two. "Alrighttt, anyways, Potter truth or dare?" Pansy asked me, making me a bit nervous. "Uhm, truth." She snickered, eyeing me and then Draco. "Do you have a crush on someone in this room?" She asked and I just blurted "yes" loudly, finally feeling the effects of the spell. I really had no choice but to tell the truth, it felt weird.

All eyes were on me all smirking, and I just rolled my eyes. "Enough with it guys. Seriously." I didn't want to say anything else, they all know I'm not ready to get into anything. Although I think they all knew I was serious about dropping it with the look on my face.

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The game continued for awhile, joking and laughing as people completed funny dares, and answered silly questions. No one pushed me about my crush any further which I was content with. After awhile people started to get tired of playing that though, and decided it was time for spin the bottle.

I was nervous to say the least, but was just having fun being able to be a teenager so I didn't let the nervousness set in too much. "Alright guys! Rules are simple, spin the bottle, don't touch it until it stops, and kiss whoever it lands on. Has to be on the lips, doesn't have to be long. No backing out, anyone who does has to streak through the corridors." I gasped at that part, looking up at Draco like he was mad.

"Close your mouth princess, you'll catch flies." He said winking at me. I blushed immediately at the fact that he just called me princess in-front of everyone. "How many times must I tell you Malfoy, stop calling me princess!" He just shrugged, "how many times do I have to call you that for you to realize that I'm not going to stop." He rolled his eyes, ruffling my hair, to which I just stuck my tongue out at him.

We missed everyone watching us with knowing eyes, smiling softly at the interaction. Finally Draco put his attention back on the game. "Alright I'll spin the bottle whoever it lands on goes first." Everyone nodded as Draco spun the bottle in the circle of us all.

It landed on Hermione. She blushed, grabbing the bottle and spinning it herself, watching it go around until it stopped on Pansy. She chuckled lightly, and gave Ron a look to make sure he was okay with it. "Mione we chose to play the game, you're fine, I'd rather you kiss some of my mates than streak infront of half the bloody school." We all chuckled at this, and Mione nodded leaning over and quickly kissing Pansy.

"Soft lips Granger, your turn Weasel." Hermione blushed at her comment, and Ron spun the bottle. It very slowly landed on Blaise, and we all laughed loudly. "I guess couples snogging other couples is the trend tonight." Ron said before quickly pecking Blaise as they both grimaced and acted very over dramatically about the whole situation.

When it finally got to me I was nervous to say the least, I spun the bottle and it landed on Ginny. Me and Ginny had feelings for one another at one point, but we slowly realized we were way better off as friends, considering I realized I was gay anyways. I shrugged, leaning over slowly and connecting our lips. It was a short peck, however when I sat back down I could feel Draco's hand on my leg. I looked up and felt butterflies in my stomach at the expression on his face.

Draco was jealous, and it was as clear as day. He wouldn't have to be for long though. He spun the bottle and it landed right on me like it was meant to be. I looked up with wide eyes, blushing slightly. He didn't give me much time to react though as he grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. It wasn't rough, but it wasn't soft either, it was full of desire and want. We kissed longer than we should have, and when he finally pulled apart my breathing was fast paced, I looked around the room.

All eyes were on us, and they all started clapping. "Finally!"

"About time!"

"They're so going to end up together."

"Drarry has sailed!"

"What the bloody hell is a Drarry?"

(TW: panic attack and thoughts of self hatred. Stay safe loves.)

That's when the pure panic set in, I looked at Draco, and at all the eyes around me. I freaked out, I Harry Potter, just snogged the Draco Malfoy. I know it was just a game, I knew it was just a game when we started. It just all happened so fast. I got up slowly, ignoring the yells behind me and hurried out of the room. I didn't know where I was going. Or what was happening, I just kept running.

I hoped no one was following me, I went straight to Moaning Myrtles bathroom. I couldn't breathe, I paced staring at the floor, Myrtle starting talking to me but I couldn't hear her really. All I could hear was my heart pounding, and voices started filling my head. Everyone that died in the war, screaming at me. Telling me I didn't deserve to be happy.

They were right, I was too carefree. I was the reason people lost their lives, I was the reason Fred was gone, Snape, Collin, Cedric, Moody, Dobby, Hedwig ... so many others. I couldn't get their voices out of my head, I hated myself. I should've been the one to die.

Why do I get to live, when all those others died? At this point my breathing was little to none, the room started to go black. I could feel myself slipping away with their voices screaming at me. It all felt fuzzy, everything, and before I knew it..

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A/N sorry this took a dark turn😫

Date posted: 12/09/2022

-H🫶🏼