Soon enough the others arrived too, all with different expressions, but I was still on the ground, trembling.
Killed...?
Was she really killed?
By one of us?
Why don't I believe that?
Is it my gut feeling?
I mean, I've been quite right for the other cases, and if my intuition says she wasn't killed by one of us then maybe...
Maybe Togami's harsh words actually pushed her into suicide?
But...She was such a strong and sensible person...Both in body and spirit...
Would she really have left this place without a real reason?
But even so...Just the fact that she is here no more...And that I'm staring at her body after a potential suicide...It's making me...
Sick.
Suicide...

The number of times I have contemplated it and chose how to go off with every descriptive detail is making my head spin, but I never had the courage to actually do it, especially after thinking how devastated my brother would have been.
I couldn't even bring myself to think about that.
And now...
He must be worried sick...
My sweet big brother...
I wonder if he's watching this.
I wonder if he's trying to rescue me...Us.
I wonder if he ever realized that he is the reason I still have Hope for a better tomorrow.

me: Kyouko...I...
Kyouko: *nods* I know. It will be okay, Raven. It will be okay.
me: B-But...
Togami: I see, so Oogami Sakura was killed.
me: SHE WASN'T KILLED!
Togami: Oh really? Cause the way I see it, she is dead right in front of me, and the only one who could have done that is one of us.
me: You sick monster...Maybe if you actually the capacity of feeling human emotions, you'd realize that might not be the case. Kyouko, I'm leaving.
Kyouko: Stay safe.
me: You too...

The first place I went to was the new Chemistry lab, to see if there were still available pills for me, but I was relatively shocked at what I discovered.
In front of the cabinets, yellow powder was all over the flower, and footprints could be easily detected and as well as that, a broken bottle of poison.
Just great.
Did she drink poison? I mean, that would make sense, in correlation with the blood on her chin.
Analysing the footprints better, and putting my own shoe next to it, it was rather obvious the person who stepped in the powder was a girl...Possibly one wearing trainers...Like Asahina.
Ahem, whatever.
Cabinet A seems to be where the protein shake would have been, with nutritional supplements, Cabinet B has chemical reagents and Cabinet C has poisons.
Question is-
Why was the C poison in Cabinet A?

Soon enough, I snapped out of my thinking process when the door was opened and Togami entered the room.
Scoffing, I rush out of there as soon as possible, but I was caught my the arm before I could.

Togami: Look, Black, I don't care if I hurt your or anyone else's feelings, but I'm not her killer.
me: See if I care.
Togami: A plebeian like you talking to me like that-
me: You're not a patrician in here, so enough of that condescending attitude and let me go. I want nothing to do with you.
Togami: How can you change so much in such a short time?
me: Change...? Are you kidding me? You really think you attitude was normal? You think it was okay to speak like that?
Togami: It was the truth, and truth hurts.
me: No, truth doesn't hurt, it's the way to word it that hurts. You can say the same thing in two different ways, and one of them would hurt the person, while the other will make them understand. One of them is sensible, while the other is toxic. And to be honest...I've had enough toxicity in my life, I don't need you adding more to it! Now let me go!
Togami: So now it's my fault?
me: Well spotted, genius.
Togami: Your attitude is pissing me off.
me: And what'd you have me do? Sugarcoat everything I say? Do you do that? No, so why should I?

*Ding Dong Bing Bong*

me: Oh, yes, marvelous, the trial is starting and I barely got any physical evidence to get going.
Togami: Let's just go.
me: Don't need you telling me twice.

Sighing exasperated, he picked me up once again, despite my utmost protests, and not saying anything, we arrived to the Trial Room, where everyone kept arguing between themselves.

Monokuma: Well, then, where should we start?
Asahina: We already know who the culprit is...!
Monokuma: Ah! I think I feel a deja-vu!
Asahina: The culprit who killed Sakura-chan....Is one of the three people who hated her! Togami, Fukawa, Hagakure - it must be one of you!!
Togami: Heh. How foolish...
Toko: I...I have nothing to do with it...
Hiro: S...S...She's right...! T...T...There's no way I'd kill someone...!
Asahina: I won't listen to any excuses...! It was one of you three......Who killed Sakura-chan!
Togami: Why do you think one of us is the culprit?
me: I wonder why...
Asahina: You had motive...! You hated Sakura-chan!
Togami: That... Doesn't amount to anything. Don't accuse people for just one measly reason...
Asahina: You're the worst... Even as a human being, you're the worst...!
me: That's...not wrong.
Naegi: The reason Asahina-san suspects you is that all of you have been invited by Oogami-san, isn't it?
Asahina: That's right...Right before the murder took place...! That's why I have no doubt! One of them killed Sakura-chan! You were all called out by Sakura-chan...That's suspicious, no matter how you look at it! The culprit must be one of you three!
Togami: I admit that I was invited by her...But I didn't go to meet her.
Toko: I...I also didn't go.
Hiro: M...Me too... I didn't go to meet her, 'right?
Asahina: There's no way all three of you didn't go! One of you is lying!!
Naegi: Hagakure-kun. When I was talking to you earlier, you dropped a small piece of paper, didn't you? It had a red polka-dot pattern printed on it...
Hiro: W...Why are we suddenly talking about that!?
Asahina: That's the same as the paper the candy I gave Sakura-chan was wrapped in!
Hiro: N...No, that's just... You see...
Asahina: Right after the storage room opened, I took the entire box of that candy for myself...I'm pretty sure there weren't any left there!
Kyouko: In that case, where exactly did you get that candy, Hagakure-kun?
Asahina: He got it from Sakura-chan! There's no other way!
Hiro: U...Um...... Y...You see... I...It's true that the ogre gave it to me, but...But she gave it to me a long time ago! It has nothing to do with this murder!!
Naegi: When...Did she give it to you...? You said the last time you saw Oogami-san was when she left the infirmary with Asahina-san, didn't you?
Hiro: W...Well, she gave it to me before that happened...
Kyouko: Hagakure-kun... What you say is strange. Asahina-san gave Oogami-san those candies after they left the infirmary. If the last time you saw her was at that time, it isn't possible you already got that candy from her!
Hiro: What!? T...That's... Y...you see... I...Yes, I met her! I met the ogre at the recreation room! Is there something wrong with that?!!
me: You suck at lying, man.
Toko: A...A counterattack?
Hiro: But I just met her! I didn't do anything! Please, believe me!!
Toko: C...Could you be more suspicious...?
Hiro: It's you who's suspicious!!
Toko: ...Another counterattack?
Hiro: This is not just a regular counterattack! The culprit is Fukawa-chi! I have proof!
Toko: Huh...? W...What kind of proof...?
Hiro: A "shining message"!! There was a message in blood saying "FUKAWA" at the crime scene, right? That's right! It's a "dying message"! There was something just like that back during Maizono-chi's murder, wasn't there!
Asahina: Ah! I saw that too!
Hiro: Yeah, that's right! The culprit is Fukawa-chi!!
Toko: W...W...What are you saying?! T...There's no way...!
Hiro: Don't be such a bad loser!
me: ENOUGH OF THIS! Hagakure, did you really have to pull a Sayaka/Leon stunt, just to prove you're not the culprit You're seriously pissing me off!
Kyouko: When did you find that dying message, exactly?
Hiro: Eh...? Um... I think that was... Right when we found the ogre's body, 'right?
Kyouko: That's right. You were banned from the crime scene by Asahina-san, weren't you. In other words, there was no other time when you could have found that dying message.
Naegi: That magazine was in the magazine-rack when you found it, wasn't it, Kirigiri-san?
Kyouko: It was. I pulled the magazine out of the magazine rack and found the dying message in it. It was after we started our investigation...In that case, what Hagakure-kun just said is kind of weird, isn't it.
Hiro: ...W...Weird? What's so weird?! There's nothing weird here!! I found that dying message...
me: Yeah, you magically found the message during the time you weren't allowed in the room, great job, lemurian brain.
Kyouko: Hagakure-kun, tell us the truth... When did you see that dying message?
Hiro: W...Wait... That shouldn't be the question...! The problem isn't when I saw that message...! According to the "viking sausage" the ogre left, there's no doubt the culprit is Fukawa-chi!
Asahina: I...I'm not sure which part of that sentence I should respond to first...!
Toko: I...It's all his doing...!
Kyouko: I wonder if Oogami-san even wrote that dying message in the first place.
me: Of course not, her hands were clean, right?
Hiro: WHAAAAAAAAT!?
Asahina: So... Who wrote that dying message?
me: Hagakure, of course. He thought he could feign cleverness by recycling an already used idea.
Hiro: Yeah... That's right...
Asahina: Ah... He confessed...!
Kyouko: Just as I thought...
Naegi: But...Why did you fake that message...?
Hiro: T...That's because...It's because I killed the ogre!!

After Hagakure confessed to having met Sakura, taking the candy and hitting her in the head with one of those bottles, Asahina and Fukawa insisted we vote him as the culprit, but Kyouko said she had not one, but TWO hits in the head, which made it obvious that Fukawa ALSO visited Sakura and hit her.
This case is getting sadder and sadder with each second passing.
Just...Why?

me: CAN EVERYONE STOP FOOLING AROUND?! Hagakure and Fukawa are pissing me off with the disrespect showing! Yeah, good job, you hit a person who didn't want to harm you, great job,y ou're amazing. Maybe own up to your mistakes?! Furthermore, I better make it clear for everyone that she wasn't killed from those blows to the head, dammit! So now, if anyone has PROPER evidence SPEAK UP!
Kyouko: Thank you for the words of ration, I needed that in all this chaos.
me: Honestly, how old are you, people? Five?

Then, Genocider started continuing the story from where Toko left it, with the "gentle persuasion" from Togami, until there was something very odd about both her story and Asahina's demeanor.

me: I mean, don't mind me butting in, but Hina, why can't you just shut up and wait until the trial is over? You never know how this will turn out.
Hina: But with all this evidence, it's clearly Fukawa who did it!
me: On the contrary, as much as I dislike her, I think the killer is someone...Unexpected.
Hina: But she was killed because of those wounds on her head!
me: That's wrong. She must have been poisoned, otherwise she wouldn't have vomited blood, you know?
Hiro: WHAT?!
Syo: Oh, my body's getting numb!!
Hina: P...Poison...? T...That's impossible...!
Togami: You don't believe it? I guess you need to explain to these simpletons, Black.
me: Better show then explain. There's a large cabinet in that chemistry lab, and there are all sorts of chemicals in it. I found this bottle in there...
Togami: It wasn't there when I got there. Why?
me: I took it, obviously. Why should you know all the secrets?
Hina: I...Is that... Poison...!?
me: It's not that strong a poison, but if you drink too much of it you'll die. But it's not the nature of the poison that's important. What's important is where this poison was.
Hiro: Where was it?
Togami: The cabinet in the chemistry lab is divided into three sections, labeled A, B and C. Cabinet A contains nutritional supplements. Cabinet B contains chemical reagents. Cabinet C contains a number of poisons and dangerous drugs.
Syo: That means this poison bottle was inside cabinet C, doesn't it!?
me: It was in Cabinet A. It's because it's one side of an exchange the culprit made.
Togami: That's ridiculous.
me: Watch and learn, newby.

With a bored expression, I gulped the contents of the bottle in the blink of an eye, then made a rather disgusted face.

Togami: What the-?! You gotta throw it up fast, you idiot!
me: Asahina...How the hell do you drink this disgusting thing?!
Hina: Huh...? What are you talking about...?
me: I'm talking about protein, of course.
Hina: Protein...?
Kyouko: Then, the content of that bottle was protein powder from the very beginning.
me: That's right. This bottle doesn't contain poison. It's just protein powder. On the other hand...The poison... Was probably in a protein can...
Naegi: The culprit gave Oogami-san... The protein can? By giving her the can, the culprit caused Oogami to drink the poison. That's the true cause of her death!
Hiro: Now that you mention it... The ogre did use to say that protein cures all illnesses...!
Naegi: If she wanted to drink protein to help with the wounds she just got on her head...
me: Instead, she was given a can of protein filled with poison.
Togami: Now, let me reveal the identity of the person who exchanged the protein for poison!
Hiro: Really!? Who was it?
me: I suppose you're going to say compare everyone's shoe sizes with he footprints left in the Lab, right?
Togami: Obviously.
Hina: Those footprints... Are mine.
Naegi: A...Asahina-san...?
Hina: You would have found out anyway. It's better to just confess... Isn't it...?
Hiro: So... The person who killed the ogre...!
Hina: Yeah... That's right...I killed Sakura-chan!!
Togami: Just as suspected.

Asahina started confessing her fake story, Togami started talking shit about friendships and what not, but only I and Kyouko were still bothered by the locked room incident...
And going by her reaction, it was a suicide, after all, and she's lying...But why?
She said she went to cabinet C first, but the footprints said otherwise. Poor girl can't lie to save her life.
After Kyouko explained why Asahina couldn't be the culprit, I showed Kyouko the glass shard from the bottom of the bottle, and she explained it was from breaking the rec room's window...
Must I say, Togami's confused face is so priceless, I couldn't help but mock laugh at him.
Also, hearing her say with such confidence that the protein can was brought AFTER everyone came there, made him even more overwhelmed.

me: Asahina...That's enough...The culprit is finally obvious for everyone, I suppose.
Kyouko: I guess it was just as you said, despite being quite sad.
Togami: Wh-What do you mean?
Kyouko: It wasn't a murder.
Togami: Not a murder?!
me: It was...A suicide...
Togami: WHAT?!

Naegi then started explaining everything in detail, which left Hina cry and me trying to stop myself from doing so.
It was unfair.
All of it.
That is... The truth?

Togami: But, Naegi... How could you...? How could someone worthless like you reach this truth...? A truth... I couldn't reach myself...!
Naegi: Eh? No... I didn't mean...
Kyouko: ...You still don't get it, do you? Humans don't always act in calculated and logical ways. That's why dealing with human beings is difficult. You never understood that fact. That's why you couldn't see the truth.
Togami: Keh...!!
Kyouko: I did warn you before, didn't I? Holding people's feelings in low esteem could come back and bite you...Didn't Raven tell you that many times before too? I thought you regarded her as a friend. I guess it was all in vain anyways.
Togami: Urgh...I see. It really was the truth...
Naegi: Asahina... Why did you try to hide Oogami's death...? If you succeeded, you would also be executed...Why did you do that, even though you knew that?!
Hiro: Yeah! It was dangerous! We almost died!
me: Maybe..That's exactly why...Since you knew it was a suicide, you must have felt guilty for her death and the pain she felt...You thought we all were guilty for pressuring her, am I right?
Hina: Y-Yeah...You're right...I mean, Sakura-chan died...Because we all... Pushed her to the corner...We all... Killed her...That's why...I couldn't let her die alone, could I?! If you don't get it... I'm going to explain. I'll show you what kind of despair Sakura-chan fell into when she died! Take a look... At this.
me: What's that?
Hina: It's her suicide letter!
me: EX-EXCUSE ME, WHAT?!

"I have fallen into utter despair.
I am in despair watching everyone mercilessly fighting each other.
When all there is left to do is wait to be killed, I may as well take my own life."

Hina: I found it on the floor in front of the recreation room...It's Sakura-chan's... Suicide letter.
Naegi: Oogami-san's... Suicide letter...?
me: Noo...No...Nonono...No....This is all wrong...It's not okay...It couldn't be...Please don't....It....IT MUST BE A FAKE! Sakura was much stronger than this!

After Asahina explained everything in detail, with each sign of potential suicidal behaviour, up until the act itself, I felt myself not being able to breathe anymore, and my vision became blurry.
Was that all real?
Was the letter genuine?
It could be!
But even if it isn't...What she explained so far is heartbreaking enough as it is...

Monokuma: Hey, I realise this is an awkward moment to butt in, but...It's taking way way way way way way too long!! You talk too much, and I'm falling asleep! ...By the way, Asahina-san. Do you really understand what Oogami-san thought of when she died?
Hina: What...?
Monokuma: I mean, most of that story was your personal interpretation of the situation, wasn't it? Your interpretation based on that suicide letter...
Hina: Of course I understand her! Me and Sakura-chan...We were...!
Monokuma: What I'm trying to say here is...That you're basing it all on the wrong thing. You should have been looking at this thing right here...
Hina: W...What is that thing?
me: Is that...The real letter?
Monokuma: Ding Ding, we have a winner!
Naegi: S...Suicide letter...!? But Asahina-san already...!
Monokuma: Oh, I wrote that one. This one right here was in Asahina-san's room. It's even addressed to her!
me: *facepalms* You shitty bear...

"...To my dear friend Asahina. There are several things I must tell you."
It is pains me that I have to convey them in this form, but I want you to know."
This is... My final wish.
As you know, I was the mastermind's mole...
The mastermind first approached me the first night after we started this strange school life.
By taking my family's dojo hostage, the mastermind ordered me to help him.
You may think this is too much for a simple dojo, but it has been my family's for more than three hundred years...
I could not see it destroyed on my watch... That is why I had to protect it even at the cost of my own life.
...That is what I thought.
But, those thoughts came to me because of my own weakness.
That is why I made the mistake of following the mastermind's orders.
Then, the order the mastermind gave me was to "kill someone".
He feared that the situation will turn into a deadlock, and that no murder will occur.
But, unexpected by both me and the mastermind, Sayaka Maizono was murdered before I could act.
The plan changed accordingly.
The mastermind ordered me to stay still and wait for new orders when a deadlock situation occurs again.
But then, as I spent my life with the other students...
As I spent my life with you, Asahina...
...My determination started to waver.
I saw everyone struggling, fighting to survive...
...And I came to understand my own weakness. The weakness the mastermind took advantage of.
But, more than anything...
I came to realize one thing.
I could not betray my friends.
I do not mind being hated. My own weakness brought that upon me...
That is why I resigned to accept attacks directed at me.
I believed that was just part of atoning for my sins.
But I was naive. The situation could not be resolved just by me being disgraced.
The situation did not end with people acting only against me. And that, I believe...
That was the mastermind's true goal when he exposed me.
By revealing my betrayal, he planted seeds of discord and suspicion.
He wanted it to end in more mutual killing.
Nevertheless. That, too, is my responsibility.
It is my duty to settle this situation.
In order to fulfill that duty, I will follow the order given to me by the mastermind.
The order to "kill someone".
But, the person I will kill...
...Will be myself.
If the mastermind wants me to kill, I will kill myself.
By doing so, I can save the dojo. But more importantly, I can end it with no murder taking place.
If I am dead, the state of affairs kindling the flames of your discord will die with me.
For that, I spare my life.
You are important. As important as my own life.
Regardless of what you think, you all are my precious friends.
...The first I ever had.
Asahina. Allow me to apologize.
I could not confide with you. If I did, you would have tried to stop me.
I am truly sorry. But do not despair...
If I managed to stop the mastermind's plans... If I managed to put an end to the murders...
...That is all I could ask for.
This is the road I have chosen. My way of taking responsibility.
As long as you show everyone this letter, the school trial will come to a quick conclusion
Asahina. It may be asking for too much, but I leave the rest to you.
...I am now leaving to meet Togami, Fukawa and Hagakure.
I will not reveal to them my plans to die, but I want to try to convey my feelings.
After that, my actions will speak louder than words. They will understand then.
We are not enemies that must fight each other. We are friends that should work together.
Asahina. More than anything, I wish for you to live. To survive along with our friends.
I am certain... that you will. "

me:That...hurts...So much more...
Monokuma: ...But that only got me to reveal her secret, and turn everyone against her...She decided to act for the rest of you bastards' sake, and all she got in return was hatred!Oh, the irony!
me: I can't...Breathe...Why...Does it hurt so much...?
Hina: So... Sakura-chan...She wasn't pushed to the corner...? She didn't die giving up on everyone...? She wanted us to stop fighting...? She wanted to protect us all...?
Kyouko: Taking her own life wasn't a sign of weakness...Quite the opposite. She did it because she was strong. Very strong...That's why she decided to take her own life. In order to protect us, she chose death...That kind of self sacrifice... Is probably impossible for normal people. But she was strong. So she could do it.
Hina: T...That's... That's...I... I didn't understand Sakura-chan's feelings at all... ...And she even called me her dear friend...!
Monokuma: You really messed things up, didn't you! She died trying to put an end to the murders, but because of you it turned out looking like one! You made her death meaningless! You even put everyone else's life in danger! Oh, you're going to get it now! Everyone's going after you! That's the way the world works! You really messed things up! Upupu... I think I know who the next victim is going to be...
me: SHUT THE HELL UP, YOU FUCKASS! You're not one of us, don't speak for everyone here! Do you think anyone here would actually think of killing after everything that's happened?! And really? Meaningless death?! Are you that daft and blind, you bastard?!
Naegi: Oogami-san reminded us all...We are not enemies that must fight each other...We are friends that should work together!
Hiro: Yeah, that's right... Everything happened because we were wrong to turn our anger at the ogre...We will not turn against Asahina-chi! No one is going after her!
Monokuma: What what?!
Naegi: It doesn't matter if Oogami-san was a mole... The only one we should be fighting...Is you!!
Monokuma: W...What's up with this development?! You have it all wrong! This school life of murder is a competition between you bastards, isn't it? You are your own enemies!
Togami: Yes, Monokuma is right...
Monokuma: Oh, Togami-kun! I knew you'd understand!
Togami: This game is a competition of wits between us... One where only the winner survives. That's... Exactly what it is. And that is exactly why I'm withdrawing from this game. Asahina and Oogami tried to sacrifice their own lives, and twisted the very core of this game. Thanks to them, no one is going to lie awake in fear of being murdered anymore. The sense of thrill is gone... And so is any meaning to participating. That's why I decided to withdraw.
Monokuma: W...What is this?
Togami: ...And so, I have only one thing remaining to look forward to. Punishing the mastermind who thought he could control me!
Naegi: T...Togami-kun... Are you...?
Togami: Don't misunderstand. I am not doing this out of something like foolish sentimentalism.
me: You're such a liar...
Syo: I'm with Byakuya-sama! Who knows, the mastermind might be a boy that turns me on!
Hina: E...Everyone...!
Kyouko: So, how about it? Do you still think Oogami-san's death was meaningless?
Monokuma: Feh. You're all so boring. But, there's one thing I'm still happy about...We still have what everyone is looking forward to ahead of us!
me: The hell you talking about?
Monokuma: It's punishment time!!
Naegi: But, isn't the culprit already dead?!
Hina: M...Me...?
Monokuma: No, no, no. I will never take another student's life instead of the culprit! I'm a bear who follows the law of the jungle, you know! But we can't let it go to waste, can we? I worked so hard preparing this one! And so, I also prepared a special guest!
me: A special guest...?
Monokuma: Let's give it all we have! It's punishment time!

Shocking everyone, Monokuma killed Alter Ego, and continued with a bit of Sakura's suicide letter, which mention having had our bodies modified with by the mastermind, which means she might have agreed with my theory all along.
After this hurtful day, I decided to speed up to my room, but like over every other trial, Togami decides to push me in his room and have a 'friendly' chat.

me: Would it really hurt you to be gentle once in a while? Or just leave me alone? For someone smart like you, sensibility lacks greatly.
Togami: Tsk...Fine, then, you might have been right...Kind of.
me: Unfortunately, yeah, I know. What about it?
Togami: How did you know?
me: Know what? That she killed herself? Or about the other theory?
Togami: Both of them.
me: *sighs* You don't even bother to use the magic word...I swear...No, nevermind, I'm too tired to care anymore...The easiest way to answer the first one...I'd have killed myself too, if I were in her situation...Maybe. You don't get it cause you can't feel others' emotions...But frankly, you don't even bother to, so why bother and ask now? It happened already.
Togami: I was just...Curious.
me: Why? Because you couldn't properly solve the case again, because of your lack of understanding of the human nature? Or because Kyouko had to point it out so obviously?
Togami: You're really annoying right now.
me: I know, it seems like I've been doing that for quite a while, really. Mostly when I disagree with you. And now that my other theory has been somehow confirmed...I can only imagine how much you'd hate me now. I'm going to spare you the disgrace of having to look at my lowlife self any further and go to my own room and grieve for a friend's death. Good night.
Togami: Don't go...!
me: Hmm...? Why not? You have something else to ask me?

Suddenly, I feel myself being hugged tightly from behind, as he rested his chin on the top of my head.

me: *whispers* What...Is it?
Togami: You have to realize this doesn't come off easily out of me...But...
me: Yes?
Togami: I admit defeat.
me: That's a new one.
Togami: You're the only one I know who could help me understand ordinary humans.
me: Ah...You just need me...Again...
Togami: N-Not like that, don't misunderstand. It's not an order. It's a...Request.
me: So, you're asking me if I want to help you? Is that is?
Togami: ...Please.
me: *whistles* I lived long enough to see them all. Why, though? You've lived so long without needed it...Why now?
Togami: I don't know. Maybe I want to understand you, or perhaps I want to understand myself. I cannot tell.
me: I guess everything has a beginning. I have to ask, then, did the suicide letter touch you at all? Did you feel anything?
Togami: Urgh...Well...
me: Do you want to learn or not? Just admit it to yourself and it's fine.
Togami: Maybe a bit.
me: Then we're on the right track. Is there anything that stirred emotions in you?
Togami: I...Think I got...Concerned when you drank from the poison bottle.
me: Ah, right. You didn't know it wasn't poison. Interesting. I guess that's enough admitting for a day. One step at a time is fine.
Togami: Is that really...All?
me: I mean...There could be something else, but I'm not sure if you're ready for it.
Togami: Everything has a beginning.
me: Give me a shirt.

Just like before, they lay in bed, I wearing his shirt, and we looked at each other, holding eye contact.
Sighing, I trace my hands on his hair and face, thinking to myself...
He wants to understand me...And I want to understand myself too...
Or, rather said, my own feelings for him.
They're all a jumbled wreck and they became more confusing than the Jack the Ripper case.

me: You look so innocent like this...So nice and kind...Nobody would believe me if I were to say it. Is it how you were brought up? Or is it how you had to become? I can only imagine what hardships you had to go through to become the Heir.
Togami: *shrugs* It was difficult, but nothing I couldn't handle. It's me, after all.
me: I know. It is you. But doesn't it bother you when people say you're emotionless or inhumane?
Togami: I got used to it. It's merely amusing me now.
me: That's...Quite sad, actually.
Togami: It is how it is. You cannot change it.
me: I don't want to change you. You are yourself, and you're fine just the way you are. You just have to learn to sympathise with other or just maybe...Not hurting them when they're already hurt.
Togami: They're just weak people who get crushed by the strong ones, what's wrong with that.
me: *sighs* Byakuya...Don't say that...You are near a weak one, you know?
Togami: You're saying you're weak?
me: Are you saying I'm not?
Togami: Didn't think so.
me: Look into my eyes and tell me what do you see. Usually, people's true emotions are betrayed by their eyes.
Togami:I'm...Not sure.They seem...Um...sad, I think?
me: Upset, betrayed, hurt, disappointed, resentful. You could say so.
Togami: Is that all because of Oogami's suicide?
me: *nods* It is. And the fact that it quite hit home.
Togami: Since when were you suicidal?
me: Have you forgotten our first day here? I basically offered to be the first victim because I believed I had no reason being alive.
Togami: That's...! I thought you were lying.
me: *chuckles* I guess I've been lying quite a lot recently, haven't I? I can't say I like it, but it's necessary. I...Really...Really want to get out of here. I just want to see my brother again. Only knowing he's alive and well, that's all I wish.
Togami: I guess getting out of here with someone else wouldn't be too bad.
me: I'm not saying you should ever become selfless...But maybe someday you will have feelings for someone, friend, or more. Feelings strong enough that they will make you unconsciously think about them with you.
Togami: Are you sure that applies to everyone?
me: We're all humans, you know?
Togami: Mhm. Do you have that person? Apart from your brother, I mean.
me: I...Think I do.
Togami: Do I know them?
me: Mhm.
Togami: Was it Celestia?
me: Um...Her as well, but not anymore. She's dead. But there's someone else. He's quite silly, you know?
Togami: *scowls* You don't mean Naegi, do you?
me: *chuckles* I meant you...Silly.
Togami: Me? Silly? That's preposterous!
me: *smiles* The way you get worked up for nothing is quite silly...And cute.
Togami: Where do you get all this from?
me: Dunno. They say it's from the heart.
Togami: What happens when someone is not a person's special person, but they are theirs?
me: It's...Sad, but you get used to it. It happens in most situations, really.
Togami: Ridiculous.
me: It is, isn't it...? Well...If one day you find that person, I hope I'll be the first one to know.
Togami: Why?
me: Because I know I'd have been actually able to help you understand yourself.
Togami: Will that help you in any way?
me: I guess...It will make me happy.
Togami: You're...Weird. But okay, I shall comply.
me: Byakuya...?
Togami: Hm?
me: Sweet dreams.
Togami: Umm...
me: 'You too' , they say back.
Togami: Right.

Smiling to myself, I get myself closer to him,snuggling close to him, feeling him visibly stiffen for a moment, not quite sure what to do, but then, he reluctantly puts his arm over my back, muttering a soft "you too".

In the end, the day began horribly wrong, but as they say, after a hurricane, comes a rainbow, and there is no Hope without Despair...Therefore...
I strongly believe we will get out of here sooner than we expect.
All of us.

Together.