- Hey, can I hug you?
You look up, your eyes wide open from surprise. Your cheeks are getting  increasingly redder, and just like that your nervous laughter explodes in the room.

- Pardon me, what did you say?!

The person in front of you casually replaces a strand of hair behind their ear. You still look at them fixedly, as if they were some dangerous rapist. Eventually, you get the explanation you were waiting for.

- I'm feeling... Miserable, and you seem nicer than all of those bitches around here. In order to feel better, I seek your company. Did it come off inappropriate? If so, I'm sorry.

Wow, they talk about as fast as you! But their tone is a bit more confident, less shy. Which is evident, because they just asked you to hug them. Oh! You nearly forgot that!

You let your eyes wander across the messy blonde hair, the pale green eyes, and the personalised sneakers. Something about them seems reliable, and you stand up, and timidly wrap your arms around them.

Damn it, they are tall.

But! Their hug feels like home. Isn't that too fast, you think to yourself. Both of you take a step back at the same time, and you giggle, agitating your hands messily.

All the while, the human in front of you bites their lip.
- What's your name? I've never seen you, I usually know everyone at this school!

A bit too late, you realize how creepy that sounds. But it's true! You know approximately every face, every connection, every little gossip. Your brain just... Remembers it. Forever.
But they don't seem to mind, as their sunny smile accompanies their words.

- I am Sky, what about you ?
- I'm Ile-
They interrupt you suddenly, their eyes widening. Wait, why are they panicking?! Do you need to panic too?!

- You have a bug in your hair.
Oh god. You, indeed, panic. Happily, you turn your head around just at the right time. Otherwise, you would have been poked in the eye by a... Glitter pen? It looks so fluent and cool to write with!!!

After having removed the bug, Sky sits down in front of you. Relief comes in waves, you won't have to eat alone! It's always a bit of a rush when one of your friends is sick, and now both of them are absent. Which means you had to spend the day alone.

You and your new friend talk for the rest of the day. It turns out they are a new member of your classgroup, because they dropped out of their ancient school.

- Because of some really bad high school drama, they tell you hastily.

You nearly ask for more information but they're clearly avoiding your gaze. Not wanting to embarrass Sky even more, you change the subject.

Their constant playing with the rainbow-and-glitter-pen nearly drives you crazy, and you abruptly put your soft hands on top of theirs.

- Could you, please, stop tapping the pen on the table? It's making me really nervous.

They blush, along with you, and then reply by an apology.

When Elliot and Kate come back a few days later, you introduce Sky to them. The whispers between your two friends give a bright red color to your face, and Sky caresses your cheeks for a brief second.

- Why are you blushing? 

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- Baby, you just asked me to marry you! Who wouldn't?!

They stand up again, and smile at you fondly, with a hint of distress caused by obvious reasons. You look absolutely stunning, with your bright smile, the deep bordeaux dress you're wearing, and the twinkling look in your eyes. All of your being wants to marry them, and ...

- YES I WANT TO MARRY YOU, you shout, and then I'd love to have kids and our own house and adopt the hamster you always wanted to have, wake up next to you everytime and and-
- Shhh, calm down honey.

They give you a big hug, clearly happy about your answers and calming you at the same time. Because, once again, you got excited and proceeded to talk way too fast. Both of you snuggle up on the sofa, and Sky takes your hand, placing the ring carefully around your right ring finger. You take their hand and do them the same favor.

The rings are a delicate mixture between smooth metal and little pieces of diamond, gorgeous.
It's ethereal, Sky.

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Your scream resonates in the room. Loud. Louder. The loudest.

Why?

Oh, it's simple.

Their body is getting weaker second by second, their glassy eyes stare into nothingness. Just some hours ago, they were bright green, alive.

You fall down on your knees, incapable of making any noise. The tiny pieces of glass laying around  penetrate your skin, but you could care less.

This is all your fault.

Them falling due to their inebriated body.

The floor hitting their head too hard.

Their broken heart.

Your fault.

Sky's weak murmur gets to your ears.
- I-baby-I love you.
A tear rolls down their cheek and they speak a few other words.
- I'm not mad at you.

Your voice breaks and your throat feels sore, but your words stumble out of your mouth rapidly.
- Don't go... I still need you-NO SKY!

- We'll... we will meet in the next life, right?
Their whispers are getting very difficult to understand, you can feel the strength and life quitting their body.

- I'll wait for you Ilena.

Fuck.

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I wrote this for one of my friend's birthday and,,, well, let's just say I let the readers have a mental breakdown which wasn't my intention but I love killing characters off does it make me really scary???

ANYWAY Lotte, if you read this, sorry for the tears.
Ilena! happy birthday girl, we love you 💕
have a good day, beloved reader, and don't forget to drink water and take your med's!!!

lots of love,

Noa 🌨️