Why not us?
What do I actually feel towards them?
This is such a strange feeling
I got that intuition that we're gonna get together, that's like... Set. I can feel it's about to happen

But I know it can't work between us, it just can't
I feel like we will get together, actually have something and then fall apart
And somehow this has to happen
I'm so scared...
I'm scared of them, I'm scared of myself
I'm scared of love, I'm scared of darkness
I'm scared of keeping, I'm scared of losing

This could break me once again, I know it
Why do I keep trying anyway? Why don't I give up? I know it can't work like I'd love to
I know they're not right for me and I'm not right for them
But I'm attracted somehow... Why?

But maybe my intuition is wrong
Maybe they don't like me at all
Maybe this crush will get over as soon as it came
Maybe this has to happen to make us realize something
Maybe it actually could work
Maybe I should stop thinking about it the hole damn time
But it haunts me
It comes up everytime my thoughts derive a little bit too far
It comes up everytime I see them
It comes up way too much and that's scary

It's weird isn't it?
How much love, or whatever this feeling is, can haunt us, scare us, change us
How some people get together and some do not
How love doesn't always come from both sides
How we're so blinded by our own thoughts that we are oblivious to the others and we pass by our most beautiful moments without noticing

I'd like to hear their laugh
I'd like to receive a warm soft hug from them
I'd like to annoy them just to get their eyes on me
I'd like to understand why I get this damn feeling
I'm not even ready to be in a relationship, am I?
Why can't I just answer straight away?
Why has it to be always so complicated?
Why them? Why me? Why not us?

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i wrote this thing over a year ago and i think it's funny cuz the boy i wrote this for made me realize i only liked girls and he realized a bit afterwards he was gay

BUT HE ACTUALLY IS BI AND I AM PAN

so we just left each other for no reason <3

(it's better to be friends with him anyway kgskgs)