I Carry Your Heart With Me

By E. E. Cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

---Edward Estlin Cummings

KEIRA'S POV

It is already 7 in the evening and I just finished a quick shower. Edward went on after me. As I was waiting for him to finish I have decided to watch a movie. I was selecting on different choices but I chose "the note book" again. I have seen the movie couple of times but I still love to see this.

So I started to watch, I was in bed and tucked myself in blankets when the door from the shower room open. 

"I really thought you will let me sleep in the guest room, that would be so embarrassing." Edward said smiling and shaking his head while he is drying his hair with a towel. 

"I don't think I will be able to sleep without you as well. I like the way you smell." I told him as I quickly look at him and put back my attention to the movie.

"Hmmn, that sounds amusing. My wife can't sleep because she wants my smell? Strange huh?" He looks at me in a strange way and I looked back half smiling half frowning at him.

"What?"I asked him looking confused.

" Babe, Don't you think Martha's prophecy is right?" He said looking so damn serious. I cannot tolerate this anymore so I threw a pillow to him laughing.

"Silly! How can it be so soon! I don't feel anything and wait are you trying to get me pregnant?" I asked him now frowning at him.

" Not at the moment, but did you not remember us making love countless times? So how can it not be possible?" He said as he continued to dry his hair.

I felt quite irritated with his answer and I'm pretty sure that it shows in my face! " You are are so impossible, how can you make this decision on your own. I thought you are using protection!" I blurted out at him and he looks alarmed with my reaction.

"Easy babe, I'm your husband already and there is nothing wrong if we have babies right? Don't you want little Keira and Edward running around us?" Edward asked me as he went inside the blankets with me and hugged me tightly.

I felt distracted with his bare chest. He is already holding me into a hug, I unconsciously placed my palm to his hardened chest. "Do you really have to sleep without a shirt? It's cold." I told him

"Hey, don't mind me I'm fine. But you did not answer my question, don't you want mini versions of us yet?" He did not let the topic drop and continued asking me.

"Oh not that I don't want to but you see, We just started to be together and We are just both in the phase of enjoying each other and learning about each other, I don't want to mess it up babe. Don't you think its too soon?" I told him and trying to see what is his view in my perspective.

"Hmmn, somehow you are right. We are just starting to know each other and I really enjoy being with you and getting to know you more everyday. But at the same time, I don't mind to have kids. I mean, I think I am being selfish though. I'm sorry, I just feel that If we have children then there will be no more chance for Daniel to take you away from me." He said looking away sadly. 

"Babe, come on! Where is the Edward that is full of confidence that I know. Babe, Daniel will never take me back even if I decided, but that will never happen. You know I always belong to you." I told him as I looked into his eyes.

" I'm sorry I was so selfish thinking about that. I guess I will have to give you more time, lets take things step by step I guess. I promise to support your decision no matter what it is, I will wait till you're ready. I guess I'm just too insecure and those are my defense" Edward told me as he went on and kiss my lips in the most passionate way.

"Its alright babe, but I also want you to know that If ever I get pregnant, then I will take it even if I am not yet ready. So you don't have to stress yourself about that. I would love to hold a little baby in my arms and nurse him." I told him with a smile.

"Him? How certain you are that its a him? " Edward asked me smiling

"Nothing I just feel, I don't know." I said shrugging my shoulders.

"It's fine, I like the idea. By the way since he's not yet here, then why don't you just nurse me first. You can practice with me you know, I won't mind!" He said looking at me.

"Oh you are impossible! Crazy! Let's just continue watching and stop your nonsense." I told him moving a bit away from him positioning myself to watch.

"Come on! Don't be so hard on me." Edward said acting hurt.

"Oh stop you dummy! I'm watching!" I gently pushed him away laughing at him

" Alright then what are you watching?" He asked me while his eyes is in the television.

"The notebook.Come on! Don't tell me you don't know this?" I asked him amusely

"No I haven't seen it yet. What was it about" He asked looking intrigued

"I can't believe this, Everybody knows about this movie. Were you living in a different world?" I told him laughing.

"Oh you can say that, I am not everybody Keira, I grew up in schedule so I honestly have no idea about this thing." He honestly admitted at me

"Oh, I forgot I am married to the great Edward McDonaugh! Everything is on schedule and done accordingly." I told him rolling my eyes.

"Yeah, my life was boring. Everything is in schedule and even my childhood was like that. Everything is a routine, I was raised for this business world. You know when I was in grade school I never even had a chance to have a normal hang outs with my friends, I always go with Dad and in my free time after school I just do some Karate , swimming , piano and different lessons to make me more well rounded" Edward confessed awkwardly

"Then why are you so awkward about this. You should be proud of yourself babe. Because I am so proud of your accomplishments. I really cannot think of anything that you are not capable of doing. You can even sculpt, who would know that?" I told him with my eyes glimmering with joy.

"You are just sending me compliments to make me feel good. But it's nice, I really appreciate it." He told me kissing my temples.

" No Edward, haven't you noticed it yet? How can you be so naive, I love you, you  dummy!" I told him as I pat his shoulder

"What did you just said Keira?! " Edward looked at me dumbfounded.

Hi guys,

I know this is another short chapter but then instead of keeping you waiting I have decided to publish it. I hope you like this.

Love,

E. Goddess