"Let me just love you the only way I know how."

          -Edward

Terrified

by Katharine McPhee

You by the light

Is the greatest find
In the world full wrong
You're the thing that's right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other sideYou said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge
Of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the darkAnd I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time
In the last time
In my only lifeAnd this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back
I could be all
That you needed
If you let me tryYou said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge
Of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the darkAnd I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time
In the last time
In my onlyI only...-

KEIRA'S POV

Edward walks me into the dock and we ride a water taxi going to the island. He wrapped his arms around me when we are in the boat. 

"Hey, I appreciate you keeping me warm but the weather is just fine. I don't feel cold." i told Edward while trying to swat his arms gently.

He clears his throat before he speaks. "Okay,I am sorry I am loosing my head when I am with you. If you never said I would not mind keeping you warm though." He said smiling at me but still he removed his jacket and make me wear his coat.

I reluctantly accepted it. He may think I my clothes is so small that is why he wants to keem me warm."Thanks! Where are we going really? Why is there a need to wear something fancy?" I asked him after settling the suit on me.

He smiled and looks at me with a spark in his eyes "You will see when we get there" He said still smiling.

"You have to know I hate surprises." I told him crossing both of my arms to myself and looking away.

" Oh you will love it with me. I'll make sure of that." He said with a stern face and came closer to me sniffling my hair.

He seems to have a habit of sniffling my hair whenever he gets a chance. Which is pretty weird but what can I do?I did not say anything anymore and just kept quiet until we arrive to another island I must say.

"It seems like you are so fascinated with islands?" I asked him amused as we are walking out from the water taxi.

"Good observation princess." He said holding my hand and leading me the way to our destination. We walked our way to magnificent Architectural design of the hotel's entrance as I believe so. 

"Is this your hotel?" I asked him in disbelief and amazement.

"It is our hotel babe." He said and smiled at me.

"It's beautiful" I said as I complemented the place. Disregarded the what he said "our". Yes he already admitted to me that he love me and but it still seems unreal for me. It is still a bit hard to digest so I just gulped and to my surprise it is a bit harder to swallow at that time.

"Not as beautiful as you." He said still smiling while we enter inside we are greeted by the smiling faces of the employees. We are welcomed with fresh juices. 

"Welcome Mr. and Mrs McDonaugh! It is my pleasure to serve you tonight, ." A dark and tall middle aged mad approached us after we finished to drink the juice.

Edward and I followed him as he guided us in our way. The place looks really fancy. Everything is well decorated and the facilities are really superb. I must say I am used with going to different kind of hotels because of my father and as an interior designer but Edward has a definitely good taste as well. Sophistication and class is seen clearly in every angle of the island.

Edward talked to the man and I just remained silent and observed the beauty of the place. I am totally fascinated with this resort.We are walking together while Edward is holding my hands which makes me feel safe and warm. I did not notice when the man finally left us. I just felt Edward's hand covered my eyes.

"I want you to trust me and just close your eyes while I lead you the way." Edward said whispering to my ears sending shivers to my spine.

"O--Okay." Was all the thing that I can say and let him guide the way.

"There, now you can open your eyes." Edward said releasing my eyes from his hands.

"E-- Edward?" I said in a questioning eyes.

"Is it too much to ask for a dinner date with my wife?" Edward ask me tauntingly raising one of his eyebrows at me. Looking absolutely stunning. Which makes me more nervous.

I cannot even say anything. I just smiled, shook my head and shrug my shoulders as my response. I did not expect him to be like this but I am really starting to like it. However, I can feel butterflies all over my stomach but it feels good at the same time.

"Shall we?" He said guiding me to walk to the rose petals scattered in the sand creating an aisle going to the gazebo.

He guided me to sit in our chair. There are numerous candles scattered in the sand and It really feels romantic. I had never been in any romantic dates like this. Not even with Daniel.

"So---?" Edward said after we are already sitting.

"Edward, what is this all about?" I asked him trying to make everything clear on what is going on.

"This is our honeymoon right? I just want to make my wife's first time in this trip memorable and special." He said full of emotions holding my hands.

"Edward, why I did not met you before. If you only came first into my life then I would have fallen for you back then." I said trying to make him smile but then there was a sudden pain in his face and an unreadable expression flash into his face. It was but for a moment but it was replaced with a smile instantly.

" I can still make you fall." He said in his normally arrogant tone.

"Oh we'll see about that." I said raising my eyebrows but smiling at him. We were both laughing when some servers come with that man who guided us and arranged the food in our table. I cannot believe that Edward is talking to me this freely now and he is actually my husband. 

Every food that they served are perfect. It was a five course meal and after all the small portions I can say I am really full. After we finished our meal we just sat there for few moments and and just stare at the see. No one dares to talk until suddenly Edward clears his throat and speak up.

" Keira?." Edward called my name and faced me holding my hands.

EDWARD'S POV

We already finished eating but no one dares to talk between Keira and I. I took a deep breath to gain the strength and courage that I need to tell Keira the real reason why I brought her here. I cleared my throat and decided to start.

"Keira?" I called her name as I faced her and hold her hands.

She did not say anything but just looked at me as if asking me to continue talking.

"So, Did you enjoy the night? " I cussed myself inwardly as those were not the words that I practiced to tell her.

"Uhm, yeah? Thank you for putting this things on. I did not expect that you will do this." She said smiling at me genuinely. I can say she really is satisfied.

"Soo-----" She looks at me again signalling me to finish my sentence. " Did you enjoy the food?" I cussed inwardly again, I don't know why I am feeling so nervous and I cannot even tell what I really wanted to say. 

"Of course. The Kaiseki was perfect. You have a really good in chef in here. And you have a great taste in food as well." She said smiling at me but I can sense she is trying hard not to roll her eyes at me.

"Uhm, soo---- How do you find the island?" This time I wanted to hit myself for asking this lame questions to her.

"Oh come on Edward. I already told you everything is perfect. I know you want to say something and if you will not ask it now, I am telling you that I will go back home this instant." Keira finally said it. I know she has already been hinting that I've got words to say but just patiently asking and now the tigress on her came out once more.

So I straightened my sit and clears my throat once more before I finally start talking.

"Okay, Keira, do you remember I told you in the plane that I will tell you everything in time?" I asked her while holding her hands.

She clears her throat before she answers me. "Y-Yes?" She asked and now looking anxious waiting for what I have to say.

"Its just that, I have prepared this overtime and planned to tell you everything when we got her, but---" I said looking at her trying to find my words. I don't know if I should say but she signal me to continue when she repeated my last word.

"But??" She repeated moving her head as if asking me to go on 

"But things get a little out of hand and we totally got lost in the plane." I told her in a tone trying to test the water but suddenly she blushed at my words and look down which actually melts my heart for her.

"Hey! What I am just trying to say is that I planned to surprise you here and planned to professed how I truly feel about you but I just said a part of it in advance in the plane. As so you know, I am a very well organized person and I want everything to be perfect. Not that I am saying that what happened to us is not perfect. It was, In fact, that is the happiest moment of my life. For so long I feel I just existed. But after I made love to you, I feel that I am actually living. I just felt something weird because I don't really do love before I met you. But you changed my belief. And here we are. I just hope you will still feel surprised though I have already made a partial confession at the plane. But that is not that bad since you already agreed to make our relationship work, that already boost my confidence that it will still be a great night." When I finally finished talking I pulled her to stand and showed her the candles that was hidden underneath the gazebo. The arrangement was perfect since it was concealed from our sight unless we will stand from our seat. 

"E-Edward?" She is about to talk but then I stopped her when I touched her lips with my fingers. I am afraid of what she is about to say I don't want her to push me away.

"Keira, I know we started in the wrong foot. I know I showed you an arrogant side from the past. That was my only way to keep my self from making a wrong move and snatch you out from my brother. I love both of you that is why I don't want to hurt anyone. But destiny leads me to you. It gave me a chance to get closer to you so I am doing everything in my power to make you stay in my life. And love you. ----And hopefully one day, you will learn to love me back." I said while holding her face making her look to me while caressing her hair

She did not said anything but suddenly she pulled me into a warm embrace. Little did I know she is already sobbing in my chest.

KEIRA'S POV

I cannot control myself anymore. Edward is becoming really affectionate at me and I feel so guilty because I don't know If I am able to reciprocate his feelings. I just got out from a mess relationship which I thought was true only to find out everything is just a lie. And now there is this man who helped me clean my name to the public. Helped me restore my relationship to my dad and to my sister.  He was there when I needed a shoulder to cry on when I saw Daniel. And now he is professing his love selflessly to me. I am dumbfounded how he prepared all of this things just to make me feel so special. I grabbed him for a warm embrace and I after that I wasn't able to control myself to sob.

"Hey! I did not mean to make you cry! What's wrong" Edward said wiping the tears falling from my eyes with his thumb as he raised my face to look at him. His eyes is pictured with different kind of emotions, but the most dominant at this time is love and confusion, and a bit part of it if I see it right he looks scared on why am I crying.

"N--nothing, It's just I don't feel that I deserve all this, that I deserve you, your love. I mean, this---" I said moving my hands as if showing him everything from my palm "All of this, I don't deserve everything like this from you. It is just too good to be true Edward." I told him and after that his tensed face softened.

"You do princess, Let me just love you the only way I know how." He said pulling me into a warm embrace once more. I can't help but cry again with his words.

I did not say a word but just smiled at him and nods my head

"Thanks princess. You will not regret it." Edward as he crushed his lips into mine.

"E-Edward?" I called his name as I looked into his eyes. While he is still pressing his body towards mine.

"Hmmm?" He said raising his eyebrows looking so adorable.

"I know we already did it--" I said hesitantly

"And?" Edward urged me

"And I know I said yes two times that I will give our relationship a chance." I said hesitating to tell him my next words.

"And me. You swear to give me a chance in your heart." He said pointing my heart

"O--okay, I did." I gulped before I continued "But I would like to ask you if we can take things a little bit slowly. We can take it into our own pace, I mean let our relationship grow, and develop before we turn into something more advance. So how do you think about that?" I asked him in a shy tone.

"So you are trying to tell me not to claim my wife physically, Is that what you are trying to imply?" He said in a creased brows

"Uhm, if that's how you want to put it in words then maybe--yes?" I asked him still hesitantly crossing fingers that he will agree.

He breathe harshly before answering. "We'll see about that." He said in an angry tone.

"Edward!" I called his name in disbelief

He sigh in surrender "Keira, that is not the only thing for me. What matters to me is you are mine. That is just secondary, I promise we will only do it out of love, not because I am mad or anything, and I will never force myself to you. I will only make love to you again if you will beg." He said in an arrogant tone,making me feel comfortable

"How can you be so crazy and sure about yourself at the same time?!" I asked him as I slapped his shoulders

"And how can you be so cruel?" He asked me looking pained this time. I know he is just acting so I did not pay any attention to his drama.

"Oh come on Edward. Stop it!" I told him and both of us laughed

Things are really getting better for Edward and Keira.

Do you think Edward will win Keira's Heart

Something big is about to happen.

Stay tuned...

Hi guys,

I am really sorry things got a bit crazy this New Year and I had to reorganize everything but things will be back to normal once we head back home. Thank you for reading the past chapters and I hope you will like this one.

Happy New Year and I hope you got your goals set for a head start! If not you still got time. Still plenty of chapters to unfold in our lives this year. I wish nothing but the best for all of you!

Love,

E. Goddess