Long time no see. I was so sick this pass few days to make up to it. Here's an double update.

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My sister Minah is standing at the foot of my bed when I wake up. "You have ice cream on your sheets," she says.

I moan and roll onto my side. "That's the least of my issues today, Unnie."

"Mom wants to know if you want bacon or just cereal for breakfast?"

" Bacon gets my vote," I replied.

My heart thumps strongly in my chest as I get out of bed and race downstairs. My father is in his study, wearing his glasses and reading a large painting book. "Dad, have you seen my shoebox?" I ask in one breath.

He looks up, his face cloudy, and I notice he's still focused on his work paper, not on my agitated state.

"What box?" my father inquired.

"Mommy gave me a teal shoebox!"

"Oh, that...," he adds, his face puzzled. He removes his glasses.

"I'm not sure. "It may have gone the way of your roller skates," he speculated.

"What does that imply?" "What are you saying?" I inquired.

"There's a little chance I throw them to the city."

"Those roller skates don't even fit you anymore," my father adds defensively when I exhale. They were only taking up room!"

I collapse to the ground. My father stands up and tries to lift me off the floor. I fight back and tumble onto my back like a goldfish.

"Oh Jinah, I'm not even sure I got rid of it. Let's have a look around the house, shall we? Don't get too worked up yet."

"There's just one possible location, and it's not there." It's no longer there."

"Then I'll check Goodwill in the city on my way to work tomorrow," he says, squatting next to me. He's giving me that compassionate but also annoyed and perplexed look, as if to ask, "How is it possible that my sane and logical DNA produced such a wild daughter?" "It's too late now. It's too late now. It's pointless."

"What was in that box that was so significant?"

I feel like I'm about to get sick for the second time today.

"Except everything."He frowns.

"I had no idea your mother had given it to you or how precious it was."

"Hey, how about an ice cream sundae before breakfast?" he offers as he walks away to the kitchen. "Will that make you happy?"

As if dessert before breakfast, despite the fact that it is already 11 a.m., would be the thing that cheers me up. I'm just lying on the floor, my cheek against the chilly hardwood. Besides, there's no more ice cream left, but he'll find out soon enough.

I can't bear the thought of Sung Hun reading his diary entry about him. I don't even want to consider it. It's just too bad. So, my father believes it is my skates' box, not the one I was thinking of. This is pointless. I believe it was actually taken in school. Consider Jinah, when was the last time I put it.

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As I stepped my foot in the front school's gate, all eyes were on me. To be fair, what I'm wearing is a big polyester sweater the exact grey of parking-lot asphalt, and it isn't anybody's idea of a good look. But I don't care. In fact, this is basically how I dress every day at home. I read once that a lot of important people have a "uniform" to save their mental energy for things that actually matter, so I've started doing it, too. I don't care anymore how I looked like. If the entire school are talking shit about me. I just want to be shut and covered myself. I felt embarrassed and angry. Embarrass because my secrets are out and angry because someone exposed it.

I covered myself with a hoodie as I opened my locker.

" Hey" a guy who was shorter than me by one inched said as I closed the door.

" Yes " I replied. I took a great looked at him. He smirked and said " So you have a crushed on me huh ?"

Well yes, I used to have a crush on him. Well looked at him. His shaggy hair with that playful personality. What not to like. This in front of me is Byun Baek Hyun. Xiumin Childhood friends. I met him through him. It was just a little crush.

" You think I have a good sense of humour, huh and a playful personality " he smiled.

I was frozen in place from the embarrassment. Why must one by one all my crushes will approached me?

" What if I said yes will you leave me alone"

I didn't mean to be harshed. I just need to be alone. These past few days as my secret been out, I felt empty and wanted to be alone.

" I just wanted to tell you that don't let toxicity get to you yes we used to be friends but I am not interested ,I have a girlfriend in my class but if you need anything just text me or called me ok"

I was about to speak when a girl cut in. Wait it's her the girl who poured water all over me ,Lee haejin.

She said " Don't bother helping her what a slut "

I was enraged with anger. Why is she like this?

"Why can't I ?' Baekhyun said with a glare at her.

She just walked away as she glared at us first.

"Well Jinah nice to meet you again I have to go just text me... it's up to you bye" he stated and walked away.

He's being nice to me. I thought he would hate me or something. He is the childhood friend of Xiumin and he must know about the Soo Bin incident.

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At the rooftop

I was waiting admiring the blue sky as the wind blew through me. I feel calm and relax as I think for my thoughts. What a busy day today. Baekhyun for some reason is very nice and. I got cut off of my thought as someone covered my face with his two hands "Boo!"

"That scared me walnut! "I yelled at him and he just chuckled.

" So let's start from the beginning what actually happened? "Lay said as he looked at me.

" Well you know my old self a jerk bully me... now I am not well maybe a better version of me well that beside the point. Eversince I did those horrible things to Soo Bin I kept my secrets and crushes in my diary for me to know only. I begin to keep my feelings or anything a secret and put it in my shoebox and hide it... now the diary is gone as well as it somehow got exposed"I explained everything to Lay.

With his mouth full, he says, " So the crushes, Who else got a diary entry?"

"Um, that's really private." I shake my head at him, like Wow, how rude.

"What? I'm just curious." Lay Smirking, he says, "Come on, don't be shy. You can tell me. But I want to hear who else made the cut."

"Obviously, Kai" I confidently said.

Kai or Kim Jongin is the most popular boy in class beside us. He has tan skin with his distinctive features. He is so handsome. Who could blame me.

" Why most of your crushes are in my friend group Exo? " Lay asked.

He is in a group called Exo. A group of handsome boys in our school.

"Well, your group are handsome could you blame me"I harshly replied.

" So you admit I am handsome" he smirked and I playfully smacked him " That beside the point."

" There will be 2 more guys will confront me so there are 6 guys in my diary"I continued.

Then my phone rang.

" Aren't you going to pick it up?"Lay said.

I looked to my phone to see who is calling

It was Sung Hun.

" It's not important"

"OK back to the discussion who do you think do it?" he asked.

"Maybe Soo Bin? " I asked

" It can't be her she is a sweet girl trust me she has something on her plate "Lay replied defending her.

" What happened after the exposed two guys and Baekhyun confront me about the crush"

"Look at you miss popular"

"Yes I know I'm popular but not what I wanted to be popular with people concisely calling me names"

"You want to k ow my secret," he said.

"Yes"

"If you want to know you need to do something for me Ice Queen"

"Hey stopped calling me that"

"Yes if you stopped calling me, walnut"

" Fine Lay can you at least tell me what's your secret?" I said trying to act cute in front of him.

" Umm... nevermind"

" What is it ?" I asked curiously.

" The secret is that you are cute, "he said as if the world stopped with My heart beating so fast. I know he Change his mind and don't want it to revealed. 

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