my lovely readers,
here is the latest chapter of the book unexpected love. At this point I would like to say thank you so much for your amazing support and that you continue to read my story. I feel truly honoured and grateful. I am so motivated by you guys and i think that without you this whole story as it is now, would not have been possible. The picture shows Gracie and Shawn.

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You can close your eyes from the things you do not want to feel but you cannot close your heart from the things you feel. - Unknown.

Shawn's POV:

The moment I saw them kissing, something in me teared apart and I felt an immense pain in my chest. I immediately regretted coming to the rehearsal; I just sunk against my car and had to calm myself down as I sensed an immense anger going through me. What was happening to me? I did not think that I would see them actually kissing; I knew that I teased Enzo with this but I did not think that it was going to happen today.
I was aware that they played Romeo & Juliet but I did not anticipate that it would be so soon. They seemed so happy and the proximity showed me that both of them enjoyed it very much. I knew that my best friend and Jasmeet would eventually become a couple; I was positive of this, as it was obvious that they were attracted to each other. I had enough experience to see when two people were on the verge of falling for each other and my best friend and Jasmeet were a perfect example for this.

I really wondered why I felt this way and why it bothered me so much. In the past, I would not have cared at all if Jasmeet Hailee Kaur got herself a boyfriend. It would not matter to me at all. I would not have batted an eyelash at this thought and would have resumed with my life, ignoring the pang of jealousy. I also doubted that I would have felt this sentiment as I was ice cold and did not let anything affect me.
However, now it was a different story as something was confusing me and making me angry as I did not want her to be with anybody. But eventually she woudl marry someone else. This thought made me even more angrier and I felt like punching something again, which brought me back to the intimate moment I shared with Jasmeet.

I still felt her soft touch on my fist after I punched the wall, which touched my heart and made me soften, letting my guard down and acting in a kind manner and not like my usual rude self. She seemed so caring and kind, and her gentle touch felt magical, and I did not know what happened to me. I could just stare into her eyes, which were a deep sea, and I just got lost in them.
I wanted to scream at her, but I could not speak any words, it was as if something was hindering me from destroying this moments with my harsh and spiteful words. I did not mean to come and watch the rehearsal but I heard some people talking about their chemistry and I had to see it with my own eyes, as I did not believe these rumors.
How I wished not following my instincts! I felt something breaking in me once I entered the hall and saw them in a loving embrance. I was the boy who could not feel anything. These last days proven this to be wrong to my utter horror, and I started to realize that the feelings I managed to hide so well, surfacing again. My heart was going to get me into trouble I was positive that this would happen. It was clear to me that I was better off not feeling a thing as they made me weak and sentimental.

Suddenly I had enough and stormed out the hall, as I could not handle the sight of them being in love. It really did something with me and I just wanted to escape those feelings as my deepest fear was becoming real. I ran and ran, just trying to make this feelings go away. Out of breath, I halted next to my car and I just leaned against it. I let the last moments rewind and I could not hide that I was hurt and that I liked Jasmeet in a way. I immediately decided to ban those feelings back where they came from and I turned up my feelings. I do not know how long I leaned against my car, it seemed like an eternity to me. My thoughts were going crazy and I just wanted to make my sentiments go away. I hated the way I felt the last days, this was not me and wanted nothing more than going back to this emotionless state.

Then suddenly, I saw Enzo and Jasmeet walking very close to each other out of the school. They were talking each other in an inaudible manner and their hands were brushing against each other. I just could see that Jasmeet visibly blushed, even Enzo seemed enchanted or affected by the presence of the girl, and both of them shyly smiled at the floor, trying not to look at each others eyes. I became instantly more furious that I was before. What was happening to me? I really did not understand what was changing my sentiments towards this girl. I felt the urge of punching Enzo but I surpressed this urge immediately und strolled casually towards them; both of them seemed surprised to see me.
Enzo shot me a questioning look, after he bid goodbye to Jasmeet, and I just shrugged it off, as I had no intention of talking or conversing with him. He turned around and went to his car. Jasmeet was looking at me in a way urging me to speak and I forced myself to speak.

"Jasmeet?" I asked her carefully, not really sure if I wanted to talk to her. However, I felt the need to tell her not to interpret something into my behaviour. She responded to me hesitantly: "Bradley?" she replied me, clearly being confused that I adressed her with her name and not with her surname as I usually did. I felt suddenly little bit shy and just observed her. Enzo already left to his car and as soon as I thought of him, the anger bottled up again, making me acting carelessly.

"Kaur, just because you saw me in a vulnerable moment, do not think that anything is changed between us! You are still the most despicable person I know!" I told to her in an ice-cold voice. I could not give her any ideas that I was not the person I pretended to be. There was no way I could give her a glimpse of my real personality. I had to make sure that she never tried to dig deeper and tried to see beyond the person I tried to be. She seemed clearly confused and did not expect me so act to bluntly, as she just helped me before. Her caring and thoughtful act almost managed to creak a door open, which I attempted to keep closed, and nearly succeeded to melt my cold heart. However, I was very good at concealing and hiding my true emotions. "Well, Bradley; you cannot handle a person being nice to you! You are really a person I hate and despise!" she spat after composing herself.

The anger in her voice startled me and I nearly regretted my harsh words. However, as I returned to being my cold self, I was able to ban this softness to the place where it belonged to and I was happy about this. I almost forgot why I waited for her, and then I suddenly remembered that I had to ask her something concerning the project. "Kaur, I wanted to ask you something concerning our project. Can you prepare the part you are saying and we go over it either tomorrow or on the weekend!" She raised her eyebrows and retorted, clearly annoyed at my behavior and that I dared to ask her something concerning the project: "Bradley, I already completed this. I can send you a message containing my part of the presentation! There is no need to meet, we can go over it on Monday. I do not want to spend any more second with you!"

I snorted at her response; she was truly a nerd, always doing her best to complete her work on time. This was one of the reasons I hated her so much. Her words full of anger also made me annoyed as I did not like that she was so mean to me.
She gave me a cross look and I answered her: "Well, send it then to me. I want to check if you did it correctly!" I knew that my answer made her even more furious and she just nodded, turning then on her heels to go. I felt an impulse to stop her from leaving but I decided against it, as it would violate my concepts. I could not, and would not admit my weaknesses to her and that I made a mistake by being mean to her.

Over her shoulders, she shot me one last glance full of spite and resentment, showing me that my behaviour upset her and that I acted in a wrong manner, totally disrespecting the moment we shared a couple hours ago. She then sped out of the parking lot, leaving me alone with my thoughts. Did I do the wrong thing? Should I have been nicer to her? I asked myself these questions and unfortunately, I found no answer for them as I was clueless. I felt the tiny impulse to talk about this to my sister as she always provided me with valuable advice.

After an eternity, I went to my car and pulled out of the parking lot, driving home. The traffic was very bad so it took me even longer to reach home. I kept going over the past moments in my head and I did my best to understand what happened and what I should do tomorrow or the coming weeks. Finally I reached then home and locked my car. I went into my home and I could hear Gracie cooking in the ktichen. The racks where the jackets of my parents usually hang were like always empty. I just snorted, as I knew that it would be never different, and proceeded to go to the eating room, not looking forward to be confronted with my sister.

"Shawn, what did you do now?" asked me my younger sister once I plopped down on the kitchen chair showing my despair, forgetting to hide my true feelings. I did not greet her, I just ignored her presence. She noticed my state of mind immediately and I cursed silently that she saw right through me and that I did not attempt to compose myself, as I usually did. I decided that I needed to work on composing myself as I did not want to become this emotional person.
I decided not to answer her and was very soon lost in my thoughts, going back to the moment where I caught a glimpse of hurt in Jasmeet's eyes.
A snap pulled me out of my daze and I replied her in a bored manner: "Gracie, what is wrong now? Why do you want to know this? It is my life!"
My sister started to hit me with the cooking spoon while saying in a strict manner: "Do not behave like this. Do not pull this number on me! I can see right through you! Just spill it out! In addition, why is your hand hurt and wrapped in a band-aid? And for your information, you are my brother and I do not like to see you like this!"

I replied her slowly, knowing that she would not stop asking me questions: "Enzo and I had a fight again...!" I could not complete my sentence as my sister interrupted me immediately: "Why are you fighting so often with Enzo these days? What is causing this? You are best friends, there is no reason for you to fight!" Then, out of the sudden, a knowing look spread over her face and she exclaimed content and happy: "Oh my god is it because of Jasmeet? She is messing with you boys...is she not?" Her words surprised me as she saw right through me and it was as if she could read my thoughts. I confirmed:
"Yes, she was the cause of our fight as Enzo started to like her and they also play the lead roles in the school's play. We fought about her; he stated that I am in love with her and try to conceal my feelings with hate and nasty words. He said that I should finally admit to me that I care for her more than I let on!"
While hearing my words, the eyes of Gracie became very wide and she suddenly squealed: "Shawn, do you like her? I think you do! You are just too stubborn to admit this to yourself. I told you so often that you like her and that you are just pretending to hate her. Moreover, what happened next! I want to know everything! Maybe Jasmeet will break your hard shell! This would be good as I long for my loving brother to return!"
I sighed and started to narrate to her, aware that I could not hide anything from her now: "Well, we fought and then I punched a wall, I was just so angry and I felt like I needed to vent. As you can see, I hurt my fist in the process. Before I knew what was happening to me, Jasmeet came up to me and started to nurse my wound!"
My sister screamed suddenly, not quite believing my words: "She did what? Really, go on!" I sighed in annoyance, as I did not like when someone interrupted me and retorted in an irritated manner: "Will you just let me finish my story?" She nodded and murmured a barely audible sorry.

I continued to speak:
"Yeah, she helped me and then suddenly we looked at each other and I got lost in her eyes. I do not know what happened to me. It was magical!" My sister stared at me with eyes wide open, not quite believing which words left my mouth. I also could not believe what I said to her and that I told her nothing but the truth. Normally I would have not said the truth but it was Gracie and she managed to make me confess my deepest secret. She asked me then in a questioning tone, barely capable of concealing her excitement: "And then? What happened next?"

I answered her: "We just stared at each other, in a kind of daze. She then told me that I should go to the doctor's and I wanted to scream at her, but I could not. Something prevented me from doing so. She then left suddenly in a hurry! I just stood there for a while not quite believing that this really happened." My sister just replied me in a casual manner, hinting something: "She was clearly confused by something. I know girls; when we leave, it is normally for a reason. So I am betting that she felt also that there could be something. It is just my hunch!" I retorted: "Gracie, did you forget that I hate and loathe Jasmeet? She will not be anthing for me; I could not care less about her and Enzo!"

"Enzo?" she started to interrogate me. I told her about the kiss, and how it, somehow ripped my heart in two pieces. A knowing look spread over her face and I knew immediately that she was putting one and two together. I warned her: "Do not go there! Do not dare to take these words in your mouth!" She just laughed at me and told me casually: "Brother, I know that today, I will not say anything but remember my words. Eventually the truth will come out and you will not be able to hide or conceal your feelings for her. I just advise you that you admit it to yourself as this can prevent your heart from getting broken!"
After she said these words, she continued to chop vegetables and resumed cooking, ignoring the impacts her words had on me. Me on the other hand, I was completely caught off guard by her words. What did she mean with me getting my heart getting broken?I could not sense back then that everything my sister said was true and that she was completely right about this.

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so what do you think now? do you think that he can admit to himself that he likes her or do you think that he will continue hiding his true feelings? I am so excited to find out what you think, so please comment and vote for my story. By the way what do you think about the new cover? Do you like it? And what will happen next? Share your thoughts!
See below the teaser for the next chapter, which will be posted either on wednesday or thursday :)

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We sat down on a table in a corner, and he asked me, sounding nervous: "What do you want? I will order it for us!" I answered him casually, trying to conceal my excitement: "I would like to have a soy latte!" He nodded and he strolled casually to the counter, ordering our drinks. I stared at his back, he was really handsome as he was tall and lean. It was also visible that he was sporty. Suddenly he turned around and looked at me, I immediately blushed lowering my gaze and he just chuckled.

I was deep in thoughts when I suddenly felt a soft touch on my hand and I looked up, just to meet the brown eyes of the boy who confused me. Enzo apparently returned with our drinks, and his touch somehow seemed magical, making me blush. He took a seat and carefully placed his hand over mine. I did not know what made him do this. I immediately blushed and asked myself what was happening to me. The last days just were too much for me.