*Confession & Advice*

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-Misha-

"I love you Misha" He mumbled in my neck. I shivered and freeze for few minutes before pulling back. What does he mean? Did he say that again? Is he joking or serious. I know I want him to say that but not like this. I thought it would be easy to listen it but it is more painful than before.

"No." I said and take few steps back giving some distance between us.

"No? What you mean?" He asked taking a step forward. I still stood on my place trying to think what just happen? First, we hugged each other, I had the best feeling, and now he is confessing this to me. Is he lying? Of course he is. He never love me. Not 3 years ago, not now and not in future.

"No. You don't. You are playing with me again." I said looking at him. I saw hurt and pain flashed in his hazel eyes.

"What! No Misha. I really love you." He said and held my face in his hands. I remove his hands from my face and walk out of room.

"You never love me Rayyan." That's all I say walk away leaving him there in pain.

What I just done? I shouldn't have said that. What he think about me now? Is it real? Did he love me or playing with my feelings? It was all confusing. I need to talk with someone. But who?

Mom? No, she must be sleeping. Waniya? No, she is already busy solving her own problems. I can't tell Maryam. Then who? I wanted to believe him but I couldn't what if I become fooled again? This time it hurt more than before.

I walk in kitchen, drank some water and walk in backyard. I walk there for an hour and keep thinking about it. I thought about it very deeply then an idea come in my mind. If he really loves me then he will tell me everything I asked. If he do all those things then I will believe on what he says. I will talk to him about this in morning.

I went upstairs in our room and smiled at the sight. He was sleeping peacefully. He looks cute when he sleep. I slowly walk over my side and take off my hijab. I get in bed and take his hand fold my fingers with his. He shift slightly before wrapping his finger around mine and snore lightly. I smiled and closed my eyes before drifting into peaceful sleep as well.

Next morning I wake up and prayed. I didn't wake Rayyan because what he said last night I still remember. He don't want o follow what I say so it is okay with me because I can't force anyone to do things. They have to decide what they want to do.

I went downstairs in kitchen to make coffee for myself. Everyone will be up after half an hour so I thought what I should make for breakfast. All these days I tried to wake up early and make breakfast. I want Mom to take some rest because she has been doing this all these years. I make breakfast when Mom walk in and give me a smile.

"Assalam-o-Alaikum Mom" I greet her with same smile. She nodded.

"Walaikum Assalam Misha. How are you after last night?" She asked making me look at her in shocked. What does she mean by last night? Did she hear us?

"L-last night? What about last night?" I asked looking at stove as I put some cheese in omelette. Rayyan love cheese omelette in breakfast.

"Don't fool me Misha. I heard you and Rayyan when I came in kitchen for some water. You both were yelling last night. What happen? Did he do something or say something? Tell me I will-" I cut her off as she started to get angry. I never saw her angry and I don't want to see.

"Mom. It's nothing. Just a little fight that's all. You don't have to worry." I said and force a smile. She study me for few minutes before shaking her head.

"It's not a little fight. I know he do something to make you mad because I never saw you yelling at anyone. Tell me what happen? Is it something about your... Past?" She asked shocking me again. I looked at her with wide eyes. How she know about my past? She knows what her son do with me? Who tell her? Rayyan? Waniya? Shehry?

"Past? What past Mom?" I looked away and try to avoid this topic.

"About your and Rayyan past. I know everything what he do with you. How he betray you. How he hurt you" she said softly. I looked at her with glassy eyes.

"No. It's just... He says something which is hard for me to believe" I answer quietly. I don't want anyone to involve in this. It will hurt all of them when they know about it.

"What did he say?" She pushed me to tell her. I shook my head not wanting to tell her that her son confess his love last night. "Misha you can tell me anything. Remember at Reunion when I say if you want to talk about anything just come to me. I really mean that. Now tell me." She stood next to me. I saw Fatima coming in kitchen fixing her hijab.

"Don't worry about her Misha. She knows about it as well" Mom said pointing at Fatima. How they all know about it? Fatima raised her eyebrow in confusion.

"About what Aunty?" She asked setting table.

"About Rayyan and Misha past." Mom said with a shrug. I eye both of them finding maybe they are joking but no they are serious.

"Yeah we all know what Rayyan Bhai do with you" she said leaning against counter. I turned off the stove and take out omelette before giving it to Fatima to set it on table. They both give me a look to tell them. I sighed heavily. This is really awkward moment for me.

"Rayyan confess his love for me last night" as I said that I heard a loud squealed of excitement. I looked at Mom in surprise. She look like 'when your best friend tell you about her crush how asked her out for a date'. She look like she was back in her school days.

"Really? He really say that? I can't believe he will ever say something like that to someone" Mom said happily. I looked at her confused.

"What you say Misha Aapi?" I heard excitement in Fatima voice. I looked at her. She also behave like Mom. I feel I am discussing it with two teenagers. Well, one is still in her teens.

"No. I say No. Because I was hard for me to believe. He said this to me 3 years ago and then said it was only bet. I don't want to get hurt again" I mumbled looking down in shame. I feel shame to stand in front of that person Mom who played with me feelings. Who toyed me.

"I know Misha. It is very hard to believe. But give him a chance maybe he really get changed and start loving you." Mom spoke softly. I looked at her pleading eyes. Fatima also nodded agreeing with Mom.

"But Mom why suddenly he said that? I am not saying that he is taking any advantage, but why suddenly? If he feel about me in that way he would have said that on our first day of marriage but no he didn't say anything that time." I told them. I know he is not doing this for any purpose because if he do then he will regret it all of his life.

"I understand what you are trying to say. Maybe he feel nervous or worried that you turn him down or when he tried to tell you something came up and didn't get chance to do it." I looked at her and slowly nodded. Then I recall everything. I remember on Waniya's Mehndi when he try to tell me something then on our reception he was going to say something but interrupted by Shehry. Maybe this is what he was trying to say.

"Okay Mom. I will give him a chance only for you" I told her my decision and they both smile happily before give me a bone crashing hug. This will help to keep me smiling all day.

We eat breakfast in silence. No one say anything. Uncle was reading newspaper after he finished his breakfast. Aunty was also quiet. I don't know why but she look sad. Tomorrow night she is leaving for her home. While Fatima and Mom send me a wide grin everytime we made eye contact. Rayyan, he was little mad the way he looked at me. Maybe for not waking him up.

Uncle went his office for work. Mom and Aunty went in their rooms. Fatima also goes on her job. It's her summer vacations so she can go at office in morning shift. Rayyan was planning to go office late because he has some work to do. And I was in kitchen doing my last task to clean the table.

"Misha come in room. I want to talk about something" I heard Rayyan saying but I ignore it and do what I was doing. I heard his footstep coming closer to me. He grab my wrist and takes me upstairs with him. His hold was tight. I try to take my hand back but he refused to let it go.

When we reach upstairs in our room. He locked the door behind us and let go of my hand. I notice slightly red marks on my wrist and rubbed it to make pain away.

"Why are you doing this?" He hissed. I looked at him and raised my eyebrow. What I have done now?

"What I do now?" I asked crossing my arms in front. He looked at me taking a step forward. I suddenly feel nervous.

"Why you didn't wake me up for prayer? Why are you not talking to me?" He asked standing in front of me. I gulped at the closeness between us.

"Because last night you say that you don't want to follow what I say so I leave it. And from now, I never say anything to you or to do. Do whatever you want" I said walking away but a grip on my hand pulled me back. He again grip on my wrist, which covered with red marks and in pain.

"I never mean like that Misha. I was just tired to follow your order like a servant. I want you to tell me gently. Whatever I say last night was all true." Including the love you just confess. I thought in my mind.

"Yeah including that two" I looked up at him confusion. Did I say that loud?

"Look Rayyan, I want you to trust me. I want you to follow Islam. I want you to not to lie with me. I want you to be honest in this relationship. I want us to be happy. But what you say last night about your love it is hard for me to believe. You say those 3 words 3 years ago and it turn out in bet and it hurt me a lot. I don't think I would be able to take that pain again. I hope you understand what I am trying to say. I just need time to think about it." I spoke softly looking in his eyes. He closed his eyes and sigh deeply.

"I understand. Take your time. I also want us to be happy. I only want you to know that this time I am not joking or playing with you. I really love you. If you want me to prove it, I will." He says softly. I smiled at him and nodded.

"I know."

"Now, let clear everything now." He said taking my hand and sitting me on bed.

"Don't you have to go office today?" I asked as I saw him texting someone.

"No. I tell Dad I am not coming today. I want all confusion to get out from our way. So, What you want to know about Alia?" He asked sitting straight. I bit my lips nervously. What should I ask about her?

"Everything"

"Alia is Mom best friend daughter. She lives in London. We were good friends but only friend nothing else. She is engaged and getting married next year. When Mom try to get us together we both refused it, because I saw her as my sister and she also saw me as her brother. I never tell you about her before because I don't know how you take it. She is only sister to me nothing else. I promise" he explained. I let out a breath that I was holding.

"Okay?" It comes out as an question.

"Anything else?" I shook my head in no. We sat there in comfortable silence but he asked something that me feel uncomfortable.

"Um... Is there something you are not telling me?" He asked hesitantly. I looked at him then away. Should I tell him about Aaliyan? What if he get angry and thought I am cheating on him? No, I have to tell him he is my husband now and I can trust him like he do.

"Yeah... But promise me you don't get mad." He promised and I took deep breath before telling him.

"Aaliyan come office yesterday and want to talk about something." I saw him clenching his hand into fist. "I am sorry Rayyan I should tell you yesterday but all this happen. Trust me Rayyan I am not cheating on you with him. I don't know what he is doing here. I know you are mad at me but-" he cut me off by placing his finger on my lips. I looked at him and his face soften.

"I know Misha you never cheated on me with him or any other guy. I trust you more than anyone else. I was just mad at him not you. If he want to meet you can go and meet him or if you want me to go with you I will be there. If you want to go with someone else you can go I never stop you from doing anything." He said to me and show me how much he has trust on me.

"So you don't get mad if I meet him?" I asked him trying to sure what I heard. He smiled softly before holding my face with his hands.

"I never get mad at you" he said rubbing his thumbs on my cheeks making me shiver slightly. I nodded slowly.

"I will finish everything with him." I assured him smiling and he nodded before smiling back." By the way do you get any prove against him?" I asked him and frowned as he started to smirk.

"Yeah. But that's not enough. I want him to say it by himself." He said grinning evily. I narrowed my eyes at him. What he is planning to do?

"Okay. But don't hurt yourself" I said quietly. He smiled leaning in and kissed my head.

"I never get hurt when you are with me." He said looking down at me.

'I hope everything will be alright.'

I don't feel good about meeting with Aaliyan. I am married now and according our teaching, I shouldn't meet someone alone. Whom I should go with? If I go with Zayan he probably talk about himself. Then who? Shehry? Yeah, I can go with him. He is like my real brother and if he comes Aaliyan can't do anything. I will go with him instead of Rayyan because Rayyan is short tempered and Shehry is always calm. He barely gets angry.

'I will finish everything with him. I want to live happy with Rayyan.'

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Assalam-o-Alaikum Reader, I am back. Sorry for not updating last two updates by myself. I was sick but now I am fine. Hope you like this Chapter. :)

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Lastly, I want to tell this story ended on Chapter 74. 25 Chapters left. From Monday (Insha-Allah) I will update 3 times in a week.

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