*Marry to him*

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"Uh... Will You Marry My Son Rayyan?" Mr. Asif asked. I was shocked. I had no feelings inside me. No excitement, no happiness. It was my dream to spent life with him but not like this. I get a marriage proposal from my ex best friend Dad. How can you marry someone when you know you're not going to be love? I know he doesn't love me and he never going to love me ever.

Many question start coming in my mind. Did he know? He asks to marry me? What if he doesn't know anything about it? How he reacts when he know about it? But- Dad voice brought me back.

"Misha? Are you okay?" He asked. I looked at him confused when I saw concerned on his face.

"Y-yeah. I was just thinking about something" I answer. I looked at Mr. Asif he has hope in his eyes.

"Okay. Misha what your answer about it?" Dad asked again.

"Dad I- I don't know about this I mean..." I paused. What I should tell them? Tell them everything? No, I can't do this. If I tell them then Mr. Asif never forgive him. His Dad is happy from him because he finally took interest in business.

"Dad please do istikhara first" I request to him. He shifted uncomfortably and looked nervous. Why he is nervous? Did he..? No... please.

"Misha... We already do it and it says yes. We match everything between you two. Now we only want to hear your decision" Mr. Asif explained. They already do it? Everything match? But how this is possible?

"I need some time to think about it" I said and look away. I could feel their hopeful eyes on me.

"It is okay. Take your time. When you decide just call and tell me your answer." I nodded.

"But I have a question." I said. I was confused why suddenly they thought about it?

"Yes?" Mr. Asif asked. I took deep breath before asking my question.

"Why you think of our marriage? I mean there are so many girls out there you can find a girl there." I asked. He smiled slightly.

"Misha I know you were confused about it but I want you to know that I can find any girl for him but she is not like you. You are beautiful from inside. I can never find a girl like you for him. I was looking for a perfect girl who can bring him on right path, who can make him understand what is right and what is wrong. You are the only one who can bring him back. I trust you and I know you never let me down." He answered my question making me quiet. I was lost in my words so I nodded.

"Okay, Misha we should leave now. Think about it and then tell us." Dad said and stood up to leave followed by Mr. Asif. I also stood up in respect. They left me in shock.

Marry to him? How this is going to happen? How this turn out? Did this marriage work out? But the thing most shock me is that they already do istikhara and everything matched? How? We were different from each other. There is a lot of difference between us.

I asked myself is about my answer. What is my answer? Am I happy with this? I feel nothing. No excitement, no anger, no happy feeling, nothing. This is used to be the happiest moment in my life but not anymore. I feel broken.

 (Later that Day at Home) 

I was trying to find my answer. What is my answer? What I want? These 2 questions I ask myself but I didn't get any answers. What should I do? Say Yes or No?

If I say yes than it will really hard for me to stay with him under one roof but if I say no I broke every hope of Dad and Mr. Asif. What do I do now? I want to talk someone but I couldn't. Waniya is busy in her own life. Maryam is out for visiting her grandparents. She said she won't be able to pick any phone calls.  

Suddenly I get a rough shake on my shoulder. I jumped a little and saw Zayan standing behind me with a smirk on his face. I raised my eye brow. 

"What you want Zay?" I asked rolling my eyes at him.  

"I don't want anything. Dad tells me about the proposal you get today" he said and sit on my bed like it was his own.

 "Oh" I said and return back to my work. I was designing new project of Mr. Malik.  

"Can I ask you something?" He asked. I nodded and say hmm. 

"What's your answer?" I stop what I was doing. I looked at him and try to find a hint of joking but there was only one thing on his face. He was serious about this. 

"I don't know Zay" I finally answer him and looked away. He came to me, took a chair and sit in front of me. He was looking at me very deeply like he was searching for something. 

"What?" I asked. He smile and shook his head. He stood up and sat back on bed. 

"Why you are smiling for?" I asked again but again he smile. 

"Zayan Ali are you going to tell me or..." I warned him. He chuckle and held his hand up.  

"Answer my questions in Yes or No." He said and sat right. I nodded.

 "Are you happy?" He asked.

 "Yes"

 "You want Dad and everyone happy?" He asked again.

 "Yes. Zayan why are you..." He cut me off by placing his fingers on his lips telling me to quiet.

 "Do you want to marry?" He asked. I was quiet. I don't know what to answer.

 "Misha I am not asking to 'do you want to marry Rayyan Bhai?' I asked you if you ever want to marry someone?" He explained his question.

 "Yes"

 "You love us?"

 "That's a stupid question"  

"Yes or No?"  

"Of course yes." 

"Are you hiding something from me?" He asked.  I don't know where this all is going but I keep answering his stupid questions because if he think of something he have to do it no matter what happen next.

"Yes" I reply without hesitantly. He knew I was hiding something from not only him from everyone.  

"You want to share it?"

"No"

"You feel happy when Dad told you about marriage today?"

"I don't know. I wasn't happy or I was sad. There is nothing I feel that time"

 "Do you love Rayyan Bhai?" He asked suddenly. I was shocked what he asked.

 "What?" I asked in shocked.

 "Do you love Rayyan Bhai?" He repeats his question.

 "No" I said sternly and looked away. He chuckled. "Zayan if we were done with this then I suggest you to leave I am busy" I said without looking at him. I don't want to continue this with him.

 "Misha you love him"  He started to sing.

 "I said no"  

"Really? Then swear to Mom you don't love him." He said. I looked at him and he was really serious. 

"Are you mad Zayan? I said I don't love him and I am not going to swear to Mom. Do you understand?" I said through my teeth. I was going high on my anger. He is asking me to take swear of Mom. He lost his mind.

 "You love him Misha accept it." He said. 

"Leave from here" I half yelled pointing to door. He smirked and stood up to leave.  He left me in confusion. He left me in anger. How he know I love him? If he knew why he asked me to swear to Mom? If he know I am lying then he could drop it but no he want me to confess it but I am never going to confess it.  

I walk down for dinner. Everyone was quiet I could feel Dad and Zayan eyes on me but I didn't looked at their ways. I know they want my answer I already decide it but I wasn't sure if that's right or not?  

Am I doing right to myself? It was really difficult for me to decide what I want. But the question is making me sick is Did Rayyan know about it? Did he tell his Dad to do it? What if this is his new plan to give me troubles? I still can't believe what he says at my office 3 weeks ago. A part of me telling he was lying and on other hand my heart was saying he was telling truth. I was so confused with it. I do imagine my whole life with him but obviously not like this. Not in these situations.

 If I say yes then I will mentally force into this but not physically. Dad said it is my decision but I can't make him unhappy. Today when he was in my office I saw something different in his eyes. Hope. This is the thing I saw in his eyes. He seems happy. But again will I ever be happy in this? Will I ever get love from him?

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