*Swathi Pov*

"What is all this?" I heard the question, but didn't look back to see him and just continued to check whether everything is packed.

"Like you asked, I am moving out. And like I said, I am doing it sooner." I just replied and nodded to myself when I saw everything is properly packed even in a little time.

"I didn't mean it like that and why did you even think I am asking you to leave? I just asked you to pack and I will be doing the same. My job is over and we need not stay here anymore." He explained and I sighed, turning around to stare at his confused face.

"Why were we married?" I asked him and he frowned hearing my question.

"To stop you from ruining my friend." He replied when I didn't utter another word.

"Right! Why were we staying under a roof all these months?" I asked and this time he fisted his hands.

"Because we wished to annul this marriage and we have to stay for six months to do it." He replied but stepped into the room.

"And I tried to sneak around along with hurling out lies to you. Then comes your adamant desire to end the marriage and then the entrance of your grandmother with a woman whom you wish to be married and were even in love." I said and he groaned.

"She didn't know about you." He mumbled and sat on the bed.

"Why are you saying all these things? Any plans to write a journal for our marriage?" he asked snorting and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Then there was you thinking worst about me regarding harming Nakul and not listening to me. Even your team members think worst of me still with suspicious eyes because of what I had done." I continued to which he narrowed his eyes.

"Who is that?" he asked, but I brushed his words off.

"Now, I am leaving." I replied and he shook his head in negative.

"You are not! What is the need for any of that?" he asked standing up.

"To not have a disaster in the future. We both are strong headed and did some damage to each other. I think it is better to part ways now." I replied and immediately was hurled into his arms.

"Keep your thinking locked in a safe. We all went through enough with that high thinking of yours. All I know is you are my wife and you will be with me." He stated.

"But I don't want to be with you just because I am your wife." I stated back and moved away trying to control my heart beat.

I just don't be his wife and I want him to love me too. What if his idea of loving a person ends with Tina? And I am not going to say it which would make him laugh at me for sure.

He doesn't trust me and even has a bad opinion because of my plans which I don't blame him for. But how can I close my eyes and go ahead with the life.

When I slept off and woken up, I realized what he was saying regarding the packing, but then it felt like I should ignore the matter just because he is not talking about ending it.

"Anyway, all this is not needed. I am leaving and going to my house." I said, taking my bag, but glanced at him to see his blank face.

"Do you want me to beg you, Swathi? Is this all for that? Like I should grovel for something I don't even know of doing. Then you are for a surprise because I have the memory of begging once before a woman and saw the results. So I am not going to do it again in my lifetime." He stated and blood drained away from my face.

"Like all other things you came to regret will never be done by you? And that was near Tina?" I asked and he nodded, making me close my eyes.

"So, it will be best if you stop this nonsense and keep that bag away." He warned and I gritted my teeth before stepping near him.

"I will tell you what is waste, James. Me staying here and expecting something which you are lacking for." I said and moved to reach the door but he held my hand.

"I will not come behind you and don't forget that." He as usual warned.

"As if people are dying here to have you come behind them. Just one more day and we both are free from this marriage and you can go along with the plans you made like you told me." I mumbled shaking my head and pulled my hand away.

I need to leave before I will let it out how I wish he will say that he loves me or at least care for me and want me for my sake and not for this marriage that happened which we both made a ruin of and not because this is somewhat comfortable and not because of the attraction he feels because that can leave at any point of time.

"She left me, Swathi. Are you going to leave me too?" his desperate words brought a pain which I never thought I would feel.

God! If he is that much in pain because she left him, then now he can go and claim with me giving him some freedom, right?

"All we did was fight, James. What is the use?" I asked, not looking at him and waited but he didn't reply.

Urgh! Who asked me to go and love this man? And the worst part it somewhere where it is not clouded with doubts and hurt, it feels like I am doing something stupid. Maybe, I can try once telling him my feelings? He doesn't want me to actually go, right? Why don't I dare a little?

"Go! Just go and if I think clearly, I am more than glad about all this. I never wished to marry and all this was as a part of my duty from the beginning. Now, that everything is over, what is the need. And it's a good thing that you remind me of my plans because for a moment on this stupid thing, I forgot everything." His words reached my ears crushing that little dare I was trying to step on myself.

"All the best! It's not like you are in this stupid thing with heart involved like me." Saying that I walked off, at least to have a little peace that I said the words even in some silly manner.

With both Maha's and my things already sent off, I sat in the car and started driving, but stopped on the way to the company hearing my mobile ringing.

Out of nowhere a burst of anticipation entered into my heart, but it went out with the same speed when I saw the call is from Maha.

"I am on the way." I said, lifting her call.

"Di! I didn't get the leave for today. Will you pick me up in the evening? Did you get my things from the room?" she asked and I frowned.

"Yes! Didn't he ask you about the packing?" I asked her and she sighed.

"He hadn't even observed them. Anyway, is it fine if you can come in the evening?" she asked and I assured her before hanging up.

I heard a horn and turned to my side to see James in his vehicle. With again the anticipation, I rolled down the glass like him, but his next words made me wish I never stopped here.

"What? Changed your mind like always? It is a waste of time because I don't want this at all. And you know how strong I am to my decisions, unlike you." He said with literally throwing fireballs through his eyes.

"And I have many things to do along with many people. To top of that it will not be called cheating when this marriage ends too." He added when I just stared at him and that made me flinch which I couldn't hide.

I know what he is talking about and the triumph in his eyes made me let go of the feeling of betrayal and any other hurt. Giving him an equal stare and slowly changing my expression of indifference, I uttered the words with complete conviction.

"It is a good thing that you reminded me of such privileges and please do enjoy your life because I am not going to stop doing it myself." I said with a smile and rolled up the glass before driving off towards my parents house but didn't reach there.

I called Mom and asked her to send the things to the respective rooms like was written on the boxes and assured her to explain everything in the evening.

Turning around I drove to a café and walked into it before sitting at a corner of it. Having a strong coffee, I left the place and reached my work place even though I took a leave.

I thought, I will just follow Maha's idea of having a few days of spending with oneself, but now I know that would be a disaster in my case for sure.

I will either kill him by running my car over him or will make myself mad with these thoughts. Work is always a best medicine for all these things and how many times this worked for it not to work now.

At what time will she come? I thought, glancing at my watch, but stayed put in the car preparing myself for his arrival which can be at any moment.

Why is he still driving them around? Didn't he say that his job is over? I thought, frowning and stiffened when his car reached the parking space.

He got down with a frown and stared at my car before glancing to my side. However, I just looked straight, even though I can see his moments, turning my eyes a little.

To my horror he started coming near to my car and I wish he will not because I don't have any energy to give back any retorts for his words but thanks to Nakul he saved me by reaching the cars.

He too glanced at my car, but didn't give any reaction and after a few minutes, Maha walked towards us with a tight grip on her handbag.

I opened the passenger door from inside, but she walked near to Nakul making me sigh in relief. Maybe she decided to stay with him and now I need to send her things back.

However, before I can close the door, I heard her saying, "If possible, check your office room today before leaving."

And then she turned around to reach my car and got inside still holding the bag in a tight grip. I drove off when she nodded, but kept on glancing at her.

"I thought you changed your mind." I mumbled and she didn't make a sound for a few minutes.

"I am just trying for the last time with the only words I have to prove to him that I didn't had any revenge plan. If he accepts that, he will come to me and I will go without a second thought. But if he doesn't, I don't have any right to go back." She explained and I moved my hand to hold hers before reaching our parent's house.

"What is all this?" Mom asked with worried tone the moment we reached the house, but we both walked into the house and sat in the living room while she went to call Dad.

"As we both are going to be single again, we decided to come and live with our parents." I said when Dad asked the same question.

"What? But you both..." he trailed off when I shook my head, gesturing Maha to which he nodded.

"I will not be going to the court and our lawyer can deal with the things." I said in a hard tone, but then took a deep breath feeling everything closed up like it is kind of an end.

"Do you want to go, Maha?" he asked her and she shook her head.

"No! Tell the lawyer, whatever is Nakul's wish is mine." Maha replied and I want to hug her seeing the raw pain in her voice.

We retired to our own rooms and I paced in mine thinking maybe I don't have a heart. Why am I not crying? Why am I not showing any pain?

Why did I never let myself go for a person like Maha is doing? If I did that, would I have stayed back with James? Yes! I would have accepted just the thought of us being together but I was always been greedy.

And I don't like being insecure at all. I don't want to be insecure thinking he loved someone else but not me. I don't want to be scared that one day he will remember my plans more and think what am I doing with this woman and leave me when the attraction washes off.

I don't want to be in too much depth that it would be hard to come out. Maybe I have a heart, but don't have courage to let it go completely with no hold over it like Maha.

*James Pov*

What is she doing here? I thought still feeling the rage which didn't subdued from the morning. I left from here immediately dropping Nakul and Maha to talk to her and clear all the misunderstandings.

But there she stood with everything packed in a small truck ready to leave me. It was nothing but confusion that was covering my mind and then she started reading our marriage history.

I tried to stop her and she just threw it on my face. Didn't I used warning and then even pleading? Didn't I go far to throw the one thing she hates the most so that she will come back charging?

But she really doesn't care anymore if she still left hearing the words of me with other women and then she has to throw that to my face of her own enjoyment.

Before I can reach her car, Nakul walked near to me and didn't give any expression even though he saw her car. And then Maha came walking near to us, making me frown as I thought Swathi is here to talk to Maha.

"If possible, check your office room today before leaving." Saying that she walked off to Swathi's car and sat into it.

After they drove off I repeated her words and my eyes widened. Is this kind of some plan between both to leave or what? Will Maha really do that?

I turned to see Nakul already walking into the building and I followed him to see his frown. However, the movement we reached his cabin, I frowned seeing nothing special, but he walked as if he knew where to check.

I walked near to him to see what is he looking at and my eyes widened seeing a chart pasted to the glass from the other side, but there were so many yellow slips attached to that single chart.

I opened my mouth to read, but he calmly whispered, "Don't!" and I didn't realize they must be private, but he looked at the other side of the glass which I followed to see another chart but with words written on it.

'I said those words only because he was pointing the gun to my head, Nakul. I wanted to buy myself some time because I know you will find me soon. But today if this was the result for that plan of mine to stall him, then I wish I never did that. I wish I just let him pull that trigger to my head and then at least your love for me would have stayed alive instead of hate. This is the last personal message I would ever written for you when I still have the right to because it will be taken away from me soon.'

I held his shoulders when he staggered back and he pushed my hands away before walking towards the glass.

"They both left us at a time." I mumbled, shaking my head with Maha's message shaking me also.

"Just one day before..." I trailed off not wishing to even think about that dreadful day, which I don't want to enter our lives.

"Before?" Nakul asked in a whisper.

"Six months will finish by tomorrow evening." I replied and he turned around to stare at me finally with an emotion even though it is of panic.

"There were too many boxes in the morning, which made me pause to think, but I think they belong to both of them." I added and waited for his reaction but he just turned around.

"Why are you hurting each other? I can expect all this drama in my married life but not yours from the beginning, Nakul. Go and get her." I said, but he didn't move.

"Nakul!" I said, but he lifted his hand stopping me.

"I know, today is your last day to be working with me. Thanks for everything you have done and we will talk about payment later. Now, you can leave." He said and I frowned.

"I will drop you." I offered, but he shook his head.

"I want to be alone." He mumbled and I left like he asked, but not before leaving the car back along with his bodyguard giving instructions to bring Nakul home whenever he is ready.

I walked aimlessly on the roads for some time thinking about everything trying to find a clue for her sudden change in behavior because I can't just give up.

Is it in my words? But we always exchanged them and fought and even made up. This is something else which I don't have any clue.

It relates to the entrance of Grandma with a plan to marry me off to Tina for sure. But I never behaved like I have an interest in that prospect in any way.

Then I started thinking about each word she uttered sitting at a bus stop with closed eyes and then opened them with a frown. I called for a cab and reached the office before sitting in my chair to finish off the final work with her words ringing in my head.

*Maheshwari Pov*

Please! Just call me once and I will be there with you in the next moment. I held the phone in my hand along with trying to hear if there is any door bell ringing from the evening.

"Why did you leave in the first place if you are going to make yourself sick like this?" I heard Mom's voice and glanced up to see her standing in the doorway.

"He didn't call!" I whispered and she walked near to me before hugging me.

"He didn't ask you to leave." She pointed out.

"I didn't know what to do, Mom. He was not talking and not even scolding me. He was not even harsh with me. He was just numb like I was not there beside him except when I get the nightmare of getting kidnapped." I started explaining.

"I thought he would do something if I leave, but tried one last time, which seems to be nothing." I added and leaned back wishing the tears can just go back into my eyes.

"Did you talk to him?" she asked.

"I tried all these weeks and I didn't do anything other than that. If he behaves bad, I would be able to ask something direct, right? So, all I could do was ask him is he fine and he would say yes. I even tried to tell him everyday that I really do love him, but it felt like he was not listening. I couldn't bare it anymore, Mom." I replied and stared at her to see her eyes filled with tears.

"Well, at least you are letting it out, but that sister of yours is like Nakul saying everything is fine. As if she just returned from the hostel." She commented.

"She is hurt, Mom. That's just her way of showing it or not showing it." I explained.

"True! Everyone has their own way to do it, dear." She pointed out and I realized what she is trying to say.

"Then if he is hurt because of me in such a way that he gone numb from all these weeks, isn't it good I stay away from him so that his pain can reduce?" I asked back and she shook her head.

"I know, you both will not listen to me and I didn't do it too when I was your age. So, I am not going to say anything. But if your heart feels to do something, then just do it." She replied standing up.

"It is saying to just go to him and turn a blind eye to his attitude." I whispered and she stiffened.

"But I don't have any strength to do it." I added and placed the phone aside accepting that I really lost him.

"It is past midnight! Get some sleep." She said, leaving the room, but I know I just at there and even slept in the middle.

The next day Di went to work, ignoring Mom's protests while I just walked around the house trying to push the wishes.

However, in the evening after Di returned Father called both of us to the study before dinner time. We both sat and saw his grim expression along with Mom's.

"It's done!" hearing those words I just sat there stunned along with Di, but then realized her shaking a little and I held her hand feeling my hand already turned cold.

"You both can go to Maha's house this weekend if you want to." He offered but we both shook our heads.

"I need to go to work on Monday morning and the company is far from here so I have to start early before I find proper buses details to reach there." I babbled and heard Di saying about her work for which she needs to go tomorrow itself.

"How about a sleepover, Maha?" she asked after we had our dinner and I nodded before reaching her room which has bigger bed.

"It is really over, isn't it?" she whispered and I nodded, but then saw her tears with her mumbling herself as stupid to which I just held her hand not having any words to offer.

"It is!" I whispered and squeezed her hand and closed my eyes warning my tears to not show their display because now I want to support her and if I start myself then she will again stop her emotions to support me.

If this is what you wish for, then I don't have anything else to say or do. But I will not leave the job too, so that I can at least be with you even though as a just an employee.

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okay! it will not be that sad sad, guys and maybe in between it would be but still the fun will be there... what do u think? is it too much? *closing my eyes*

how is the chap???

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p.s-update could be tuesday which is maybe