(okay y'all so this is in like third person, but focusing on dan, okay? cool)

Dan felt guilty. He could remember all of Chris and PJ's party. Or at least most of it. He couldn't remember how many drinks he had, but he knew it was a lot, because from what he remembered, he was pretty drunk. His memory came in flashes - the pour of a drink, PJ's drunk laughter, pepperoni pizza on a green plate, and Phil - oh god, Phil. He remembered all of that half an hour. Him leading Phil outside, confessing his feelings, kissing Phil. Phil kissing him back.. maybe he had dreamed it, but it felt all to real.

Phil did kiss him back.. but was Phil drunk at all? From what Dan remembers, Phil seemed more than sober, but after all, he was drunk, so maybe he wasn't remembering correctly. A sober Phil would've never kissed him. But what if a sober Phil would kiss him? The thought itched the back of his mind like a fresh bug bite. 

Maybe Dan's kiss was sobering - Phil did pull away after a few seconds. But what if it wasn't sobering? What if Phil was sober the whole time? Phil almost never drank, and it wasn't too special an occasion.. but when Dan asked him what happened last night, and he didn't respond, he figured he didn't want to speak of it. He seemed kind of.. relieved. The thought made Dan frown, and he pulled his duvet farther up on him, trying to fight the chills he felt.

Phil would never feel the same.. would he? Probably not. He was beautiful and bright and Dan was his polar opposite. Dark, moody.. Phil would never look at him like that. For all Dan knew, Phil was straight. Dan - well he was anything but. He'd been in love with Phil ever since they had met. 

And last night.. Phil must think it was some sort of drunken mistake, but if Dan had the guts, he would've done the same thing if he were sober. 

Dan was so confused - should he tell Phil and risk the ending of the greatest friendship he had ever had? Or should he hold it in and never tell Phil his true, sober (and drunk, apparently) feelings? He decided he would wait to make a final decision.

For now, he would go to sleep and not lay in bed, thinking about the kiss. He just hoped his mind would quiet down enough to allow that to happen.

(A/N)

Alrighty guys! So I really like this chapter a lot just saying. Hope you all did toooo :))

So now we know what Dan thinks, and we know that he remembers oooooo

Who knows what's gonna happen? Well, I do.. but still!

And this chapter is dedicated to elliemendesx for being so so lovely!

Andd for one more second, I wanna mention stardustphan because their fanfic memories is my favorite thing in existence probably, so you should check it out, and follow her because she is so sweet :))

Much love, Sam