Dear Dan,

By the time you get this, I'll be gone.

Where had Phil gone? Why had he gone? Was this some sort of suicide note?

I'll be somewhere without heartbreak, without anxiety, and sadly, without you.

Oh god, god no. He's breaking up with me? Well of course he is. He made it quite obvious.

I have no idea what's going on with you. You're so distant, you're spending so much money, and I haven't been around you for more than ten minutes in such a long time. I just want to know where things went wrong. What did I do to deserve this heartbreak?

Oh Phil, you did nothing. Phil I'm still in love with you. So in love with you. I was just afraid. Afraid you would stick around and see my flaws and imperfections. And now you're gone. I just want to start over.

Dan, you have to understand. I love you, so so much, but I just want you. I want you back. I want how we used to be. But now I'm afraid that can't happen. I've tried so hard to make you happy, I'm afraid that I just can't.

No Phil, you make me the happiest person alive. I can change! I can come back, I can treat you how you deserve!

And don't think I'll come back for my things. I took everything.

I ran to our room. My heart broke at the sight of empty drawers. The only things left were a pile of paper and a few random pieces of clothing. The scent of him still wafted through out the flat. Phil, why? Why would you leave me like this?

And don't try to find me. I'll be going somewhere to far for you to find me. Don't ask Chris, or PJ, or even my mum. No one know's I've left. No one but you.

This can't be happening. This can not be happening. He's really gone.

Honestly Dan, I can't sit here and let myself be torn apart by you. I need to be happy. I just wish I could be happy with you. So please don't try and contact me. I will use all of my willpower not to answer. Please don't make this harder on me.

All I was was a burden. A burden. I tore him apart, so now I guess it's my turn to be pulled apart. 

Forever yours, Phil

I shook my head. Phil, where are you? I just want you to come home. But then again, you don't deserve my shit. You don't need me. You've moved on to bigger, brighter things. But I can't. I need you, Phil Micheal Lester.

I picked up the pile of papers and read the one on the top.

Dear Dan,

I fell in love today.

And I read every letter. Every word he wrote to me. Every letter was signed the same.

Yours, Phil

Yours, Phil

Yours, Phil

Yours my ass. You're no longer mine.. I just wish you were. And then I broke down. I couldn't handle the sadness, the feeling of being ripped apart at the core. Phil, why couldn't we talk about this? We could've worked this out. We could've.. we could've fixed us. I can't help but feel like you didn't even try. 

To - my world

Phil please, hear me out.

Read, 2:15

To - my world

Phil you don't understand.

Read, 2:17

To - my world

Phil, I love you.

Read, 2:17

To - my world

I can't take this.

Read, 2:20

To - my world

Phil, I need you.

Read, 2:21

From - my world

Dan, did it ever occur to you that I need you too? I told you not to make it harder on me. I can't take this silence, I can't take being away from you at all, but I need this. I need to put myself first, and if that means leaving you, than that's what I have to do.

To - my world

Please come back. I just want to fix us.

Read, 2:25

From - my world

Dan, I think we're past that point, and we both know it. I'm just the one who accepts it.

To - my world

Phil, there's nothing to accept. You said it yourself, we need each other. I'll do what ever it takes to fix us. Just give me a chance.

Read, 2:26

(A/N)

I'M SORRY DON'T HURT ME

okay so I literally cried writing this chapter but like??? It's good this isn't the end 

I will be ending this fic soon, as much as I loved writing it. Plus maybe a sequel?? Who knows ;))

Wowie this is a really short fic but that's my writing I guess?? I dunno.

Much love, Sam