Your pov

Smiles. There are many different types, right? A genuine smile, a sad smile, a HaPpy smile. You always had one of your own kind with you. To say that you were okAy... You always thought of getting rid of yourself so that the lies would end, well, some of it. There were some other people like you out there but who were you to judge? There was nobody like you. Your the only freak around here. The barrier broke, monsters came in. You wondered why they were even called monsters. Is it because of their looks? Sure, they might look intimidating but they are just misunderstood. You had gotten friends and they were kind. You had one crush though, it was your best friend, sans. He was a skeleton that loved jokes and puns. He always hung out with you. He was one of the reasons that you stayed alive. You didn't die because of him, but... Isn't he mad? Isn't he disappointed in you for not dying? He always looked happy but he's just that kind. On the inside, he's probab- no.... He's definitely disgusted in you. You were just not supposed to exist. He's just playing along. Everybody is.

You cried in your room, clutching the blankets tight. It was one of those days, the days you just cry because you are still existing. You just don't do it out there, they are probably relieved that you saved them from your disgusting wails. Who were they you ask? Sans and papyrus. You had let them live here because they don't really have a house yet. When they do, they will be more than delighted to leave you. They were probably tired of your shenanigans. The door opens as light flooded the room. You looked up, eyes red and puffy. You saw sans, looking worriedly at you. "(Y/n)? Are you alright?" Ah, the usual question. You smiled at him. "I'm fine." You said. Lies. You don't say anything but lies. Sans let the door open just a crack and sat beside you, hand on your back. "It doesn't look like it." You look down, ashamed of yourself. He sighed and rubbed your back. "(Y/n), please. Just tell me if there's something wrong okay?" You looked at him, hesitating before nodding. Was he-? No. He's not. He's just doing what you usually do. Of course he doesn't care. He's just doing a kind gesture. "This has been going on for a week. (Y/n), what is bothering you?" You shook your head and shakily opened your mouth to answer. "I-its nothing. Besides, don't you h-have your own problems?" That sounded kind of rude. He's probably mad at you. He sighed. "(Y/n). Look, I just want you to not face these problems anymore. I want you to be happy. Besides, isn't that what friends are for?" Your heart ached. You had always said it to yourself and you had always expected it but, why does it hurt when he says it? You already knew that he wont go past friendship for you, only meeting you is already such a chore. It still... Hurts.... It felt like thousands of needles stabbing your soul. Sans hugged you. You hugged back, sobbing. What are you doing? He probably doesn't like this. You let go quickly. He looked at you, still worried. You smiled at him. A smile with a happy theme, yet it had a really broken meaning. He smiled back at you. He stood up and went to the door. He went to the other side of it and before closing it, he looked at you. "Don't let your problems bring you down alright? Because somebody really cares for you." He shut the door, the light disappearing. Your smile faded into nothing, your demons dancing around your head, saying nasty things about you. He doesn't care, nobody does. He's just saying it for you to feel better about yourself, right....? You looked down, clutching your head to try and stop the voices even though you already knew that they won't leave you. You tried to stay strong, for them, for sans. But won't they want you to die? Not hanf in to life? Your mind was a mess right now, you lay down the bed, staring at the ceilings where a few glow in the dark 'stars' were seen. You fell asleep, voices echoing.

It wasn't really any better. Each day, the voices were multiplying and they were getting louder. You just decided to hide it. What's the point? This is it... You marked this day the day that everyone can be happy.... When you can be free from the demons.... Where they will be free from your nonsense... You decided to go to the forest. You woke up early. You looked at the clock. 4:00 am. You got your noose and hid it in a bag. You got a pen and paper. You wrote a note to sans and papyrus. You put it on your door and walked downstairs. You looked around in your house for the last time. You smiled at the picture of you and the monster family. There were Toriel and asgore at the back, undyne and papyrus in front of them, you, sans and alphys at the second front and then there was frisk, Chara and asriel at the front, smiling. You opened the door, wiping the stray tears rolled down your face. You didn't even bother changing out of your long sleeves and pants as you went out. It was a bit chilly but you kept on going. You saw a unfinished building beside yours. That was sans and Papyrus's house in the future. You kept on going, seeing the other's houses. You finally made it to the forest. The trees were tall and it's shadows looked over you. You walked in, getting lost. Doesn't matter anyways.

" Come one (y/n)! Let's play hangman!" Frisk said as they dargged you to the livingroom of your house since you are babysitting them. There sat asriel and Chara on the floor. Frisk sat down, you sitting down beside them. A paper was in front. You were first.

You tied your noose on a branch. You stood on the stump, tears filling your vision. You smiled and looked up.

You wrote blanks on the paper. "Alright, it's a thing that undyne uses." You said. Your word was eyepatch. Asriel raised his hand. "Umm.... A!" You smiled and wrote it on the 5th blank. Asriel cheered then you went on.

Tears were streaming down your cheeks as you held the noose that you put on your neck.

It went on. They already got e_e_a_ch. Chara raised their hand. This was their final move. "B!"

You jumped. You kicked your legs as your breath was running out.

"You lose." You put the leg on the stickman to complete it.

You smiled one last time as a tear went down your face.

"I'm sorry."

You finally ran out of breath as you stayed still, black filling your vision as well as tears.

"You didn't save the stickman...."

Sans's pov

I was looking for (y/n). I haven't seen her this morning and it was worrying me. Not only because I have feelings for her, but also she always wake up before me. I looked upstairs and saw a note on (y/n)'s bedroom door. I read it.

Dear skelebros,
Hi! So, you might be looking for me, right? Well, you don't have to because I just went somewhere. Before I go, I have to say a few things. Please don't worry about me. I won't be coming back for a bit. Please don't go looking for me. Papyrus, please keep your kind nature and always be the greatest you can be! I'm always gonna be proud of you! Now sans, you might not think of me that way but, I like you. You don't have to return your feelings, I understand. Please tell the others to stay like what they are right now and to stay strong. All of you. This is my final goodbye...

This note is suspicious. I'm still going to look for her. I went downstairs and looked for paps. "Pap! I'm going for a walk!" I heard a nyeh in response and I teleported out, trying to find (y/n).

The sun was setting. The last place that I didn't check was the forest. I went in the mazes of the trees.

I walked back to (y/n)'s house. I just went back from grillby's

I felt a sense of dread over me. Why though? I have a bad feeling about this. I still walked.

I saw (y/n) at the couch. She looked at me and smiled. "Hey sans! Dinner's at the table! Don't worry about me! I'm just going to stay here for a while." I smiled at her and went to the kitchen.

It was already nighttime as the feeling of dread grew stronger.

After eating, I went to the living room and (y/n) wasn't there. I went upstairs and looked in (y/n)'s bedroom.

I can't believe what I was seeing. It was (y/n), lifeless while she was hung. I dropped to my knees and cried.

I saw that (y/n) was asleep. I went to her and kneeled down beside her. Soft snores erupted from her.

Even in death, she was still smiling, her lifeless (e/c) eyes staring at the distance. I cried. Why? Why did she do this? Is this why she was crying?

I kissed her forehead and she smiled in her sleep. I carressed her hair.

I stood up and cupped her pale cheeks. She looked like she was also crying earlier. Tears were streaming down my cheeks like a waterfall.

I admired her peaceful face as the moon made her face shine.

Why did you do this? I hugged her, not caring that she's dead. "(Y/n).... Why? I... Love you... Why did you do this?"

I played with her hair a bit before standing up. I looked at her one more time before going to the door. I smiled at her from the door.

"I thought that you won't let anything get you down?" I looked up at the stars after letting go of her.

I know that she won't hear me but I'll say it anyways...

I chuckled. "Heh... I never even get to say..."

"Goodnight...."