*Sonic's POV*
I decided to do this alone. It had officially been 2 weeks since Shadow and I broke up. My uncle kept pushing for me to go out and talk to him and offer him the job, which meant I also needed to talk to him. And explain exactly what had happened.

G.U.N. agents were told to take a break, and the building was empty as they all waited to see when we would call them back. So I knew Shadow would be at home. He would rather spend time alone at home reading a book than being anywhere else when he wasn't working. I had spent the past 2 weeks sulking and spent them locked in my room, letting Tails and the rest of the gang take care of Eggman when he would attack. I needed time for myself.

Two weeks should have been enough, but if I was being honest, it wasn't even close. I didn't want to see Shadow, I mean, I did, but it hurt. I wanted to be with him again, in a relationship, but I knew that would never happen.

I sighed as I stood in front of Shadows' house, hesitating but finally brought myself to knock on the door. The house was quiet, maybe a bit too much, which meant Rouge wasn't around.

"Not now, Rouge!" Shadow snapped on the other end of the door. My ears lowering, suddenly feeling like running away.

I stuttered words out, not being able to speak until I was finally able to clear my throat and talk. "It's me." I said, my voice louder so he could hear me. "It's Sonic." I repeated just in case he didn't hear me.

"Go. Away." Shadow opened the door just to glare at me. "Now." He growled furiously. I wouldn't blame him for hating me.

"I-I need to talk to you, Shadow. Please hear me out." I said, quickly putting my food between the door and the door frame when I saw him about to close it. I felt a sharp pain on my foot when he slammed it, but I ignored it. "Please." I begged. My uncle would kill me if he was here now. He'd be so disappointed.

Something in my voice must have changed his decision because he gave in and opened the door. He let me walk in, and I did, but instead of going inside to his living room like I used to, I stayed by the door.

"What do you want?" Shadow crossed his arms, his eyes showing nothing but anger towards me. Maybe hatred? Or sadness? I couldn't tell.

"First of all, I want to apologize to you. I was a jerk, I should have told you what was going on. I should have trusted you enough so you could help me, but I was scared." My voice was soft, almost as if speaking was the wrong thing to do here, I was careful. "I am trying to keep my family safe, so when Rouge called saying you needed my help to figure out who I was because someone paid G.U.N. I knew I had to take the offer and figure out who was trying to hurt my family. I never meant to hurt you." My voice was low, almost like a whisper.

"You. Lied." Shadow spat out. "You made me trust you, yet you didn't trust me! You didn't tell me who you really were!" I could feel Shadow stepping on the already broken pieces of my heart.

"I-I know I messed up. I really do like you, Shadow. I just wanted for you to trust me. To talk to me, to know it was okay to do so with someone else."

"For what? So you could make me actually like you and then hurt me?" Shadows growl grew louder, his anger simply intensifying.

My gaze lowered to the floor as I rubbed my own arm with my ears pinned down. I didn't know what to say. I wish it was easier to explain.

"It's just." I mumbled. "It's just my life is a mess. Chaos, if you only knew, Shadow. I've lost so much, I've lost friends, I've lost you, I've even lost myself." A tear rolled down my muzzle as a knot formed in my throat yet again. "I've done everything in my power to keep everyone else safe, even safe from me. Chaos, I lost it when the commander said those things about you and Rouge. I lose control when I am mad, and I become a-a... monster." I sobbed then shook my head.

"You don't understand how it feels to be in my shoes. I carry so much in order to help others that I forget about my own happiness." I cleaned my tears and looked back up and reached for his hand. "All I ask is if you can give me another chance. I promise I won't - " I stopped, froze when Shadow moved his hand away from me.

"Maybe I can forgive you. With time." Shadow started. "But there's no second chance. There never will be." His voice, it sounded so broken that I wanted to hug him, I wanted to hold him, apologize over and over. Chaos even beg for him to give me a chance, but I held back. I had to respect his decision. I had to be okay with this. I had to. I had to.

"Now leave." Shadow said harshly as he opened the door for me to get out of his house. "You said what you had to say already. Now, get the hell out of my house."

"W-Wait." I said as I walked out but held the door open so I could talk to him. "There's one more thing." I took in a deep breath, smiling through the pain. "My siblings and I want you and Rouge to take over the commanders position. If you want the job, that is. We would be supervising, making sure everything goes smoothly, we will be above the two of you, but you two will basically be the ones running G.U.N." I handed him two envelopes. "Think about it, okay?" I was about to walk away when I remembered something.

"Oh and -" I took out the bracelet from my jacket pocket and handed it to Shadow. The beaded bracelet i had made him, and he had returned. "This is yours. Just throw it away if you dont want it, but I don't want to see it." I shook my head then dashed off before Shadow could say anything else.

I had to accept this.

I had to.