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Chapter 11-  Chelsea POV (Marked but No Hugs and Kisses)

As I watched Gabe walk out of my room I felt empty inside, the things he said gutted me; the sobs that I held in while he spoke were fighting to get out now that I was alone. I didn't know what I was crying for? Was I crying for dad? Was I crying because I felt alone and out of place? Was it because his pack treated my mom horribly? Or was it because I could tell or feel like I was going to lose him? How did he expect me to just deal and be friends with a woman, my half sister to whom just 9 hours ago he loved, they were going to have a child together.

Nothing much made any sense to me, I hated Leo, and this was his fault, and mine partly.

With what Gabe said I knew that I couldn't trust him with my secrets just yet and I think my wolves agreed, for now no one in that pack could know.

I sat in the same pot that he left me in I heard a knock on my door and knew it was Jamie. "Yes," I called.

"Can I please come in Chels?" he asked, very politely I might add.

"Yes." I choked out and as soon as he opened the door and crossed the threshold I was in his arms in no time at all. With my head on his chest he asked, "What's wrong?"

I wanted to tell him, tell him all of my secrets, and share my burden with him.

It was obvious that I couldn't trust my mate just yet and I knew now I would always have my mind link off when it comes to him. The wall that most mates probably kept down so their other half could hear them all the time, I would have to keep up. I didn't understand men at all, one minute he was all-supportive then one shower later and he's changed? While I tried to calm myself down so I could try to explain everything to Jamie I heard my wolves giving me directions.

Place your hand on his body Chelsea said Avena.

Not sure why she wanted that, I still did as she said.

Now close your eyes...

Were they nuts, close my eyes with a man around, one that I was currently sitting on his lap? Still here I was doing something that we had never done before, I felt myself being pulled, first it was different I could tell my surroundings were the same even with my eyes closed. I could hear nothing but my breathing and Jamie's heartbeat, but as I listened to the silent I felt Jamie tense up and his breathing changed.

Remove your hand now and you can open your eyes said Aria.

Doing as I was told I lifted my head and hand from his chest, and looked at Jamie. His face was priceless it reminded me of the same expression he wore when I told him about my powers and I could understand then but right now I was baffled as to why he looked this way.

"Are you okay?" I asked him, which snapped him out of whatever was going on...

"How did you do that? Why did you not mention you could do this?" he asked hurt evident in his tone but I was about to reply and show I was just confused as he was.

"I'm not sure what you mean..." I trailed off.

"We were here but I could see what Gabriel told you, your talk. Not just see it but I was there, like this couch is here right now that's how I saw it." He said struggling to explain before he blurted out a new explanation, "it was like I was an actual fly on the wall but you guys couldn't see me." He finished his description in a complete daze.

I remained silent just resting my head back on his chest... "Jamie..." I whispered, "I really miss my dad," swallowing the gigantic lump in my throat to finish my thoughts "his pack, they threw my mom away too, there are so many pieces missing and while what he said about his pack was true, I know that's not the whole story," I cried.  

"What do you mean?"

Talk to brother we can trust him...

I contemplated how to answer his question "I don't trust the beta, Alpha or the Beta's wife!"

Shaking my head trying to work everything out but I just couldn't it was frustrating, "I have chunks of my memory missing but everything he told me doesn't make sense. I mean why leave one child but then put me in the trash? If my mother left Audrey why not leave me too? And how is it she even made it on pack land, or near the pack limit without one pack member seeing her if they wanted to keep her out? How would she know for sure that Audrey went with the Pack... there are humans here... a human could have found Audrey? I mean you said you got to see our talk right? Well it just seems like there are a few holes in my opinion, but also how old was Gabe? Six or seven years old when this happened with my mom... I'm sure he is just repeating what he was told." He and I were both silent for a while and I had to think that even though Jamie wasn't Gabe he was doing such a good job of calming me down, letting me speak about what was bothering me without acting like I was a child.

"What do you think?" I asked him. "Do you think I'm crazy?"

"No I don't think that... do you want my honest opinion Chels?" he asked somewhat reserved.

"Yeah, I want your honest opinion..."

His wolf agrees with us Chelsea...

"Okay I think you should find your biological mother, but I think you should do so without their help... my wolf and I just feel like looking for her with their help would be disastrous." He stopped and shifted his body a bit.

"When you say that you're missing part of your memories what do you mean exactly?" his voice serious.

"I can remember so many things from when I was little but there are parts of my memory I should remember but I can't, and haven't been able to access. However when I sleep sometimes I see those missing pieces... When I try to remember while I'm awake, it's like I just can't reach it but I know it's important. There is a wall around the dream during the day, but at night I can remember." I was struggling to explain, just as he had struggled when he tried to explain.

"With my powers coming in, when I had first started getting them my wolves told me that I couldn't get them all at once, I think that whatever I can't remember has to do with a power I have to inherit." I said grasping at straws.

"I feel like for the past 3 years that my wolves have been living my life, making choices for me and it's getting so frustrating now because I just want things to get back to normal already, I'm holding on by a string..." I whispered.

"I cannot say everything will be perfect soon, but Chelsea things do not work that way and you know it... If I was in your position I'd be so happy that my wolves were looking out for me, I'd be happy that I don't get every single gift all at once. How you're getting them, be thankful that they are sporadically. This new one you just showed me, maybe you can use it to find out things from your past. Also I've been thinking about your powers, each one has one negative and then a positive aspect to it. You can't die from being shot with silver, but it takes you long to recover... get it?" he asked.

Brother is right Chelsea, you feel out of control right now but it will all make sense okay? Asked Avena...

What he and my wolves was saying made complete sense but right now I was drained, "thanks for coming to check on me and letting me vent but what happened?" I wondered out loud.

"I just felt that you needed me so I came," like it was the simplest thing in the world. 

"Can you do me a favor?" I asked trying to come up with a strategy of what I should do next.

"Sure... anything..." he said easily.

"I want you to ask your mate about my mom, but also I hate to even say this, he can't know about my powers Jamie... My wolves wanted me to tell Gabe at first but after what he said tonight they nor I feel like anyone from that pack should know just yet." I said carefully. "It's not that I don't think he is a good person, I can't say that you know? Because I don't know him, but I want to get to know him because he is your mate and you are in my little pack." I explained quickly.

"Chelsea relax..." Jamie said chuckling.

"I get it. I'm happy I found my mate, but what you can do? I understand that you need to trust before you can come out with the truth..." he laughed then continued. "I'm happy though, because at least you care enough about my feelings and my mate to try and sugarcoat your mindset... So don't worry okay? And I'll ask him what he knows about your biological mom..."

Nodding my head mostly to myself I felt my eyes getting droopy.

"So sleepy..." I muttered and felt Jamie stand and begin walking; shortly I felt myself being placed on my bed.

As Jamie was pulling away I reached out blindly to hold onto him, then asked, "Can you stay again? I don't want to sleep alone just yet..." last night he had spent the night on my couch because being in this new place was a little hard on my sleep. I was just in a better peace of mind when I knew someone I trusted was close.

"Sure." I felt him grab the blanket at my feet and a pillow next to me and begin walking towards my couch. "Goodnight sis," he said jokingly. I was too tired to do anything other than grunt out a noise.

I was in pain. Hot searing pain. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhh" I screamed. It hurt everywhere, I couldn't breathe the pain took my breathe away, this was far worse than anything Leo had ever put me through. I knew for a fact that I wasn't dreaming this pain, as I rolled around my bed in pain. Screaming, unable to hold it in for at least five minutes... then another five just for me to actually calm down, for all the pain I felt to subside.

I wasn't paying attention to what was going on around me, but I could hear Jack and Casey and Jamie around me asking me what was wrong... only I couldn't catch my breathe enough to even tell them what I was feeling. Then as suddenly as it started it stopped... I was panting, desperately trying to catch my breath.

"What the fuck was that Chelsea?" still shaking, tears rolling down my face I couldn't answer...

"I-I d-don't know, I was s-sleeping and all of a s-sudden I was in so much p-pain guys I don't know-w." I choked out still breathless. I could hear Aria and Avena panting, whimpering in pain as well...

They were all looking at me strangely as I was finally able to sit on my bed, hiccups still taking control of my body. Jack and Casey were sharing sideway glances at each other and I could tell that they were most likely mind linking.

"What? Spit it out already!" I said. Glancing at my clock I saw that it was 8am, just fifteen minutes earlier than I had set my alarm.

"Well... it's... just... that... sometimes when one mate cheats on the other..." Casey stopped looking at me. I remembered when they had started giving me wolf lessons and then it dawned on me.

"The o-other feels intense pains." I finished quietly.

Mate cheated... I heard Avena and Aria in my head whimpering.

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