Shawnie's POV 

I walked into my bedroom after a super stressful day. I was promised this pregnancy wouldn't be overwhelming, but these last couple of months it has been nothing but that. I'm currently 38 weeks pregnant and I can go into labor at any time now. I'm also planning a birthday party for my soon to be one year old, daughter Genesis. The party is in five days and I've been going back and forth with my ex, Chris, for the last two hours about a fucking cake. He wants vanilla and I want chocolate. So I suggested marble, which is both, but he doesn't want that. My party planner said to just have two cakes, but he doesn't want that either. I don't know what's up with him. He just wants to control something and get under my skin and it's working. I'm super stressed out, and for absolutely no reason. We shouldn't be arguing over stupid things like this.

I saw my husband sitting in the chair, in the dark. He had his back turned towards me so I could see what he was doing, but he wasn't moving , he was just sitting there. I watched him for a few seconds before I went over to him. After a minute of no additional movement, I walked over to him and stood in front of him. He was just sitting there. As soon as I stepped in front of him, he picked his head up to look at me, snapping out of whatever state he was in.

"What's up baby?" He says smiling, reaching for my hands.

"Aubrey, is everything okay?" I ask, rubbing his head.

"I'm good, I was just zoned out." He places his hands on my stomach, simultaneously lifting my shirt to reveal my stomach. 

He places a kiss on my belly twice, then pulls it back down, leaning back in the chair.

"How'd it go?" He motions for me to sit in his lap.

"I'm so happy we did this at home. I don't think I could've made it if the party was in LA. I would've gone crazy. I feel like things would've gotten worse today, LA has so much drama." I explain

"Yeah, his name is Chris Brown." He scuffs.

I laugh, "Stop it. Don't talk shit! He's not all drama. He's gotten a lot better."

"He has, I'll admit that. What happened today?"

"We argued over cake." I hold in my laugh when I see how Aubrey looks at me. I can say it's amusing now but when we were arguing, I was highly pissed off.

"Cake?" He says in disbelief.

I finally laughed, "Yes, but we came to an agreement. I just let him have what he wanted."

"And what was that?" He asks

"Vanilla."

"Vanilla?" He scrunched his face up, "Man, fuck everything up and have strawberry cake, pineapple, something. Vanilla is so boring."

"Just drop it. He's getting the vanilla, whatever." I say

"Whatever. Where's the baby girl, with him?" He asked to keep her with him for a few hours.

"Yes. He's dropping her off at 8." I say

We've really come a long way in the last two months. He's come out here to visit four times now. He stays downtown in a hotel and I always drop her off to him as soon as he gets into town. The only reason I haven't gone to LA yet is because I'm pregnant. We agreed, a month after I have the baby is when I'll start traveling  for him to see her, so until then he travels here with no problem. It is actually working for us.

"Okay. That's cool and all, but I'm not gonna have too many more of his late night calls, and you getting up out of bed, pregnant as hell to go help him." He says

"He's going through a lot right now. He has a baby momma who wants to take all of his money and another baby on the way, and she keeps asking him for money too. He feels like I'm the only one that can help him through this for some reason. I'm not gonna turn my back on him. I have told you that many times and I meant it." I say firmly, rubbing the back of his head again.

"Just give them bitches his money. You control all of that. You can shut all that shit down." Aubrey says

"I know but I'm not going to do that. I don't understand why I'm still on the papers. I thought he would've changed that after I threatened him." I say

"He likes the drama. He wants to still have that connection to you. You're too nice. Any other bitch would've taken everything from him. He put you through hell. I don't understand why you always drop everything for him. I'm your husband and I don't like it. You don't drop everything for me."

"Yes I do. Stop it. You don't have a history of substance abuse, and you don't call me drunk in the middle of the night. I know where you are. I don't know where he is or who he's with. I don't know if he's in danger or not. He's never with his security anymore. He scares me to death when he does that." I explain and Aubrey just rolls his eyes.

"You should stop. It's not like he listens to you anyway." He says

"I'm going to get through to him eventually. You know there is nothing going on between us that's why you're not bothered by it and you continue to let me do it."

"True. I have faith in you and I know you're only loyal to me." He says

"Right, so just let it go." I say standing up and walking into my closet. "What did you do today?"

"Roulette..."

I roll my eyes, "Oh my god, is this a new habit? Do I need to be concerned?"

"Nah," he laughs "....do you need to be concerned?" He mocks me.

"I'm just saying, it's getting pretty excessive. I mean it's your money, but you have a lot of money going out."

"If you knew how to play, you wouldn't be saying that." He says

"I do know how to play...very well, might I add."

"I never knew that."

"My ex, Marcel, taught me. It was his favorite game as well." I say

"Sounds like he knows how to have fun." He says

I stop and think about Marcel...."Yeah, he was fun...until he wasn't."

I took a few more seconds, thinking about that situation. That whole thing still affects me. He literally made me love him with everything I had and he just switched it up on me at the flip of a switch. It was a horrible experience that haunts me to this day.

"Baby, you okay?" Aubrey says interrupting my thoughts.

"Um, yeah... I wanna take a bath." I say shaking myself out of those old memories. I get up and go into my closet.

"Okay... Can I join?"

"Not tonight baby. I'm tired." I yell from the closet.

"Okay." He says and I hear him go into the bathroom and turn on the water to the bathtub.

*********

After my bath, I climbed into bed and quickly fell asleep.  Aubrey got in bed some time after me, cuddling up to me and went to sleep himself.

When Chris drops off Gen, the staff always lets him in and he goes to her bedroom and he puts her to bed. We actually have a pretty good method going on, and it works.

Chris and Aubrey's relationship is a work in progress, but both of them are trying. I keep reminding them that regardless of whether they like it or not, they are somewhat part of each other's lives, and they have to deal with that. They don't talk that much, they pretty much only talk when they need to, and we haven't had any problems and when they do it's one word at a time.

I think I was only asleep for a couple of hours, when I was awakened by my phone buzzing on my nightstand. I already knew it was Chris.

I sigh as I reach for my phone. This shit has gotten worse. He only does this when he's in town. When he's in Canada, he gets drunk and I mean out of his mind, drunk. Then he calls me to come pick him up. I don't know if this is something that's a problem, or if it's an attention thing. I don't know if it's only alcohol, or if drugs are included in this meltdown because believe it or not, I don't know the signs. Dealing with him, I should definitely know the signs already, but I don't. I just want to help him because this is my worst fear, our daughter growing up without him.

Things were bad when we left LA. Like really bad.  After the interview it seems like everything blew up, which I knew it would, but I also thought we came to a conclusion and everything would've been all good moving forward. At least that's what it seemed like because Aubrey and Chris we're good. They talked, they exchanged phone numbers and everything. I really thought that we were turning over a new leaf and we're going to become that ideal co-parenting situation. But it seems like shit got even worse when Aubrey was announced artist of the decade.

Aubrey accepted his award with me there, super pregnant, and he publicly expressed his love for me, on stage and as his wife. Everyone went crazy and believe it or not, there wasn't really that much shit talking. TeamBreezy had some shit to say, of course, but it wasn't that bad. Maybe they've gotten used to us.

After that, I don't want to say all the progress between the two guys was lost, but a lot of it was gone. He reverted back to the old Chris that I hated and it's been somewhat of a struggle since.

I managed to grab my phone without waking Aubrey. I look at the phone and I see I was right, it's him.

"Yes, Chris?"
I answer, eyes still closed.

"Baby?" Chris's voice comes through the phone. It sounded like something was wrong. I just shake my head. It kills me to hear him like this. I just want to burst out into tears.

I would be stupid to think this is only because of me. I know he's dealing with a lot but I don't know the full extent to everything that he's dealing with. I know he has other issues. I know he's with Diamond and from my understanding, their relationship is good. I don't know what it could be.

"Yes, Chris?"

"Tell your security to let me in. I need to talk to you." He says

"I know you do, Chris" I sit up, throwing the cover off of me. That's always his excuse. "Why didn't you talk to me while you were here? Where are you?" I ask

"I want to talk to you. I'll be there in a minute." He says

"Are you driving?" I ask

"Yeah."

"Chris! Oh my god, please pull over. I'll come to you." I say in a panic, which wakes up Aubrey.

"What's wrong?" Aubrey asks

I get out of bed as quickly as my body allows me. "Where are you?"

"No. You're not going this time." Aubrey says, rolling over to face me.

"Aubrey, I have to..."

He gets up and grabs my phone from me and puts it up to his ear. "Call Diamond." He hangs up.

"I can't believe you just did that." I panic a little. "I don't know where he is and he's drunk."

Aubrey grabs my shoulders making me calm down, "After two months of this, this is enough. He's been doing this ever since we left Chicago. I'm all for him coming here to see his daughter, but we can't keep dealing with this shit."

"But—."

He cuts me off, "Shawnie, call his girlfriend. This isn't your problem."

I sigh, "You're right." I roll my eyes, "Okay..." I take my phone and I call her.

"Hello?" She answers

"Diamond I'm sorry to wake you but...Chris is drunk somewhere and he called me to come and get him but I'm not going."

She sighs, "Again?"

"Yeah...again." I say

"Alright....I'll call him. I'm sorry he keeps calling you. I know Drake is flipping out. I'm sorry...you're about to go into labor any second." She says

"I sure can."

"Okay, we'll thank you, I'll call to see where he is and go get him." She says

We end the call and I just look at Aubrey.

"Thank you." I say

"You're welcome, now go back to sleep." He says sitting me down and taking my phone.

"I'll try." I lay down, pull the cover over me and I just lay there.

I hope Chris is okay. I am worried but Aubrey is right, it's not my problem.

Aubrey cuddles up to me and I close my eyes.

"Shawnie, can I ask you something? I've been trying to avoid asking you this because I don't wanna hear the answer but I need an answer to calm my thoughts." He says

"What, baby?"

"I know how you feel about me and I know that you're in love with me and I know I make you happy but sometimes I feel like you're just settling with me. I know you're not but I feel like that. I think you want to be with him but you know that you guys just can't be together. It's too dangerous and toxic, so you're with me."

"First of all, no I'm not settling with you. It's a weird and complicated situation because yes I love Chris so much and I care about him and the reason why all of this happened is simply because we love each other so much. I think Chris is very misunderstood. I think he has a lot of things going on in his head and I know that he tries to do or say certain things and they don't come out the way that they should. I think he sees something in his head one way but the reality of the situation is something totally different. He has some issues and I tried to stick with him. I tried to help him through and I still want to help him but his issues on top of my issues and the world's issues with both of us... it's just too much and I still love him. I'm not scared to admit that but we just can't be together."

I look over at him and I see his hand on his face. He sighs heavily.

"No we can't be together. It is a very toxic and yes, it's a dangerous situation. We just don't work. I'm with you because you are everything I want and more. You are what I was hoping Chris would be. You bring out a confidence in me that I've lost years and years ago. People think I've changed and that's because they didn't know who I was before Chris." I explain

"Yeah, I've been getting a lot of shit about changing you." He says

"They don't see that it's not you, it's me." I say

"Truth be told, I'll probably always love Chris and that something that you're just gonna have to deal with. I don't mean to sound mean when I say it but it's the truth. I know you have insecurities and I don't wanna feed into that but I also don't want to go behind your back. I'll probably always be there for him if he needs me. I'm sorry but that's just something that you're gonna have to work through and just know the relationship that we have is something that I cherish and I would never put anyone else above you."

He smiles and kisses my cheek. "I love you, Shawnie."

"I know you do and I love you, Aubrey."

I laid there for a few minutes. I could tell Aubrey was falling asleep by the way his grip was loosening around my arm.

"Baby are you awake?" I know he isn't but I need to talk to him about something.

"Yeah, what's up Mami?" He says waking himself up.

"I've been thinking, I think I'm good on therapy. I've been in therapy for years. I don't think there's much more to do with it."

"Are you sure?" He asks

"Yes. I think it's time to apply everything that I've learned over the years to my life. You and I have a pretty stable life and everything is great between us. For once, and I mean for once, everything in my life is going right."

"Baby you know I'll support you in any way possible and if this is what you wanna do then I'm going to support it. But as soon as you feel like you need to go back let me know." Aubrey says

"I will. I do really like Dr. Jones here in Toronto and thank you for introducing me to him, but I think I'm only going to go to one more session."

"That's fine if that's what you wanna do. I'm always going to recommend the best doctors, the best whatever but I recommended my therapist because I knew you would get something out of it. Go to your last session and see how you feel and also talk to him about it and see what he thinks." He says

"Thank you for supporting me with this."

"You know I got you, Mami." He says pulling me closer to him, holding me tightly.

"Now get some sleep, my baby." He sits up and kisses my cheek.

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A few days later was the day of the party. The party was at Aubrey's house. It was simple. It was something that was supposed to be a few close family and friends. Nothing too crazy. We flew in my dad and cousin. I really didn't care about the rest of my family. They are the closest to me. Aubrey's close friends, who are my friends now, and his parents were there too. Chris came, brought his mom, aunt and Diamond with him.

By the way, Diamond and I are cordial. We exchanged numbers a while back. Quickly, here's what went down.

•••••Flashback •••••

Shawnie's POV

Two weeks after Chris broke the news to me that he got Diamond pregnant, I was meeting with her. How the Fuck did I get here. I can definitely say that Chris and I are in a better place, but it's only been two weeks. Like, is too soon to actually tell. He called me and asked me to meet with her. He said he needed to know how to approach the situation. I assumed he meant, if we got along, they were good and if not, they weren't going to be either.

Chris called me, and she and I talked. We agreed to meet in person and we thought it was a better idea that Aubrey and Chris didn't come because they have a past and if things went left with her and I, things between them could pop off as well. We're both pregnant, what are we going to do, fight? Exactly. We're not. So we decided to meet at a neighborhood park. Out in the open where everyone could see us.

Honestly, I came with my guard up. This was the woman he was with before me, like right before me. This is another woman that contributed to our break up. This woman was an actual threat to our relationship. Thankfully, Chris never went back to her while we were together. But I know the love Chris and I once shared and I know he left her for a reason.

Aubrey waited while I met with her. He thought it was a set up and refused to let me be by myself. Plus I had my security watching the situation. I wasn't really nervous to meet her because even though she tried to suck my boyfriends dick a couple of times, I knew that I was in a position that she wanted to be in at one point and now that that relationship was over, I could've cared less about her, who he was fucking, or how he was fucking them.

"Hello." I say with a smile.

"Hi." She sits down in front of me. "So Chris wants me to meet you. He got me pregnant and he wants me to meet you. I don't know how to link the two."

"Well, he said he wanted to know how to approach the situation. I honestly can't link it to either but I guess he just wants us to get along since our kids are gonna be siblings." I say

"Even though I was with him before you, I feel like he wants me to go through you."

"I don't know why—."

"Because you were the wife. You guys didn't actually get married but you got further than any of us. Bitch I'm just a baby mama." She laughs which makes me laugh too.

"Shit, I am too. I ain't nobody special. I'm married to someone else." I say

"Yeah but he put you up on a pedestal and I can't be mad at that. He was with you for a few years and at first I was bitter because he left me and kicked me out to be with you and I tried to break you guys up a couple of times but after the last encounter him and I had, when he ran out on me, I just said fuck it. I'm not gonna keep chasing after him, I look crazy."

"How did you guys get back in touch this time around?"

"He called me. We talked, and you know how he is, and I got pregnant."

"So now we're here. I'm married and you're seeing him, I guess. We don't have to be the best of friends but you seem cool. Honestly I don't have anything against you because that was in the past and we're not together anymore so I could care less about that."

"Same here. We're not together But I guess we're trying to figure it out. Honestly I'm not worried about that I'm only worried about my baby." she says

"That's good. You know just as well as I know, you can definitely get wrapped up in the whole Chris Brown world and in his emotions and everything that goes along with him. I definitely think you should focus on you and your child. To this day I love him to death but he is a ball of toxicity and him and I just don't mix. He has his issues. I had my issues and both of us were horrible together. It was great at first and I apologize that, you know, he did what he did to you. I want you to know that I had absolutely no idea about you or anyone else that he was dealing with before me, or when we first started talking."

"I know you didn't."

"I wish we could've worked things out but let's be honest, if I really wanted to work things out we would've worked them out. I always had my hand on a door knob ready to leave. After I had my daughter, I just decided I did not want it anymore."

"Yeah, and I understand that. I pretty much did the same thing. Going back and forth with him was our issues too. I was living with him and he Discarded me like I was trash. As I said, my issue wasn't with you, it was with him. Even to this day, I still have nothing against you. My issue has solely been with him. Because he knows what he did to me. He literally threw me out. When you came to visit him the first time, my shit was still in his house. He had his friends keep me away because you were there. And once you left they brought my things to my moms house and left it at the door." She explains

"I'm so sorry that happened. I had no idea. If I would've known anything about it number one, I wouldn't have been involved with him at all and I would've said something."

"It's not your place. I appreciate that but he should've had a lot more respect for me than he did. Christopher is all over the place sometimes and now that we're back in touch, I'm trying to get him to see."

"I tried that, good luck. I tried for years and I broke through a couple of times but he just reverted back to who he was. He is a whole lot better now and he's slowly but surely starting to see that he needs to make changes for himself and not for other people. And I've been working on that as well. Aubrey has really helped me see that I cannot go with what everyone wants me to do. In Chris's case he can't always want it just because of who he's with at the time. That doesn't help him. That hurts him. And he is starting to see that so I really do. I hope he gets better and obviously he's the father of my child. I wish nothing but the best for him."

"Yes, I see he's so much better now, you really did a good job." She says

We both laugh

"Well this is nice. I'm happy I talked to you, but I have to get back to Aubrey before he has a heart attack. He gets anxious when I'm not around him." She says

She laughs, "That's cute."

We exchange numbers and then we go our separate ways.

•••••End of Flashback•••••

So you can say the party was intimate and it was only close family and friends invited. Chris showed up and everything was somewhat okay. He seemed a little standoffish but his energy was overall good. It wasn't negative but it wasn't super exciting either. His mood did change when he saw Genesis.

The party went very well, there were no issues, everything went as planned and everyone was in a good mood. Aubrey got to show off his museum a.k.a. his house, rubbing everyone's face into the singing toilet, marble floors, his $20,000 stove, the wayne scott walls, and his Bösendorfer 380VC Grand piano that cost him almost $560,000. He's proud of this house and he loves showing it off.

The color scheme for the party was black, rose gold, and Champagne, with Barbie decorations.

Lots of food, desserts, and drinks. We can't forget about the cake Chris needed so badly. Even though when the cake was cut it mysteriously was strawberry with strawberry filling. Come to find out, Chris contacted the bakery last minute and had them change it. So all the arguing was for no reason.

I got to speak to my father. Which was a little weird because I haven't spoken to him since we left Chicago two months ago. I'm actually very surprised that he made the trip. From my understanding, he and Aubrey had a talk and Aubrey tells me everything is fine between them. My dad says the same thing, so I can only assume everything is good. Him and I still need to have a talk but I know that will happen eventually.

I haven't really spoken to Chris's mom and we were able to have a pretty good conversation about everything that went on and why she decided to stay out of it mine and Chris' feud. She told me she was hurt because I was like a daughter to her and she thought that I would at least have a conversation with her before I made any drastic decisions like I did and I felt bad because I did see her as a mother figure for me as well. We finished the conversation knowing that we still love each other and overall it was a really good conversation. So we promised that we would still talk and just try to make more of an effort to be in each other's lives in a respectful way because my daughter is her grandchild and we have to have a relationship.

It's so crazy because Aubrey and Chris's mom we're really getting along and I low-key think Chris was hating it. It was funny to me. Chris and Aubrey were very cordial, as they said they would be. I have no complaints about how everything went down at the party between them. It makes me feel like there is going to be a time we will be able to come together and they're not be any fights. I'm very hopeful for the future.

My Dad pulled Chris aside and they were talking as well. I don't know what their relationship is now, I haven't asked, but it seemed like things were a little emotional between them. Not like they were crying or anything but like there was a lot of emotion in whatever they were talking about. I'm not gonna ask because that's their business. I had a problem with it before but after talking to Chris's mom I realized that my dad does need to have a relationship with Chris outside of me because his daughter is my father's granddaughter and they have to communicate as well. So I let that go.