Chris' POV

I tried having sex with her, but she was not going. I gave her head, she came, and she literally pushed me away from her. I was a little shocked, but then again I wasn't because I know she gets like this sometimes. I know she's trying to avoid getting emotionally involved, but damn she ain't gotta do me like this.

"I hate when you act like this. You act like a nigga. You cum and then you're not interested anymore. You can't do that shit to me." I snap

She laughs. "Christopher! You knew I wasn't about to have sex with you."

"But you don't have to be a dick about it. Damn." I say

"You know if we have sex, feelings and all that bullshit gets involved and I can't just have meaningless sex with you. Your feelings are going to get involved and then it's gonna turn into a whole thing." She says

"Uh yeah. I just can't fuck you and leave you." I say

"Exactly."

"You think I can give you head and be whatever about it?" I ask

"Yeah."

"Hell naw I can't, I love that shit." I say, laughing.

"So what do you propose? Because I just won't let it happen again."

"I propose you get your ass over here and suck my dick or something."

"Don't talk to me like that."

I look at her like she's crazy. "Says the motherfucker that just got some head, and kicked me off of her."

She laughs, takes a hit then gives it to me. She pulls my pants all the way off, then my boxers.

"And ima mess up your hair too." I say

She took me in her hand, then she stopped.

"Ima suck your dick, but I just have to say something. I hope this doesn't offend you."

I laugh because I'm probably about to be offended.

"I don't wanna care about anyone right now other than the kids. I don't want to have sex with you because it's going to turning to feelings. Deep feelings. You know how we are. Once we get going, and once we get on the same page, there is no stopping us. I'm trying to minimize contact but as you can see that didn't work out so well. I just don't want to cater to anyone's feelings but my own right now. I wanna be selfish. I want to have sex, but I don't wanna have sex with anyone that's going to pull me in. I just don't want to deal with feelings right now. I got enough shit going on and sometimes I just want to be fucked and left alone."

"So you rather fuck random people than fuck somebody that you love?" I ask

"No, I'm simply saying I don't want to get attached because I have feelings for the person that I am having sex with. I never said I want to have sex with random people. I just said I don't want to do it with feelings involved. You and I are not capable of having sex and it being just that. Aubrey is not capable of having sex and it being just that. I just don't wanna go there right now."

"I get you. And I'm sorry that we can't have that agreement because I love you too much. You were my fiancé. Of course there's gonna be feelings between us and raw emotions that we just can't get away from. I can do that with random bitches too, but when it comes to you... you're still my heart. We haven't been together in over two years, and I still feel as deeply in love with you as I did then." I say

"See, let me just suck your dick so you can stop talking. I don't wanna have this conversation. And I'm sorry, but if you keep talking like this, I'm going to leave. I don't mean to be harsh, but I don't have the mental capacity to process that. It's too much."

"My bad." I smile, trying to hide my emotions. I literally feel my feeling rushing back.

"I'm trying to avoid a breakdown and hearing you say shit like that it's just gonna send me over the edge."

"Aight."

She starts giving me head.

***********

Shawnie's POV

Later that night, myself, Chris, Mercedes, Dori, Joe, and the twins all went to Sapphire. We had two sections, one for us and the other for Odell and his crew. The night was very chill. Everyone was getting along and everyone was enjoying themselves, even Joe. He had a drink next to him and he looked as if he was actually having fun and not working. He had his eye on me though. I really haven't seen Joe and Chris interact with each other, unless I'm just trippin. I don't even think they have talked at all.

I was holding a conversation with Odell. I've been trying to keep everything lite, not getting too close or flirting too much with him. He wasn't catching the hint though. I was trying to keep it friendly. Chris was here, and if Chris saw anything like us flirting it probably would hurt his feelings and I didn't want to do that. I was trying my hardest to keep some distance between us but Chris stepped away and that gave Odell an opening to really talk to me.

Putting his hand on my waist and talking in my ear. "It's a little awkward with your ex being here."

"Kinda, but he's cool." I say

"So he wouldn't mind if I kissed you?"

"Kissed me? Odell?" I look at him like he's crazy. Now all of a sudden he wants to kiss me. He's pushing this too much.

"What?" He smiles. "Would he?"

"I think he would, but I don't want to try it. You don't want those problems."

He laughs and waves me off. "I'll fling his lil ass. Do you see me? I ain't been nowhere but in the gym."

I step back and look at him. "You have gotten a lot bigger."

"Solid." He says flexing.

I laugh. "But I don't want a repeat of him and Aubrey."

"I'll chill tonight, but when can we hang out? Just us."

"I don't know." I say

"I'm leaving tomorrow."

"We can try to hang out before you leave. I'm leaving tomorrow too." I say

"Aight." He takes a seat and I sit down next to him. Girls were everywhere but he was only interested in talking to me at the time.

One of the girls walks over and starts dancing on me. Odell smiles.

"Uh huh...you like girls?" He asks

I look at him and put my finger up to my mouth. "Shhh.." I say with a smile.

He smiles back at me.

Keep this shit friendly. This is NOT somebody you're gonna get with. Y'all are FRIENDS. I tell myself.

"Question, your girl and I were pregnant at the same time, what happened?" I ask, sipping my drink and enjoying my dance.

"We decided we were better off as friends. She's cool as hell but she wasn't cool with my lifestyle. She hated me traveling during the season. Women throw themselves at me all the time. She felt it was better to just be friends." He explains

"I feel that." I say

"What about your baby daddy hanging around?"

"He knew I needed some support. He was just checking on me. We're friends before anything."

"That's dope. I hope me and Lolo can have a relationship like that."

"No you don't. It's not all that. It's a sticky situation sometimes." I say

"Sticky how? Y'all still have sex?"

"The answer to the question is it's complicated. It has happened but it's just that we are with two different people and they don't accept the friendship part of it and it causes us to have tension sometimes. With us and with them. But when Chris and I are together, it's just cool. Like I said, we're friends."

"So you guys are still messing around." He asks

"I wouldn't say we are, but it's happened before."

"You messing around with him now? Like I said, I don't want to step on nobody's toes."

"You're not, but I'm in a complicated situation. I'm in the process of a divorce, you pop up, Chris popped up...it's a little crazy right now."

"I get that. I just want to ease your mind for what time I can." He gets closer to me and I realize he's trying to kiss me but I stop him.

"Do you want to die?" I ask, looking around making sure no one saw him. "Even though I'm not with Chris, if he sees you, he will kill you. It's cameras and shit around. Don't do that."

He chuckles.

"I like you Odell, but you know why this can't go anywhere right?"

He chuckles again, "Yeah, I know. But hear me out...he knew I had a lil thing for you."

"What do you mean?" I ask confused.

"Exactly what I said. He knew I liked you."

"When?" I ask

"When y'all met."

"What?" I say in disbelief. He liked me back then? This is a lie. That man didn't know me. I was a nobody.

"Yeah, you were dating Chris at the time."

"So wait, let me get this straight, you knew who I was back when I was dating Chris?"

He laughs, because he knows why I'm asking. He actually knew who I was. That's crazy to me.

"Yeah, I knew. You were all over with Chris. I thought you were cute but I never thought about trying to get with you. We were talking about you one day because he said he ran into you at some restaurant. I told him I thought you were hot, and that if that fell through, I was going to shoot my shot. He said the same and told me he tried to get your number. I told him not to bother with trying to talk to you. That was my way of telling him to back off, but he didn't listen. After we had that conversation, I told him to back off but months later I found out that he had set up a meeting with you. I was a little hot about it, but I didn't say anything. I just let it be."

"So you're saying that he knew you liked me and he was still trying to talk to me?" I ask

"That's exactly what I'm saying." He says

"Damn, that's messed up."

"Yeah, it is but like I said, I let it go. But I kinda feel like this is what he gets because now look at him. I'm not trying to be on no revenge bullshit because I understand it can look like that. I'm not even that type of person. I know you don't know that but I would like to get to know you and be your friend. That's all I'm wanting."

"Right now." I say

"Nah, it's whatever. You know I think you sexy as hell and I wouldn't mind spending time with you as a friend or whatever you think you might need."

"Okay... that's a lot of information to take in. I knew nothing about this. He's never even mentioned it the first time he introduced us. That was really the first time he ever said anything about you. That's crazy."

"I'm sure he didn't say anything about me. I want to be clear, I'm not trying to discourage you from trying to make things better with him if that's what you want. I'm simply letting you know I'm interested, but if all you want to be is friends, I'm okay with that too." He says. "I promise I am."

"I'll take all of that into consideration. You do understand how awkward this is for me, right?"

"I do, and I know us seeing each other this weekend is a risk in itself, but you have been doing a very good job keeping things friendly between us. I think it's very big of you. You can easily do what you told me you were going to do but you're not and I think that's cool." He says

"It's very hard not to take you up on that offer but I'm just not there yet. He has really done me wrong. Maybe one day after I'm over it I'll tell you all about it but I'll just say I feel like I have every reason to hurt him as much as he hurt me."

He was about to say something else, then my phone went off. I got a text from Chris telling me to come back to one of the private rooms. So that's where he's been.

"Chris wants me. I'll be back. We can finish this conversation later."

"Oh...okay..." He smiles, but I see the disappointment on his face. "Aight. I'll be here." He smiles again.

I smile back at him as a raise to my feet and let everyone know I will be back.

To be honest, Odell does seem like he's different, but I'm just not trying to go there with him. I'm going to keep things friendly between us and that's as far as our relationship is going to go. The situation between him and Aubrey is kind of eye-opening though. He told Aubrey that he liked me and Aubrey went after me anyway. That's kind of snake-ish if you ask me. I can only imagine how hurt Odell was. Not because he liked me, but because his friend would actually do something like that to him. That's wrong.

I eventually found my way to the room. Chris told me to meet him in room number four. I walk in and the first thing I see is this woman on the pole. She had light skin, and long black hair. I couldn't really see too much of her face because it was kind of dark, but I could see that she had nice full breasts, thick thighs and a nice ass.

Chris was sitting on the sofa, kinda leaned over to the side looking up at her, watching her dance. He was locked in.

I stood there, closing the door silently watching her. It took him a minute before he finally tore his eyes away to see I was standing there, and he signaled me to come over and sit next to him.

"So? Was I right?" He asks

I look her up and down, watching her dance, "Yes."

We both fall quiet as we watch her dance around her pole.

"You've been missing for a while." I finally speak up.

He takes a sip of his drink. "Had to get my own private time in." He responds as I take his half full whiskey glass, and take a sip.

I fall silent again, continuing to watch her dance. Still, not an item of clothing stripped. I don't say anything, I continue to watch her dance. I see her look at him then Chris nods his head in my direction and she walks over to me.

"I've been waiting to get you two in a room." She says. "Chris and Shawnie Brown." She smiles softly, her gorgeous face coming in view. She's cute.

I look at Chris and he smiles.

"My last name is Graham." I correct her.

"For now..." Chris says with a smirk.

I roll my eyes. "Shut up."

"Yeah, I heard y'all are getting divorced. I can't say I'm shocked though. He's always in here acting a fool." She reveals.

"I believe that. He loves the strip club." I respond, not really wanting to talk about him.

"Why haven't I ever seen you here with him?" She asks

"He simply doesn't ask me to come with him." I say

I see Chris shaking his head out the corner of my eye.

"Oh...maybe that's a good thing." She responds

"He doesn't know what he's missing." Chris says

"I like that you and Chris still hang out like this." She says

"Yeah, he's cool." I look over at Chris's and he's on his phone, not paying attention to us anymore.

"What's your name?" I ask, as she starts dancing on me.

"My name is Chanel." She answers, her voice soft in my ear as her hips grinding against me.

"I have to say, Chanel..." I trail off, eyeing her, hands roaming the sensual curves on her body. "You're sexy as hell."

"So are you." She returns the compliment.

"You like her?" Chris asks

"Yeah." I say

He reaches over to the other side of him and picks up a brick of money. He hands it to her and she takes it.

"I'm at the Cosmo. The key will be downstairs." He says. "Give me an hour." He tells her.

"Okay." She says, before her eyes drop back down to me. "See you later."

Once she's gone, I turn my attention to Chris.

"It looks like you do this often." I say

"I see her sometimes when I'm in town." He responds.

"How many times have you had sex with her?" I ask bluntly.

"I haven't. She's sucked my dick a few times but that's about it. We're not involved." He answers.

"So this isn't something I should be worried about." I say

"Why would you be worried?" He questions, brows furrowed, before a smile plays at his lips. "Jealous?" He laughs.

I laugh. "What I mean is this isn't something that was happening before me."

"Nah. I've been saving her for a special occasion like this." He stands up. "Let's go have another drink, then go back to my room."

I get up and he slaps my ass.

I was trying not to have sex with Chris but fuck it. It's happening.

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