Shawnie's POV  

When I woke up the next morning, it was still dark in the room and the TV was off. The sun hadn't risen yet but it was close to. It was still dark in the den but I could see. I looked around and was about to reach for my phone to go into the bedroom, but I felt someone's hand on my thigh.

I looked down and saw my feet were up on someone's lap. I felt the hand and felt a pinky ring. I looked at the person and I realized it was Aubrey.

"Aubrey?"

He starts rubbing my thigh. "Yeah?"

"What are you doing here?" I sit up on the sofa and turn on the light. He starts stretching, waking up. He was asleep sitting upright on the sofa with my feet in his lap.

He looks over at me. "Did you think I was going to let you just be in LA after last night?"

"But you were in Atlanta when I talked to you."

"And now I'm here. I moved a few things around and canceled a meeting, so I can be here with you for a few days."

"Baby... you didn't have to do that." I say

He takes my hand, "Well I did. Now tell me what happened. For real."

I know what this is. He flew all the way here because he didn't believe me. He wanted to get the truth out of me while looking into my eyes. I can't believe he flew all the way here for this, and on top of that, cancelled some shit.

"I'm waiting." He says, interrupting my thought. "And give me your phone."

I give him my phone off of the table and I straddle him. I wanted him to see me clearly and I wanted to see him. He was very bothered by what happened and it was all over his face. I understand though, I would be too.

"He called me, asking me to come over. I thought something was wrong with Gen, so I went. He wanted to talk. Long story short, he told me that he basically still has feelings for me. He said he is jealous of our relationship and he wants the me that you get. He feels I'm a different person then I was when he and I were together, and that he wants to experience that person."

"What else?" He says

"He asked me a bunch of different questions and one of them was if I was in love with you and I told him yes. He said if it was between you and him again, would the outcome be the same."

"And what did you say?" He asks

"I told him yes. I told him I married you for a reason and that I wanted to be with you. Then he said if I hadn't married you would it still be you, and I said yes."

"Are you sure, because I'm not feeling it. Why the fuck would you go to your ex-boyfriend's house in the middle of the night?"

"I don't know. It was a stupid decision, baby. I don't know why I did it. But I do have to tell you...he kissed me again."

"And you kissed him back, didn't you?"

"Yes."

He put his head down. He was so hurt. He paused for a few seconds. You could see he was fighting with himself.

"Did you have sex with him?" He asks

It hurt him to ask that question. He was so hurt and his mind was all over the place. I feel so bad and I don't think I've ever seen him this distraught.

"No. I wouldn't do that to you. I was only there for like minutes. I know you're feeling insecure but you're the only man I want."

"Yeah, right. I don't think I'll ever be okay with this. I love you so much and I just want to make you happy. I'll do anything to make you happy. I'm doing everything that I can but it seems like it's not enough. I can't get you away from him. I try and I try but nothing seems to work. I moved you to another country and he still found a way to get close to you. I feel like I'm losing you. This is a losing situation for me. I can't—I can't keep doing this to myself."

I watched as he rambled on and on. This was new for him. He's always expressed his insecurities to me, and he's always open about how much he hates my relationship with Chris, but he's never done it this way. He's unraveling. I can see he's been trying to hold it together but he's losing his composure. He's on the verge of crying right now and this is a lot to witness. It's breaking my heart. 

"Hey..." I grab his face and cup it with both of my hands, "Aubrey look at me."

He does.

"You're not losing me. You flew here to see my eyes. Look me in my eyes and tell me I'm lying to you right now."

"Baby—."

"You know I'm not lying to you right now. I need you to snap out of it. Stop it. You know it's me and you. You know that I would not go there with him."

"I know."

"So stop second guessing what I'm telling you. You know the truth."

He nods his head.

"Aubrey... I wish you could see how much you mean to me. I know the situation has always been a sticky one, but it's always been you. You knew that from when you brought your ass into my office that day."

He smiles, then he starts going through my phone.

I watched as he went through my text messages and read every last text message between Chris and I from the last two days. Nothing was inappropriate, even the text conversation we had last night.

"See." I say, "I love him but only because love doesn't just fade away in a couple of days. I will always pick you over him."

He throws my phone on the other side of the sofa. "Take these off." He pulls at my shorts.

"No. Dori is here and so is Christina and Lexi. They can walk in at any minute and see us." I say

"I don't care. I'm about to get you pregnant." He unbuttons my shorts.

I stand up and pull my shorts down, as he takes his off. He pulls his dick out and starts stroking it. I get on my knees, and he holds my hair back into a ponytail, as I suck him off.

"I love when you suck my Dick." He moans quietly.

He drops his head on the back of the sofa. I know I fucked up and I know it may take a bit to earn back the trust I lost but I'm willing to do it. If this is what he wants, he's going to get it and whatever else he needs.

After a few minutes, he picks my head up and pulls me on his lap. I sit down on it and he starts moaning right away.

"Fuck, you feel so good." He says grabbing and smacking my ass, as I ride him.

He wasn't trying to be quiet at all. He didn't care that we had staff here that would catch us.

He looked me in my eyes as his hand ventures up to my neck but I remove it and put it back on my ass. "I'm the only one that can have you. Do you understand me?"

"Yes." I say

"Only me." He pushed himself in me as far as he could go. Made me moan loudly, I couldn't control it. I'm sure I woke up some people.

"Only you, Papi." I say, staring into his eyes.

He smiles and he lays his head back again. "Say that shit again." He held on to me tighter.

"Only my husband can have me." I grab his throat and squeeze it. He smiled and wrapped his arms around me like he was holding on for dear life. Then we made out the rest of the time, until I reached my climax.

When I came down off of my high, he threw me on the sofa. Forced my head down into the couch and held it there. He forcefully entered me, grabbing my hips tightly. His nails dug into my skin as he thrusted into me roughly.

I couldn't keep up. I tried to sit up and tell him to slow down and stop but he didn't listen to me. All he did was push my head back onto the sofa, as he pounded me out. He pulled my hair and smacked my ass, and he did so much that it probably was going to bruise. I was in pain. He told me he wouldn't do this again.

He came inside of me again then pulled out. He sat on the sofa and watched as I slowly got up. I was sore and I was fuming. I couldn't even look at him.

I slapped him and he just sat there breathing heavily staring at me. He knew what he did. Now this was going to change things. Not his insecurities or his gambling habit. It wasn't women that I didn't know anything about, it was his mean steak. The borderline sexual abuse. I didn't like it and he knew how I felt about it but he decided to do it anyway. To punish me. Because I hurt him.

Chris's POV

I was chilling at home with my boy Trey. We were playing PS5 and smoking. I haven't been doing much lately but minding my own business. I've been trying to take care of business, record my album, keep my baby mamas happy, and stay out of trouble. I've been laying low, by staying home and recording. I'm really trying to push this album out so I've been working like crazy.

Trey had been going through some shit with his girl so he's been coming over every now and then, or staying over to get away. He hasn't been over here for a couple of days. He popped over a couple hours ago, not jr didn't get to see Shawnie while she was over. Things would've went smoother if he was though.

"When did you go get Gen?" Trey asks

"I didn't. She got here the other day."

"If my goddaughter is here, that must mean Shawnie is here too." He says

"Yeah, She brought her."

"Word? Where is she at?" He asks

"I don't know, probably at home. She said she might stay for a few days."

"Are yall good?" He asks, hitting his blunt.

"We're good. She was over here earlier. We had a good lil convo." I say smiling.

"You tryna get her back?" He asks

"I'm not but if it happens, then it happens. That's my baby. She's always going to be my girl. We gonna be good regardless."

"That's true. I hope she's good though because I haven't talked to her in a long ass time." He says

"I'm sure you'll catch her sooner or later. She'll be over, you'll get a chance to see her." I say, then I look over so him. "I kissed her..."

"When she was here?"

"Yeah, she kissed me back. She freaked out a little and left but she ain't mad."

He just shakes his head. "I still can't believe she actually married that nigga."

"Yeah, well, there's nothing I can do about that. Only thing I can do is try to stay out of their shit. He don't want me nowhere near her. I've been trying to stay out of the way, especially when I go up north to his house. I pick up my daughter and I go back to the hotel. I barely even see them when I pick her up."

"That's all you can do. Genesis is the only reason you're around and he needs to get that through his head." He says

"I think he does and we don't really talk that much but we're cordial. That's all they can get out of me. I'm not hanging out with him, I'm not trying to do that. Only thing I'm trying to do is see my daughter and I don't want any drama with them. Because of shit goes bad, it'll be bad."

"That's good. Because we don't need to backtrack." He says

"We're going to see where mine and Shawnie's relationship really is. If she stays for a while I will get to talk a little bit more and see where things are. But I think we're good. That's my friend." I smile

"I'm happy to hear that. I love y'all. Together or separate. As long as y'all can come together for Gen, that's all I'm worried about. The same goes for her and Drake if they break up."

"That's something that's never gotten in our way. We are doing a good job still being there for our daughter." I say

"Has the new one met her yet?" He says referring to my new girl.

"Hell Nah. She won't meet Gen or Shawnie for a while. Shawnie thinks Diamond and I are together. I'm just going along with that. She's cool with Diamond and Gen hanging out. I don't want to add to that list and give her a reason to get upset. I want to keep her calm and happy."

"Yeah. Don't get Shawnie mad. She'll do an interview or something." He says and I burst out laughing.

"She wild for that but I understand why she did it. I'm not mad at that Shit." I say. I start thinking about when we first got together. Those were our best times. I take a hit of my blunt.

"You still here?" He asks

"...Yeah." I shake off those thoughts. "I was stupid with how I treated her. I was trying but I was just stupid. We always had an understanding. We both just wanted to be loved, and we wanted to love."

"That's actually kinda sad. I'm sad now." Trey says, and I laugh a little.

"I understand why she does a lot of things...she should've left me." I confess

"That's good to hear you say because you were on a rampage about to kill anyone in your path. It showed your maturity and how clear your thinking is now. I'm proud of you." Trey says

"Man, shut up...but thank you." I say

Don't let this man get me into my feelings.

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