Shawnie's POV

The next day, I met with my friend, Ashley Reed, at a low key restaurant in Chula Vista. There were absolutely no paparazzi there so everything was perfect. I was so nervous to even have this conversation because I was scared it would get out. The media already had people thinking we were having problems when we weren't and now that we actually are, I don't want that information to get out and make things harder on the both of us.

The conversation with Ashley was very enlightening. After we caught up and had a few drinks we got down to business. The first thing she wanted to know was can I prove that the marriage was legal, because if it wasn't, I could have it annulled. That was the easiest way out. But the marriage was very legal and state documents proved that.

So after the whole annulment conversation was had, we moved on to legally filing for divorce if I wanted to. We went over the process and the steps I have to take to file. Of course I didn't wanna file right away, I just wanted to get all of the information I could on this. I didn't want anything from him. I didn't want any of his money, I just wanted a clean break. When I take this step I needed it to be quick as possible and easy.

She was really trying to talk me into going for half of everything because we don't have a prenuptial agreement, therefore I'm entitled to everything. Aubrey really wanted to prove to the world that he was serious about me and that he really loved me. That's why we didn't have a prenup. I wasn't with him for his money. I didn't care about that or any of this celebrity bullshit. I know how much my husband is worth, close to $300 million, and I don't want any of it.

She told me everything that she had to do and everything that she needed to file, told me all of the steps and said that she would give me the documents as soon as she had them ready. I made sure she knew not to file, to just give them to me. That was our agreement. Now all I have to do is wait for her to draw up the paperwork.

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That night, when we came in from meeting with my friend, we walked into Aubrey sitting on the sofa in the living room, scaring the shit out of me. Joe moved in front of me quickly. I was shocked to see him here, I kinda froze.

"I'll get rid of this motherfucker." Joe says, walking towards Aubrey.

"What's up!" He slowly stands up. He has a look on his face that I couldn't read. I was confused as hell because I honestly did not know how he found out where I was.

"You gotta go. She doesn't want you here." Joe says

A look of shock forms on his face. "Oh...she doesn't want me here?" He looks at me. "Is that true, Mami?"

I didn't know what to say. I was nervous, scared, and still in shock he found me. I didn't want to just kick him out. He's my husband. That's kind of rude. I should see what he wants.

"Um...well what did you come here for?" I ask, trying to avoid Aubrey's question.

"To talk." He says

Joe and Aubrey look at me.

"Joe, let me talk to him for a minute." I say and Aubrey smiles.

"Aight. Holler if you need me." Joe looked Aubrey up and down one more time before he turned to walk up the stairs.

Aubrey didn't take his eyes off of Joe until Joe closed his door and turned his focus on me. Our eyes locked, and I was stuck. I didn't know what was about to happen, it was always hard to say. I've been here too many times before, stuck, under his gaze.

He didn't say anything as he walked over to me. Once he got in arms length, he grabbed my face and kissed me. I didn't deny him, I instantly kissed him right back. As much as I hate to admit it, I missed him so much and I've missed his touch and his lips and his embrace and just being in his arms. I was torn, because even though all that had happened, I still missed him.

"I missed you." He says, pulling away from me. He looks me in my eyes, "Did you miss me?"

I nod my head yes.

He continues kissing me and without breaking the kiss, he picks me up by my legs and sits me on the kitchen table. He lifts my dress up and tries to take off my panties but I stop him.

"No, we can't do this here. Joe is right upstairs."

"Fuck Joe. I want him to hear, so he knows you're still mine." He roughly pulls my panties down, ripping them when it gets too hard to get completely off.

I get somewhat uncomfortable. I don't know why he always wants to make Joe jealous, but I don't want to upset, or make Joe uncomfortable either.

"But—." I start to protest but he cuts me off.

"You don't need no dick? You been fucking?" He asks me with a straight face and I feel a way about that comment. Does he really think Joe and I are messing around? I'm sure he does. I don't wanna start anything because after the last time I saw him I know it can get bad and I don't wanna upset him again.

I don't say anything out loud, I just begin unbuckling his belt. He just stands there smiling at me, watching as I unbutton and unzip his jeans then pull them down. He was already hard as fuck.

He kisses me softly. "Lay back. I'm doing this right here." He lightly pushes me down on the table.

He pushed my legs back and kissed it.

"I've been craving this." He says.

As soon as his tongue touched my pussy I started moaning. It's been so long since I had any type of sexual contact. I've been craving it as well, but you won't hear me say that to him. I figured I might as well have sex with my husband, than with anyone else. I'm sure Chris would love to help me out but that's a no. At least for right now.

I was loud and I was really trying to be quiet. I knew shit was going to get louder and I was so nervous, I couldn't fully enjoy it.

"Babe," I stop him and he looks up from between my legs. "...please let's just go upstairs. I can't let go because I feel Joe is going to come out of his room. I know he can hear me."

"Fuck that. Just cum for me one time, Mami."

"I can't."

He steps back, pulling me to sit up. "Come on." He says with an attitude.

We walk upstairs and go to my bedroom. That's when shit got real. We fucked the shit out of eachother. When we were done, we laid in bed talking. We were laying on our sides. He had his arms around me, holding me tight from behind. I was actually over the whole thing. I got my dick and I was ready to be by myself now, but he said he came to talk so now we have to talk. I'll give him a couple of minutes to lie to me.

"You been okay?" He asks, kissing my shoulder.

"Yes, I've been feeling very relieved." I say

"From?"

"Everything." I say and he starts rubbing my thighs.

"Even me." He asks

"You're the problem." I say

"Me?"

"Aubrey, you know how you acted. Don't make me relive that." I roll my eyes but it's not like he can see them.

"We just had sex and you're telling me I'm the problem?"

"Just because we had sex doesn't mean anything. I wanted dick and got some."

"I'll fuck you anytime you want it too. I can't say no to you. I know how much you love it." He says cockily. "Why did you leave me like that?" He asks, changing the subject.

"That was the only way I could get away from you." I answer

"You let me take our son, thinking everything was all good and you left the next morning."

"I had to. Why are you acting like we never talked about this?" He didn't say anything.

We were quiet for a few minutes. He was in deep thought, probably trying to get his words, or thoughts together. Trying to figure out how he can manipulate me into coming home. Typical Aubrey.

"I've just been consumed with this. I can't stand losing you like this. I've been trying not to bother you and I've been trying to give you space and time, but after that last conversation, I just couldn't. That whole convo didn't sit tight with me. You hung up on me and it sent me over the edge."

"So you showed up here? How did you even know where I was staying?" I ask

"Shawnie, I told you, I will always find you." He kisses my cheek and turns on his back.

I turn to face him. "Aubrey, you have to stop doing that. I'm not one of your electronic devices. Stop fucking tracking me. That's another problem I have with you. Let me do what I want to do without being followed or tracked. You don't need to know my every move." I snap

"But I do. You know I'm paranoid. I need to make sure you're safe when I'm not around."

"And what are you going to do if I'm not? You're not jumping in front of me to save me from anything, your security will. That's why Joe is here and I'm not by myself. I'm still secured. That excuse is bullshit." Now I'm getting irritated with this whole conversation.

"I don't want to argue with you. We can put this behind us." He says

"Like we alway do? Because nothing ever gets solved." I say

"I know we have real issues but I'm not ready to let go of this."

"Aubrey, you know it's over." I say

"I think if we really work at this we can find us again. It can be over like this." He says

"I believe that too but I've asked for that many times and got nothing. It's too late."

He doesn't say anything for a few seconds. Then he just gets up.

"I'll run some bath water." He walks into the bathroom.

A few seconds later, I hear the water turn on. I lay there thinking about how he's avoiding the hard conversations. He's giving me a little communication, but not all that we need to get through this.

"Come on! Come get in." He yells from the bathroom.

I get out of bed and I walk into the bathroom. He saw me and held his arms out to me. I reluctantly walked over and let him embrace me.

"Please, let's not fight." He kisses me on my forehead. "I love you. I just want to try and talk it out. Can we do that?"

I nod my head yes.

"Okay." He helps me into the tub. He gets in as well, and sits behind me. He wraps his arms around me and I get that safe feeling that I used to love but I'm kind of fighting with myself about it because I know being with him is not safe.

"Put my hair up." I say, handing him my hair tie.

He takes it and starts pulling my hair up into a high ponytail. As he was pulling it up I kept hearing him sniffing.

"Are you smelling my hair again?" I ask, rolling my eyes. I find this so funny, and creepy at the same time.

He chuckles, "I missed it."

"You're so weird." I laugh

We both were silent for a couple minutes and then he broke the silence by kissing me on the cheek.

"I know I've said this before but I'm sorry for everything. You know I've been going to therapy and trying to work through my own issues, my family issues and especially with the loss of our first baby and now the second. I'm sorry that I have taken it out on you. You don't deserve that."

"Thank you for that. Your apology really does mean a lot to me but your actions don't show that you're sorry. I say that because you continuously do things to hurt me and to be quite honest with you, I'm tired of it. I don't mean to sound like a bitch or anything but it really is too late. I haven't made up my mind or anything about wanting a divorce but I will be 100% transparent with you, I'm seriously considering it."

He takes a deep breath and lets it out. "I can't be mad if that's the decision that you wanna make but I don't stand behind that. Not at all. I think we should try to stick it out and work through our issues. I'm not going without a fight. And I'm not signing anything." He says

"I understand if you feel that way. If you would've done what you said you were gonna do from the beginning, we wouldn't be in the situation. All I want is the Aubrey that I had in the beginning. That man gave a fuck about me and would do anything for me. You would literally drop everything for me if I needed you. You were open, you were transparent, and you put me before everything. You've changed. I've asked multiple times for you to at least try to meet me halfway and you haven't. If I get to that point of filing for divorce I understand you don't want to sign the papers but I will be forced to do what I have to do to make that happen. To get away from you."

"Wow." He says in disbelief.

"I know you're gonna fight me but I am completely prepared to fight. I will make a fool out of you. I will sell stories, I will start rumors, I will do anything I have to do to make you sign."

"You'd go that far?" He asks

"Yes." I say

"I will sue you. You signed an NDA." He kisses my neck, and starts rubbing on my breasts.

"I've looked over all the documents. I can get around that. But you can sue, I'll just pay you with your own money. All of that is pointless. I don't want anything from you. I just want out." I say

"No." He says

I turn around to face him. "Well then that's how this is going to be. You're going to pay attorney fees, court costs and settlements. All out of your pocket. This is stupid."

"I don't care. I will fight to keep you." He kisses my lips.

This is weird. How are we having such a serious conversation about divorce and it seems like it's not even phasing him.

"You know I don't need you to sign for me to divorce you right?"

"Shawnie, stop this. All I want us to do is work this out and get through this. I don't want a divorce. I want us to be together. When we got married we said we would be together forever, for better or worse, until we're ghost."

"But I don't want to work this out. Not anymore. I take marriage seriously and I've given you time after time to fix it and you didn't. I'm tired."

"I only want our son to grow up with both parents in the home." He says

"I did too and I was forcing myself to make that happen, but I am unhappy. You don't make me happy, Aubrey. You did at one point but you stopped. You let your jealousy, and your pride get in the way. And don't get me started on the physical toll this has taken on me."

"You're right. But I know what we need to do to make this work."

"No. I'm done. Just sign the divorce documents if I present them to you."

"No."

"Okay. Aubrey, don't act like this please."

"You're mine and only mine. I'm not letting you go be with someone else because you think we're done." He says, straight face, showing absolutely no emotion.

"Aubrey—."

He cuts me off. "No. I will make sure everyone knows your mine and only mine. You're forever mine. You don't want to play that game with me. I'm worse than Chris could ever be. You're my wife."

"I don't want to play any games with you, but I do know you'll do anything to make and keep me happy."

"I will."

"So make me happy and give me this. You know I'm forever yours." I say

"You're right." He grabs my throat, lightly. "Climb on."

"Climb on?"

"Yeah. Are you making me sign the papers this second?" He asks

"No." I say

"Okay then. Fuck me now, hate me tomorrow." He smiles.

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