Chapter 31: chaotic skies

WARNING: R-18

A/N: smut? Yes.

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Malakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko habang hawak niya ang kamay ko. Cooler led me into the apartment, and every step we took made my chest pound even harder. Malakas pa rin ang buhos ng ulan, at dahil wala nang kuryente, the whole place was enveloped in darkness. Cooler dragged me in the dark with a firm grip on my waist.

Alam kong galit siya. I know he's hurt. And it's all my fault. Yet here I am, dizzy with the emotions swirling inside me since earlier. The lightning bolts from the sky somewhat helped us not to trip on anything.

What did I put myself into? Bakit ko siya niyaya papasok? Bakit ko siya hinalikan? I know I led him into this situation, and I can't take it back.

Tahimik si Cooler, but the closeness of our wet bodies and the relentless rain was not helping at all. Hindi ko alam paano ko naipasok ang susi sa keyhole, considering how much I was shaking-hindi lang dahil nabasa kami ng ulan, but also for other reasons. Pagpihit ko pa lang ng pinto ay maingat na akong naitulak ni Cooler. I just found myself pinned against the door, slamming it shut once we got inside.

I tried to catch my breath, but I had no time. Cooler closed the small space between us in an instant. His hips pressed into mine as he ducked to kiss me. His kiss was punishing, his hands tightening around my face as if he wanted to make sure I couldn't pull away.

He was hurt, I know. And I caused his pain. I closed my eyes, letting myself feel the intensity of his kiss. A tear rolled down my cheek. His teeth sank into my lips before he ran his tongue over them to soothe the sting. Ilang saglit pa, bumagal ang kanyang mga halik, but they were still hungry, as if begging for more.

He stopped kissing me, but his forehead stayed pressed against mine as we both struggled to catch our breath.

"S-sorry," mahinang bulong ko.

His hand gripped my shoulder tightly. "What are you sorry for?"

I sniffled, "I'm sorry, I lied to you."

He hummed, resting his forehead on my shoulder. "I lied too."

Tumaas ang isang kamay ko at hinawakan ang buhok niya. "Nasaktan kita."

"No biggie, I'm used to it," he whispered softly.

That made it worse. It hurt even more. I shouldn't be the one causing him pain, especially when he's already been through so much.

Naramdaman kong mas isiniksik niya ang mukha niya sa leeg ko. I shivered as I felt his hot breath on my skin. Dahil sa ginagawa niya, mas lalo akong nahihirapang huminga. He started feeling the skin of my neck, slowly working his way up to my ear. I shuddered at the contact, and before I knew it, a soft moan escaped my lips.

He pressed his body more against mine, and I clung to him as if my life depended on it.

"Okay lang na magalit ka sa akin dahil sa ginawa ko, Cooler, but believe me when I say I like you for real," wika ko.

He hummed sensually once again before cupping my cheek and placing a gentle kiss on my lips. "I always believe whatever you say. When you say it's true-even if it's a lie-I'll believe you."

I was scared of him, yet there was a part of me that was saying I had just misunderstood him.

Was I gaslighting myself? His calm demeanor when he's angry somewhat flashed as a red flag to me. Galit siya, and I felt like he's holding back his anger, pero pakiramdam ko ay sasabog siya sa galit. Like he's about to blow a fuse, pero hindi sa akin. What if he ruin other lives?

I gaslighted myself, kasalanan ko kung bakit siya nagkakaganyan. It's me-I made him like that.

I tiptoed to kiss him again, feeling his soft, warm lips on mine. Tila iyon lamang ang kanyang hinihintay dahil agad siyang gumanti ng halik, this time with more hunger. His tongue dipped smoothly inside my mouth. My hands tangled in his hair as I whimpered from the emotions surging through me because of the kiss.

He pressed his body closer, and I could feel his warmth even through our damp clothes. Bumaba ang mga kamay ko sa kanyang likod, slipping it inside his shirt to feel his stomach. He flinched slightly at the contact, but he quickly resumed his assault on my lips.

Inilayo niya ang katawan niya saglit, taking a quick peck on my lips before peeling his shirt off. My hand reached out to touch his chest. It was warm and broad, and if I hadn't restrained myself, I might have buried my face in it. Ano kayang pakiramdam na ibaon sa dibdib niya ang mukha? I bet it felt so good.

He resumed kissing me with increasing pressure. Ramdam ko ang pagkalalaki niya sa may puson ko, and honestly, I was scared and thrilled at the same time.

He pulled back once again, this time to help me remove my shirt. My breath came out as a sharp exhale as I watched the fabric slide off my body. I heard a snap, and my bra came off as well. From the faint light of the lightning, I saw him stare at my half-naked body.

Nakagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi at akmang yayakapin ang sarili ngunit mabilis niya akong pinigilan.

"Don't," he warned, so I dropped my hands back down.

I've never been insecure about my body, but right now, I wished it looked pretty for him. My breasts were neither large nor small, but I silently hoped he liked them that way.

He growled under his breath before pulling me toward the bedroom. Kung hindi dahil sa ginawa niya, hindi ko mapapansin na nasa pinto pa rin kami. He opened the bedroom door and kissed me again. He used his foot to close the door, kicking it slightly hard. The slam echoed in the corners of the room, but it was drowned out by the heavy rain and the roar of thunder.

He grabbed me by the waist, his hands fumbling on the waistband of my jeans.

"Tell me you don't want to, and I'll stop," he breathed out in my ear.

Hindi ako sumagot, sa halip ay ibinaon ko lamang ang mukha sa kanyang dibdib. I've been wanting to do it since he peeled off his shirt, and I was right-it felt so good there. His skin smelled so good, a mixture of alcohol and perfume that was intoxicating. It was like my silent reply, so I started roaming my hands on his naked torso, but then he cupped my cheek so I could face him.

"I need your consent," he said while brushing a few wet strands of hair away from my face.

I tried looking away, but he made me face him again. Our naked upper bodies touched, and the feeling of his skin against mine was burning me in a good way.

Dahan-dahan akong tumango. Cooler lifted my face by hooking his finger under my jaw. He kissed me again, his tongue roaming inside my mouth, rolling against my own. I matched his pace, kissing him hard, but once again, he pulled back.

"Verbal consent," he clarified.

Napalunok ako. "I... I want you."

A deep groan rumbled from his chest. It was all he needed before his hand went from my touching my waist to cupping my breast. Napaigtad ako sa init ng kanyang mga palad. I felt him lift me off the ground, so I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist. His hands supported my hips as he walked towards the bed-at least I hoped it was the bed-without breaking the kiss.

My butt landed on something hard, and I realized he wasn't heading for the bed. He sat me down on the dresser and continued kissing me. His lips slowly trailed down to my neck, and out of instinct, I tilted my head to give him more access. My head bumped against something hard, and I realized it was the dresser's mirror.

His hands slid down to my jeans, touching me with them still on. I could feel his breath on my chest, and I wanted more than anything for his lips on my breast. I wrapped my arms around his head, pushing him down.

He was being a tease, kissing me everywhere except where I wanted him to. I ached for him, I wanted him to touch me more, and I moaned when his lips finally found my nipple. When he closed his lips around it, I nearly lost my breath. Mainit ang kanyang bibig sa balat ko. Ibang init na nakakabaliw. Muli akong napahalinghing dahil sa ginagawa niya sa dibdib ko. He started nibbling and sucking, before sliding his tongue over it, swirling it around.

A moan escaped my lips when he did it again, the same time his other hand pinched my other breast. Nakakabaliw ang emosyong dulot niya. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin kaya napasabunot ako sa buhok niya. He suddenly laid his tongue flat on my nipple, running it so slowly and wetly, like a kid carefully licking an ice cream stick or a huge lollipop.

Hindi niya ako binigyan ng pagkakataong makahinga, dahil lumipat siya sa kabilang dibdib, doing exactly what he did to the other. Napaungol ako nang malakas, kaya binalikan niya ang mga labi ko.

This time, his hand slid down to my stomach, massaging the skin below my navel before undoing the button of my jeans. He kissed my jaw as his hands slid down inside. I shuddered at the contact, but it felt so good that I helped him push off my jeans. Tanging ang maliit na saplot na lang ang natira sa katawan ko. He once again stared at me, and from the dim light of the lightning, I could see the desire burning in his eyes.

Hindi ko alam ang gagawin, so I sort of panicked, dahilan upang maglaglagan ang mga gamit ko sa harap ng salamin.

"Cooler..." Nahihiyang bulalas ko.

Napasinghap siya bago ako muling hinalikan. Bumaba ang kamay niya sa binti ko, drawing circles on my skin. Nakakalunod ang emosyong dulot ng mga haplos niya. Napasabunot ako sa buhok niya nang unti-unti siyang bumaba, hanggang sa nakaluhod na siya sa harapan ko.

Napamura ako at sinubukang hilahin siya patayo, pero nauna na niyang hinila pababa ang natitirang saplot sa katawan ko. He kissed my hips, running his tongue in every inch of my skin, na tila ba walang balak na laktawan bawat bahagi ng katawan ko. I moaned harder when his hand slipped inside my thigh, feeling me.

"C-cooler..." Paulit-ulit kong tinatawag ang pangalan niya, alam ko, ngunit nakakalunod ang ginagawa niya sa akin. "P-please..."

He spread my legs gently, licking his lips before running his tongue on my folds. I threw my head back, walang pakialam kahit na mauntog ako sa salamin. Cooler did what he did on my breast at halos takasan na ako ng katinuan. He rested my legs up on his shoulders, before I felt his tongue inside me. I moaned in sensitivity, as his tongue do wonders.

Tumayo siya at inalalayan akong tumayo, pero nanghina ang mga tuhod ko dahil sa ginawa niya. Naramdaman kong binuhat niya ako at inilapag sa kama-only to pull me to the edge, lumuhod sa tabi ng kama at ipagpatuloy ang pagkain sa akin, like I'm a tasty snack. Akala ko tapos na siya, pero bigla kong naramdaman ang daliri niya sa pagkababae ko.

"Cooler!"

He inserted his finger inside me as he continued to eat me out. Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko at napaungol nang malakas dahil sa ginawa niya. When he added another finger, together with his tongue, I lost it.

Nanginig ako dahil sa dulot ng ginawa niya. Habol ang hininga ko nang tumayo siya at tiningnan ako. Napangiti siya bago kalasin ang butones ng kanyang pantalon. Napakagat ako sa labi habang pinapanood ang bawat kilos niya. The sky outside was still in chaos, a good excuse for our quest of warmth.

Una niyang hinubad ang kanyang pantalon, at nang kumidlat ay napalunok ako. I took a glimpse of his bulge under his black underwear, which made me nervous and excited at the same time.

Nang ibinaba niya ang huling saplot, napasinghap ako. This is Cooler Vander, in flesh I didn't expect to see. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin ngunit nagsalita siya.

"Don't look away," he said, crawling towards me. "Don't close your eyes."

Hindi ko alam anong meron sa boses niya at bakit napasunod niya ako. He may be dashing in suits and coats, but he was gorgeous naked.

Binalikan niya ang dibdib ko at halos mabaliw ako sa ginagawa niya. His hands reached for my sensitive folds, touching it sensually and inserting his fingers in an expert way. I moaned in pleasure because of what he did. I can hear my dampness with every thrust of his finger. Kinapa ko ang damdamin ko, kung handa ba ako. Pero napakarami na ng ginawa niya para bawiin ko pa. And I don't think I have control right now dahil wala akong ibang gusto kundi ang angkinin niya.

Habol ang hininga ko nang tumigil siya. Kinuha niya ang pantalon niya at hinanap ang wallet niya. He pulled a silver packet-I'm guessing a condom, to which I'm right. Pinanood ko siya, pilit na inaalis sa isip kung bakit may condom siya sa wallet niya. He bit the packet ngunit natigilan nang makita ako. Kinuha niya ang packet mula sa bibig.

"I always keep one on my wallet," paliwanag niya, na para bang nababasa ang nasa isip ko. "It's sort of a habit, and a belief that it brings good fortune."

Nakahiga lamang ako, bahagya pang nanginginig. He resumed biting the packet hanggang sa mabuksan niya ang pakete. My mind flew into the possibility of him ripping it through his teeth ngunit sanay na sanay siya sa ginagawa so there's no way he can bite it off.

Sino kaya ang nakaimbento ng condom? They come in different flavors and texture, base sa mga naayos kong box ng condom sa counter ng convenience store-speaking of it, nasaan na kaya ang nabili niya noon?

With the condom in his hand, maingat at ekspertong nailagay niya iyon sa sarili. He rolled it down, at habang ginagawa niya iyon ay hindi ko maiwasang mapaisip kung ano ang maaaring mangyari sa akin kapag pinasok niya ang bagay niya sa akin.

What if he rocks me so hard my internal organs disarrange?

Posible ba iyon?

With the condom in his hand, maingat at ekspertong nailagay niya iyon sa sarili. He rolled it down, at habang ginagawa niya iyon ay hindi ko maiwasang mapaisip kung ano ang maaring mangyari sa akin kapag pinasok niya ang bagay niya sa akin.

"Are we good?" Tanong niya. "Mukhang napakarami mong tanong."

Napalunok ako. "Umm..."

He leaned to kiss me on the lips habang inaayos naman niya ang pagkalalaki sa gitna ko. I felt the tip of his thing on me so I began breathing heavily. Tumawa siya at idiniin ang sarili sa akin. "Relax. It won't be as painful as your first time-"

"This is my first time," nahihiyang sabi ko.

Natigil siya sa ginagawa at literal na nanigas. His brows furrowed as he turned to look at my face. Agad niyang inalis ang kanyang bagay at bahagyang lumayo. "What?!"

Bahagya akong bumangon. "Does it matter?"

He sat up beside me, palming his face. "No, h-hindi naman. I'm just confused...and sorry, I've been rough." Huminga siya nang malalim at bumaling sa akin. "Do you still want to do this?"

Tuluyan akong bumangon at hinalikan siya sa labi. He uttered a cuss under his breath before pushing me to lay on my back again. Sinakop niya ang bibig ko at pinagpatuloy ang naudlot na pagpasok sa pagkababae ko. He started by rubbing it up and down, before slowly pushing himself forward.

My eyes fluttered open as I slowly felt him enter me. My body stretched around him, at hindi ko mapigilan ang mahinang ungol sa lalamunan ko. His massive size caused a painful sensation. Bawat galaw niya ay napapaluha ako sa sakit.

From time to time, he would whisper in my ears that it's gonna be okay. He kept the slow and gentle pace, to which seemed like a calm before the storm dahil nang naka-adjust na ang katawan ko, he was rough. He pushed into me so hard that it made me tilt my head back as I saw stars. He started rocking into me, going deeper in every thrust.

When I shivered as I felt something weird inside me, he flipped me onto my stomach and shoved my head into the bed as he kept slamming into me from behind. Sa umpisa ay hindi ko maintindihan ang posisyong iyon, pero bawat pihit niya ay napapaarko ang likod ko. It was such an unbelievably odd position with my face down and ass up. I was getting cozy in such a position when he flipped me again on my side as he continued reaching deeper.

My moans were drowned by the pillow as well as the pelting rain outside. My shouts filled the room, mixed with his heavy panting. Sa tuwing nalalapit na ako, he would find another position, na nakakahiya mang aminin ay nagustuhan ko.

He groaned one more time, until I felt his muscles still, with his veins popping from his neck and shoulders. Napapikit siya, shivering a little bit the same time as I did, before he slowly relaxed letting out a heavy exhale.

He rolled to the side at agad na iniikot ang mga braso sa tiyan ko, gently pulling me for a cuddle.

"I love you so much," mahinang bulong niya, at isang bagay ang tumatakbo sa isipan ko.

I have no regrets.

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