Once Taehyung had lifted Jeongguk's shirt up to kiss over his breast, the piece of clothing was quickly discarded to the floor with little care, soon joined by the boy's short trousers.

With a staggered breath, Jeongguk then sat back over Taehyung's lap, rubbing their erections together as the older's big hands pried beneath his underwear and groped at his ass cheeks.

A hummed breath left Jeongguk's throat, both hands clasping to Taehyung's shoulders as a means to keep his own body stable from his wavering jolts. It seemed that when those familiar, warm hands were on his skin the boy could no longer bring himself to think. No, but rather his headspace would fill up with sheer desire for his hyung, overflow with the need to have him, give himself to him, align souls. Their moments alone became his entire world, and he desperately wished such serenity would never come to an end.

After Taehyung became pleased with the array of kisses he'd placed over the other's heated skin, Jeongguk felt a tap at his butt and somehow knew to pull himself back a little, his body plopping at the edge of Taehyung's thighs. He watched as the man then slipped down his boxers, his large erection springing to life, and Jeongguk's eyes grew wide, nearly salivating at the sight.

"Hm.." The younger's hand rushed up Taehyung's thigh until it reached his erect cock, fingers wrapping over its circumference while he grabbed hold of it gently. "This big little guy's always so happy to see me, isn't he...?"

Taehyung held back a laugh, yet a boxy grin had managed to form on his face in sheer amusement.

"Seems like you're quite the lovable guy, hm?"

Jeongguk quietly giggled, hand making bouncing movements up and down, his thumb lightly brushing Taehyung's flushed tip whenever it reached it. As he did, he felt a wet finger pry against his entrance before pushing inside, stretching it open little by little. A stifled whine left his lips, and Jeongguk gave a small pinch over Taehyung's erection, pressing into it delicately.

The older grumbled out a quiet moan, one that made Jeongguk's brows lift, a jolting feeling sharpening the lining of his stomach.

Because, fuck... What was that?

He was used to Taehyung's deep groans, and V's rumbling grunts by now. But what he'd heard just now sounded... soft. Delicate, almost. A gentle moan brushing his ears.

It was different. And Jeongguk loved it.

He loved how all the alters had distinguishable quirks, that made them each their own person. It made it easy for him to tell them apart among their personality, but who knew it would be equally as prominent in intimate moments like these?

That's right. Taehyung was versatile in bed. He could be quite considerate, and yet he still had his rough moments. V, on the other hand, was always fierce during sex. Entirely dominant, and not quite as lenient.

And then there was Vante.

A flame of curiosity began to sprout inside Jeongguk's chest. Eagerness, that wished to learn more about the alter seated below him. Such emotions made him speed up his movement, his hand rubbing almost frantically.

The older huffed out a pleasured grunt, and then Jeongguk felt a strong grip on his wrist. He lifted his gaze toward Taehyung's handsome face, watched the way he was biting down on his own bottom lip.

"Inside..." He uttered in a whisper, eyes closed, head lifted up a bit to reveal his tanned neck. "I need to be inside you, Ggukie.."

The boy's gaze lingered on him a while, admiring the look on his face. The desperation. The feeling in his stomach began to cause turmoil in the rush of passion he suddenly felt just then. And he wanted to express these feelings somehow—in some way.

He just didn't know how.

"Then what are you waiting for..?" Jeongguk replied in an equally quiet voice, the words hugging the man's lips. "Put your dick inside me, hyung..."

Taehyung's eyes fluttered open, and Jeongguk made a movement to lay himself over the couch. But when his body didn't budge from his spot, he realized that the male's sturdy grip was keeping him in place.

A confused expression took over his face, and Taehyung merely smirked at the sight.

"Why don't we stay like this for now, hm..?" He hummed, then released his hold on the boy and moved to grab his waist instead.

Jeongguk's lips parted slightly, a silenced breath pushing into his lungs. "I d-don't, um..." He paused, finally lowering his eyes in a sheepish attempt to hide his glimmering embarrassment. "I don't have much e-experience in this position.."

Taehyung cooed out a quiet laugh, one hand gliding to rest over the side of Jeongguk's neck, where it remained a moment, his thumb brushing light circles over the sensitive skin.

"Don't worry. I got you, baby bun." The man's husked voice ran shivers through his skin, and Jeongguk quietly gulped down the saliva lingering on his tongue. "Why don't you ride my dick, mm? It's best you learn how to do this sooner, rather than later."

Jeongguk's lips pushed out into a perplexed pout, head flinging slightly to the side. "L-Learn..? What f-for?"

Taehyung gave no response. Instead he carefully guided the younger's body up, hovered it over his erection as he aligned himself to the pink, fluttering hole.

And once the tip of his cock slid in, pushing past the walls that gripped it slowly, both men's heads flung back, hefty exhales huffing from their throats.

"Mmm.." Taehyung's jaw lowered, his gaze settling over the ceiling above him. "Shit.. Are you always this tight..?"

Jeongguk gave a low squeal and quickly reached to stabilize himself by grasping onto Taehyung's shoulders. His tongue darted out, hopeless whining emerging into the air around them, and once Taehyung's full erection had slipped in all the way, his face fell forward, and he clashed their lips together in a desperate attempt to have more of this man.

Taehyung responded by seamlessly kissing him back, the hands that grabbed at Jeongguk's waist now groping the boy's ass cheeks. And Jeongguk's brows knitted at the feeling, his body reacting naturally by beginning to bounce himself over the older's cock. Slowly, at first.

He let his body adjust. Let himself drown in the man's lips in the meantime, his hole full entirely of his hyung.

Just the way he liked it.

"Faster..." Taehyung's low voice ran shivers over the boy's skin, pink at the edges, and Jeongguk gargled out a moan, feeling the man's hands begin to guide his body up and down in a quicker speed. "Faster.. Mmn.. Faster, baby bun."

Jeongguk moved one hand toward Taehyung's chest, where he supported himself, his back arching, ass pushing back to angle himself. He felt the older thrust his hips upward suddenly, without warning, the tip of his cock slamming into a spot over Jeongguk's walls. And a thunderous wave of pleasure crashed down on him all at once, eyes darting back, a stifled high pitched moan squeezing from his throat because, fucking hell, that felt so good.

"A-Ahh, V-Vante, do—... Do that again..." came his trembling moan, and the older merely smirked at him, not quite bothering to comply with his wish.

And Jeongguk, well he was impatient. Right now, his head was full of nothing but the pleasure being rubbed so kindly into him. So his body began to move, seeking that same striking feeling he had just experienced. Pleasure he'd received before, but one that felt just a little foreign when he wasn't laying down on his back, submissively being fucked into.

No—now that he was over Taehyung's lap, bouncing his walls against his cock, scratching friction at every inch of the two, Jeongguk was the one in control.

He was the one in power.

So he was going to put those privileges to use.

Without much more time to waste Jeongguk began to angle himself, picked up his bouncing pace, and was successful in finding his sweet spot promptly. That same sweet spot that had crashed euphoric waves into him at an alarming rate, and it seemed that pushing himself down in a quick jerking movement had rubbed that same pleasure into the other male's responsive cock.

"Ohhh, Jeongguk-..." Taehyung choked back a loud moan, his lips forming an 'o' shape while his brows lifted in ecstasy. Jeongguk found himself mirroring the same expression while he let his forehead lean against the other's. "Fuck... Ohh fuck, baby, that's so good.." The man reached to cup his cheek into one hand. "You're so good.."

Jeongguk moaned in response, satisfied with the praise, his fingers reaching to clasp strands of the older's hair while the man's deep grunts egged him on, gave him the energy he needed to keep his bouncing movements consistent.

The sound of the rain tapping against the windows harmonized with their helpless grunts, and soon enough Jeongguk felt a warmth appear over his own erection. His eyes fluttered open, gazing down at Taehyung's large hand that had begun to stroke his perked cock. He pried his head away from the man, let it fall backward as he gave a loud whine.

"Good baby.. Use hyung's cock as your own personal dildo.." Taehyung whispered, his eyes feasting on the sight of the boy's naked torso, up toward his pale neck where he wished he could mark him, and finally at the ecstatic expression on the squirming boy's face.

His brows twitched, a grumble vibrating in his throat when he felt he could no longer hold himself back. It was all too much, having such a perfect boy fuck himself over his large veiny dick. And, man, did the boy look absolutely beautiful with sweat beads adorning his skin, unstable breaths shaking from his lips whenever he'd push down on his cock only to lift himself back up in repetitive movements.

Just like that, Taehyung's eyes shut while he gave a roaring moan, spurts of semen shooting eagerly from the tip of his dick. His nails dug deep into the skin on Jeongguk's pale ass, pressing fresh red marks into them.

And that was when the younger made the mistake of looking at the man's pleasured face—a sight that enabled every single sensation in his body. It was an artform, really. The crease at his brow, the ecstasy at his lips. Such a view granted Jeongguk a delicious orgasm, his cum squirting helplessly from his slit, landing itself in patches over Taehyung's naked torso.

The two moaned out in unison, Jeongguk's body twitching as his orgasm hit him hard, his bouncing movement beginning to gradually slow down into a more steady pace.

Taehyung let his head lean back over the couch, then felt the younger's cheek press down to his shoulder as Jeongguk exhausted himself into laying over him. He let a quiet chuckle leave him, hand gliding up Jeongguk's back where he rubbed light, gentle circles.

"You did real good, bunny..." He smooched the boy's nose. "Rode your hyungie so good he came deep inside you, mm?" He placed another kiss at his bottom lip, and observed while the boy caught his breath. "Used me up like a toy."

Jeongguk slowly opened his eyes, his tiny fists clasping onto him. "I did g-good...?"

Taehyung watched as the younger's big eyes blinked back at him, lashes lifting in adorable innocence. He nearly laughed at the sight, just thinking that this was the very same boy who had ridden the shit out of his cock.

"You're amazing." He whispered, reached to push back loose strands of Jeongguk's bangs before he gave a boxy grin.

The loud clacking of rain persisted. Jeongguk felt his heartbeat pumping raucously inside his chest.

He closed his eyes, and their lips connected in blissful harmony.

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A blaring noise pierced the still air, and tired eyes shot open. Jeongguk's hand darted beside him toward his nightstand, where he shut off his phone alarm without even looking, and a weary grunt naturally left him in somewhat of a soft whine.

He landed his head back over the warm pillow and gently closed his eyes again. That is, until he felt movement beside him, along with quiet grumbling. At the sound, Jeongguk's eyes snapped back open, body turning to find a very handsome man who was now laying half-awake beside him.

Oh. Right.

Last night had happened.

He and Vante had gone to sleep quite late. After their little moment on the couch, Jeongguk had to take yet another shower to clean himself off the activity, so he and the older had showered together. A shower that had taken much longer than usual, since it seemed they couldn't get enough of each other, and had gone another round. Or maybe two. Jeongguk couldn't quite remember.

But at the very least, he had learned more about the alter.

It seemed Vante was a bit more vocal during sex than the others. He voiced out more of his moans, didn't hold himself back whenever he was being pleasured. He also gave him more freedom. Handed him control that Jeongguk didn't quite know how to utilize just yet.

And although the boy wasn't quite so used to it all, a blush had formed over his cheeks when he realized he had enjoyed the change of pace far too much. Or rather, he was grateful for the experience.

"Jeongguk...?" He heard the older grumble, his husky morning voice causing a skip at his heartbeat.

Jeongguk blinked back at him with his big eyes, a flutter at his stomach just hearing the voice he loved most in this world utter out his name like that.

"H-Hey, good morning.." He spoke gently, propping himself up on his elbow to get a better look at the man who was rubbing his face groggily.

The older then turned his head to his left, his eyes finally meeting Jeongguk's, and a short silence came over them while the boy watched a fond smile form over Taehyung's face.

"C'mere.." The man whispered. Jeongguk's heart missed two more beats. And if he stared at the man's disheveled morning-look a second longer he knew he'd miss three more beats.

Obediently, Jeongguk slid his body closer towards him, letting Taehyung reach a hand and settle it at his chin. The boy got the cue and leaned his head further down, closing in the distance between their faces, and Taehyung then lifted his head and pecked the boy's lips.

"Pretty boy.." He uttered softly. "I missed you, darling."

Jeongguk's eyes widened, lips prying open as he came to a sudden realization. His pallid cheeks flushed a pretty rosy color, and he timidly laid back down over the mattress, his forehead pressing into Taehyung's bare chest.

"Tae~.." He mumbled in a whine, the pads of his fingers caressing at the man's bulged arms. "It's you.."

The older cracked a smile, his hand digging into the young one's silky hair. "It's me, baby. Did you miss me?"

Jeongguk nodded his head cutely, face hidden against his boyfriend's skin.

Taehyung chuckled fondly. "You really missed me?"

The boy rubbed his face against him in another nod, and the older tilted his head to one side, cooing softly at his baby.

"Who was fronting before me, hm..?"

Jeongguk turned his head toward him, arm reaching to hug over Taehyung's waist while the older played with his hair in leisure.

"V-Vante.." He answered quietly, then thought for a moment before adding to it. "And V, before that.."

The older gave a hum, his gaze flickering toward the window where sunlight seeped past the glass. With the slightly greyed sky he figured it must've rained quite a bit last night.

"You okay...? Did they treat you well?"

Jeongguk was quiet for a moment. His index finger traced mindless, imaginary circles over the man's skin, and then he gave a soft answer.

"Yes.. They did."

The two went silent after that, basked in the peaceful atmosphere they had created, fitting for a domestic morning. They caressed each other in little ways as they cuddled, let themselves enjoy the warm skin-to-skin contact in the welcoming sheets. And after a while of letting their drowsiness fade away, Jeongguk felt the older's deep voice seep into his ears once again.

"You know something..?" He spoke, hand settled over the boy's collarbone. "I dreamt of the ocean last night..." He rubbed his finger across lightly. "I was... surrounded by darkness. But then I saw some light. It was really scary at first, but.. Somehow I felt safe."

Jeongguk was silent while he listened, and Taehyung continued.

"By the end of it I found myself at the beach... And the sunset, it was... beautiful." The older cracked a smile and ruffled a bit of the boy's hair. "Apparently as a kid I really liked running barefoot on the sand, so I was reminded of that... Oh—and collecting seashells. That was fun."

Jeongguk gave a quiet giggle. "Mm.. me too." He closed his eyes. "My mom would always take me to the beach and I'd always spend more time collecting shells than swimming."

The two broke out into lowered laughter, and Jeongguk lifted his head to prop his chin over the man's chest. Taehyung looked down at him—didn't bother to resist the sudden urge to cup his cheek, where he caressed the skin with his thumb.

They gazed into each other's eyes for a moment, and then Jeongguk's faint smile gradually faded.

"Tae.." He whispered abruptly, lifting himself from the man's warmth while he sat up on the bed. The man blinked at him and kept a curious attention directed toward his boyfriend. "Actually, I... lied a little. V didn't really treat me all that well while you were gone.."

Taehyung's brows rose, and although he was still confused by what the boy had meant exactly, he quickly sat up on the mattress to better focus on his words.

"What?" He exhaled softly. "What happened..?"

Jeongguk looked away, down to the sheets beside him, his fingers rubbing at the fabric.

"H-He took me to a club, and... had some kind of outburst. I-I don't know why, exactly, I just-... Figured it was his condition acting up."

Taehyung's jaw lowered, a serious look taking over his face.

"But he apologized. Or at least, Vante did it for him. I know he feels remorse, but... I-I don't know, Tae.."

"Oh Gguk.. C'mere.." Taehyung whispered, reaching to pull the boy into his arms, which he wrapped around him in an embrace. Jeongguk settled his chin atop the man's shoulder and closed his eyes, letting the pulsing of their hearts sync together as one. "I'm sorry, baby boy.." Taehyung smooched the side of his head. "Even if it's not entirely his fault, he shouldn't be laying a single finger on you unless its to caress you.."

Jeongguk gave a quiet sniffle, followed by a lowered chuckle. "I'm okay now, hyung. Don't you worry about me."

"That's quite an impossible thing to ask of me.." Taehyung frowned, and then Jeongguk pulled back slightly to look at him.

"I'm serious.." He spoke gently. "Because of it I got to learn more. And, well... Vante, he-... He explained things about your past. V told him to explain everything.."

Taehyung's stare on him persisted, and Jeongguk could see a confused glint in his eye.

"Ah.. So he-... Told you about my childhood, then?"

Jeongguk swallowed his saliva and nodded. "I'm not sure if-... that's something they should've discussed with you first, or-... I-I don't know how comfortable you are about me knowing those things, but—.."

Taehyung interrupted. "It's okay, Jeonggukie.." He pushed the boy's bangs back to reveal his forehead, where he placed a light kiss, a smooching sound radiating from his skin. "I have no control over that. V's in charge of those things, after all."

Jeongguk lifted a brow, big eyes glistening back at him. "He is..?"

"Yes.." Taehyung pulled his hands back and settled them over the mattress, his arms straddling the boy's body. "I don't remember much of my childhood anyway.. The only reason someone like Namjoon knows so much about it is because V allowed it. As the host, I'm not allowed to know too much because, well... It's traumatizing and whatnot... And y'know... The whole job of the alters is to take on that trauma so that I don't have to deal with it. It's the coping mechanism that comes with my disorder."

Jeongguk blinked slowly, processing the man's words and letting them settle into his head. And after a while, he gave a moderate nod. "Oh... Yeah, that-... That makes sense, actually.." He spoke as though he were still thinking on it, and after a moment came his lingering question. "So then how much of your past do y-you really know?"

Taehyung gave him a patient smile and leaned his body back against the pillows. "I know surface things; like the fact that I had an abusive uncle. But no real recollection or feelings of what happened, or what he did. Like, say you think back to a time you were a child, with your parents, at the playground... You might remember how scared you were because... I don't know—maybe you went down the slides and hurt yourself. With a memory like that I'd probably remember flashes of being at the playground with my parents, but I wouldn't really remember getting hurt or ever feeling scared. So, because of that I'd think of it as a fairly positive memory."

Jeongguk listened attentively. "And that's because an alter might've dealt with that fear and pain for you.. So they remember the negative parts."

"Exactly." Taehyung nodded. "Sometimes if I do end up finding out too much of my past—of the bad parts, from either someone telling me or an alter referencing it in my head, that knowledge eventually gets fuzzy and I forget the memory again... I know this 'cause I've had conversations with Joon where he notices I suddenly don't know things I did before, about my childhood."

Taehyung leaned back forward a bit, and gently took hold of the young one's hands.

"So, if you ever want to know something... just ask the other alters about it. They were the ones who took over for me. Dealt with all that in my stead." He looked down. "And, well.. I trust you, Jeongguk. I want you to feel comfortable and informed with me, so... If there are things you need to know, just ask. I know that I'm a very complicated man."

Jeongguk furiously shook his head. "You're not complicated, hyung.. I've met people who are much more complicated than you.." He cracked a gentle smile. "Humans have all kinds of layers, so... You're not the only one in the world with baggage.."

Taehyung returned the smile, and he retreated one hand to place at the boy's waist, urging him closer.

"What the fuck did I ever do... to deserve a boy like you, hm..?" He spoke quietly, his face nearing the younger's.

Jeongguk's small smile widened, eyes shutting while Taehyung's lips pressed against his ever so carefully. The man's broad frame then guided the boy's slim body down, hovering over him against the mattress, lips engaging him into a more passionate kiss.

Taehyung grabbed hold of Jeongguk's hand, their fingers wrapping together in a peaceful warmth while he placed wet smooches over his lover's neck.

"T-Taehyung.." A gasped breath uttered out, and the older felt fingers digging across his scalp, pulling at his strands. "Look at me.."

Taehyung landed one last bite on Jeongguk's reddened skin, then pried his face away to meet eyes with the younger. Those twinkling, starry eyes he adored so so much.

"Y-You're the only man I'll ever love.." Jeongguk said the words meekly, his cheeks pink, and a timid expression on his face. "So I.. w-wanna know all about you. Your past, your present.. your future. Who you really are. Your true self will never scare me off... O-Okay..?"

Taehyung gaped back at him with parted lips. And for a moment he was at a complete loss for words. He couldn't feel his own heartbeat, even. Nor the blood rushing his veins. Or the breaths leaving his lungs.

No.

For a second he didn't quite feel alive.

Or rather, he realized just then that, all this time, he wasn't quite living before he had met the boy laying beneath him now, gazing at him with purity in his eyes.

This boy had breathed life into him. Gave purpose to his being — everything that he was.

He'd never take him for granted. Never.

"I'm s-..." Taehyung choked back his words, inhaled another sharp breath. "I'm truly... so in love with you, Jeongguk.." He leaned down, their noses pressing gently together. "I really hope you know that.."

A big bunny smile formed across Jeongguk's face at the words, an expression that the older thought looked the prettiest on him.

He wrapped his arms over Taehyung's neck. The only man that gave him palpitations, made him feel conscious of his own skin, in the best way possible. His one and only love.

"If only you knew, hyung... how much I love you, too.."

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