I try to keep going, to endure. I must keep going I have to find them; they are the only ones I have left now. But then I chide myself

You don't even know if their still there, if they are still alive.

Mountains in the distance dominate the horizon their shadows long in the fading light. I slump down onto the hard ground fatigue controlling every part of my tired body As I continue my thoughts the hope in my chest diminish there would not be anyone there waiting for me with open arms and hearts. What was i kidding myself for? I had no one who loved me, and i loved no one. My life was a lonely one out here in the mountains by myself, its suites me just fine, at least that's what i tell myself. As the sky darkens with the setting of the sun colours blaze across the sky. But I no longer watch in fascination as I used to. Slowly finally the colours recede leaving an inky sky with a quickly fading purple horizon. Stars dotted the night sky as I watch on. The cold stars to set in, the raw wind tugging at my hair and my loose ragged clothes. and I pull my bare knees closer to my chest and hug my arms around them. Holding all my thoughts and warmth until it is time for me to let myself go, until i reach some sort of end.