A satisfying mix of bliss and pain

A past filled with a delightful inhumane

A desire glutton for the insane

Dreams are never to attain

System is so full of cocaine

Mouth is spilling champagne

Embraced with a bloody chain

Thoughts are poisonous again

Agony is pleasing the sane

Seeking a shelter in a dead lane

The psychotic glee is plain

Playing on the nerve is a strain

Painting the walls with bloodstain

Holding the mentality in detain 

Standing alone in the heavy rain

Counting down the days to remain

Trying so hardly to explain

But everything is fading in vain.