DOROTHY'S POV

Dear Diary....a few weeks have passed since that incident with my emotions going crazy...Ray finally met Skay....they don't seem to like each other that much but Skay is the type of person who smiles at everyone and sees good in everyone...He's just a happy person who can't possibly be sad...I really don't know how he does that....Btw Alex and Seth finally got together! After one big fight...Alex was about to go on a date with him when she heard him talking with Ray about how great Seth thinks her ass is and she heard something else but I can't remember now and she got so angry...She thought that he only wants her for her ass but Ray and I tried to convince her that Seth is too much of a goody to be like that. She didn't believe us. Seth also tried to talk to her but she always told him to just fuck off. But what got to her was when he wrote a love letter to her. He said in it if she doesn't want to talk in person that he only wants her to read that letter. He wrote in it how he thinks that there is much more to her than just a great ass, how he thinks that they could be in a serious relationship because he likes her too much for anything stupid and short. He wrote how he thinks she is the most beautiful girl he has ever seen and how  he loves her personality. He said that she's not like other girls and that's what he likes the most about her. He is such a sweetheart! I love those two together! And Deaty and his brother walked in on them while they were making out...yeah...And today is Ray's and mine three months anniversary! I can't believe that it passed so fast....I really love him and we get along so well....He even stopped smoking because of me...His parents are gone for few days so I'm going to spend the night at his place. Now I have to go to the gym and then I'm going to his place.

I put my diary under my pillow and got dressed. I put on black sports bra and black leggings. I know I'm very colorful... I can't help it..I just can't stand other colors..I only love dark red,dark purple,dark blue and that's it....I can be the happiest person ever but I'll still love only gothic clothes. I grabbed my backpack and went outside.

Half an hour later I was in the gym punching the boxing bag. This is what calms me down when I have a rough day. I just love it. But I never got in any boxing club or anything. While I was aggressively punching the bag some man walked past me and looked me straight in the eyes....Gosh....what was this feeling?...It...it was like time stopped and only we were in the room. It wasn't romantic feeling or anything at all this was just...weird....and creepy...He looks kinda familiar...And I can...feel...some kind of connection with him... He smirked and just walked by....He kinda looked like he was Skay's age....he even looked a little like him....

I continued to punch the bag to get my mind of stupid things.

Few hours later I got home and took a nice cold shower. Yeah I like cold showers...After that I got dressed. I put on a black crop top with high waisted leather jeans and combat boots. I put on Rays favorite perfume that I have and did my make up. I put on my classic look, dark red lips with cat eyeliner and strong eyebrows.

When I got there I rang the bell.

He opened and his jaw was almost on the floor when he saw me.

I laughed and kissed him.

He kissed me back and said 'Wow....'

We went inside and he was so kind to make us dinner on his balcony.

This guy really know how to cook. I was surprised.

We ate and talked while looking at the stars above us. It was perfect.

After that we went in his room and talked more.

I was in his lap with my legs around his waist.

'You know I could talk to you for hours and never get bored Dorothy....' he smiled and kissed me gently.

'I know...I feel the same way...It's like we were made for each other...We fit perfectly together...I love you Ray...' I kissed him back passionately.

We continued to kiss and my hand was playing with his hair while he was rubbing my back gently as we kissed.

He slowly fell down on his bed and I was on top of him while we were making out.

Few minutes later he was on top of me taking his shirt off.

My heart started to beat faster and faster as we shared passionate kisses.

He took my shirt off and I was wearing red lace bra underneath it.

'Wow...my favorite kind...' he smirked as he was looking at me.

His hands worked their way to my pants and he took them off too.

I was trying so hard to enjoy myself but that awful memory just came to my mind.

Jack. Taking my shirt off as I was crying so hard. He taking his pants off. Me screaming for help. He taking my virginity. I was 15. Fucking 15. And he ruined my life.

I pushed Ray away from me and I got out of the bed. I put my hands on my face and started to shake like crazy.

'I...I'm sorry Ray I....I...I just can't do this....I....I just can't...'

'D....Dorothy what's wrong!?....D...Did I do something!?...'He looked at me worried.

'N..No..it's not you...' I replied quietly...

He grabbed my hand and pulled me into a gentle warm hug...That's exactly what I needed.

'I...I can't Ray! Those awful memories just run back in my head!' I cried it out.

'O..Oh...I understand now....' he moved my hands away from my face and kissed my forehead.

I hate crying in front of people. But I feel like I always fucking cry in front of Ray...

'It's okay Dorothy...there's no need to rush anything...let me tell you something...' he wiped my tears away as he was talking. 'I'm actually a virgin...' he smiled..'I was with too many girls to count but I never slept with any of them...Yeah many of them were sluts but I never let that get to me...so now you know how special you are to me Dorothy...yes I was stupid for being with that many girls but I always knew I wanted that night to be special and with someone I love....and I love you Dorothy...don't ever forget that....I would never do anything like Jack did to you...'

I looked at him...'R..Really Ray?...'

'Yes Dorothy...Really...I love you...' he kissed me.

I kissed him back and hugged him harder.

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TO BE CONTINUED