DOROTHY'S POV

|Since I was nine all I could feel is pain. Pure pain. Sadness. Misery. Loneliness. I always felt like no one understands me. Like no one loves me. I stopped smiling after incident with my parents. I stopped caring. I got lost. Completely lost. But I want it to stop. I want the pain to stop. I want to feel better. I want to live. I don't want to be suicidal emo. I don't want to be that creepy sad girl. I want to be happy. I didn't feel happy since my early childhood. And that hurts me so much. It hurts that I can't smile truthfully. It hurt's that I can't say that I'm fine and mean it. It hurts that I want to move on so bad but I just can't. It hurts to be so angry at the world all the time. But now....I'll try my best. I'll try to help myself. I'll try to let others help me. I'll be fine. I'll be happy.|

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-I woke up by the sound of Deaty basically screaming at the phone. I rolled my eyes and got out of bed. I went straight to the bathroom and started my daily morning routine. It consisted of me washing my face, moisturizing and putting on makeup. The first thing that I put on was the lightest foundation because I'm so pale. Then I filled in my eyebrows, put on a little of eyeliner and dark purple lip gloss. I got back to my room and picked out my outfit. It was black band crop-top with high-waisted black jeans and black combat boots.Yeah,I know very colorful.

I made my way to the kitchen and I saw Deaty still screaming at the phone.

'I SAID I'M GOING TO BE LATE AND THAT'S IT!!!!! I CANNOT COME ON TIME I JUST CAN'T I'M BUSY WITH OTHER LIFE STUFF!' she was yelling so hard....she always gets mad for nothing..

'Could you be at least little more quiet?' -i rolled my eyes

Deaty gave me the death stare and she hang up.

'I see today you are still an emo, how suprising' she said and laughed at her own joke

'How funny' i rolled my eyes again and grabbed an apple from the table

'Come on,you just roll your eyes all the time,why don't you smile a little? I mean it's been 7 years...'

I basically just went outside without her even noticing. I feel like she's lecturing me and she doesn't even know I'm outside.Oh well,she can be so annoying.

The school wasn't so far away from my house,it was about 10 minute walk. I liked walks because they calm me down.

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It was now lunch break and I was sitting alone under some big tree in schools yard. I have only 3 more classes and I can finally go home. I didn't talk to anyone today except my teachers because I had to...i hate this...I get dirty looks from popular girls,I get looks from perverted boys who keep looking at my ass,I get scared looks from nerds,they keep looking at me like I killed someone. I just want to go home....

Unfamiliar voice interrupted my thinking.

'Hey babe,what are you doing here alone?'-someone with deep husky voice said.

I looked up and I saw tall,handsome boy with a bit longer black hair and blue eyes.

'What do you want?'-I said to him

'I just want to get to know you, you look quite interesting you know' -he smiled widely and he kept looking at me

I gave him annoyed look and hoped that he will go away

'I'm Ray Jonson, if you didn't saw me I'm in your class'-he scanned me from head to toe and I'm starting to get a bit much annoyed.

'Yeah nice name,can you go now?' I looked at him.

'Oh come on,why are you so mean? Can't we have a little fun?' he smiled

I stood up and said 'well if you won't go,I will' and I got back at school and I could feel his big blue eyes on me. Of course he was checking out my ass.

I just wanted this day to be over because it couldn't get worse...or could it?

I bumped at some guy and I fell down.

'Ouch!' I said and looked up....oh no..

'Dorothy?'-the guy that I bumped into looked at me and gave me awful smirk.

'Go away Jack I don't want to talk to you' I got up fast and started to run to the girls bathroom....not him...Gosh why him!?

I ran to the bathroom and of course I hit another person....i fell AGAIN.

'Ohmygod I'm so sorry!' -she said and helped me to get up.

'No It's my mistake...' I looked at her and she was so pretty but so short..I was short but she was even shorter.

'I'm Alex btw' -she smiled nicely

'Dorothy' I looked at myself at the mirror.

'You are so pretty,I love your hair,how is it so healthy after that color?'

'My mother had really strong hair, I got it from her...'-I said that kinda sadly

'Oh...she HAD it....I'm so sorry...'-she said and I could see how sad she was

'Oh,it's okay, it happened years ago' -I tried to shake it off

'But you can never get over your parents death,I know trust me...my dad died three years ago...'-she said with a sad smile on her face

I looked at her....you know what? Why don't I find myself a friend? I didn't have friends since....well....I was 9.....oh and Jack when I was 13...but that didn't last.

I looked at Alex..'Wanna go...like....shopping or anything after school?...you know..that friendly girly things...'-I let out a huge sigh and she laughed.

'Of course,I like you, I see that you need a little friendly love...or any love at all'

H..How did she read me so fast?.....'O..okay see ya'-i said fast and I got back to my classroom.

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I was walking home with headphones in my ears when I saw a guy with a bike riding in my direction.  I couldn't see who it was because of his helmet. I just ignored it 'till he stopped right in front of me.

He took his helmet and it was Ray...What does he want now?

'Hey beautiful'-he smirked and looked at me from head to toe again.

'What do you want?' I rolled my eyes like I always do

'You' -he smiled even more

'Well you can't have me,go now I suppose that there are plenty girls that want you to go into their pants so move it now' -I looked at him really annoyed.

'Oh wow,you are so harsh for such a little girl'

He's really starting to get on my nerves. 'Move it boy or I will move you' I looked him straight into the eyes and gave him the death stare.

'Look DOROTHY'-he said

He knows my name....

'I'm not afraid of you like other people at school, I even love the 'bad girls' like you, so you're not going to scare me away, I think that your death look is sexy' -he winked at me

I got so furious that my face got red and I just walked away fast.

UGH DAMN THAT GUY! HE'S GETTING ON MY NERVES!

I walked right into my house so madly and then I heard Deaty screaming and singing. What is she up to now?

'Ayoo Deaty what's with you?' I walked into living room.

'I HAVE A BOYFRIEND I HAVE A BOYFRIEND GOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE IT AND HE IS SO HOT OMG' -she said while jumping and smiling like a freaking idiot.

'Oh wow,you found a boyfriend? Who would want to put up with your madness' -I said while slightly laughing.

'Oh wow you are in a good mood today,I guess it's a lucky day for a both of us' -she smiled and hugged me.

'Yeah....I found a....friend...' I smiled...

'OHMYGOD FINALLY!!' -she hugged me tightly.

'O...Okay I can't breathe Deaty.....'

'I'm just so happy for you!' -she smiled widely..

'Yeah....I feel like this is going to be a good year...'
I walked upstairs to my room. I started to get ready for my little shopping session with Alex. I washed off makeup from school and started to apply new one. I put on a little bit of foundation,dark red lipstick,more intense cat eyeliner and filled in my eyebrows a little more intense. Dark red lipstick looked so good with my pale,almost white skin. Then I put on navy blue tight crop top and high waisted black shorts with black stockings that go up to my knees and black heeled boots. I actually felt good. That didn't happened in a long time....

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