Warnings~ Blood, mentions of panic attacks, mentions of self harm, attempted suicide, crying and yelling.

Virgil followed Janus to the back of the school building where Remus and Remy were talking. Janus ran up to Remus and hugged his waist. Remus turned around and pecked his small boyfriend on the head. Remy rolled his eyes. The caffinated adult then looked over at Vigil and gasped dramatically.

"VEE?!" the coffee addict screeched. Virgil smiled slightly to appear like he still possessed human emotions. ((ew))
"Hey guys." he replied as he walked over to the group. They all engulfed him in a soft hug as they knew about his hatred for physical contact ((lol same virge)). Virgil hugged them all back before pulling away.

They chatted about anything and everything. Virgil actually joined in.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Then came that fucking bell. The bell, for some reason, set Virgil off. He began to tear up as the shrill noise echoed. The three comforted him through his panic attack.

Do you ever feel out of place?

He felt weak after he calmed down. He was the only one that got like this. So worked up over nothing.

Like somehow you just don't belong.
And no one understands you?

He walked to his class and sat down. The kid next to him decided to yank the anxious boy's chair out from under him. This sent him tumbling to the floor where he hit his head off the cuboard behind him.

Do you ever wanna run away?

Despite the teacher and a familiar face coming to check on him. He stood up and ran from the room while blood soaked his hair.

Somehow, he had ran all the way home. ((no he's not a little piggy that went to the market))
He snuck through the bathroom window and ran down to his room/basement. He shut the door and locked it.

Do you lock yourself in your room?

He grabbed his blade and turned on the small TV. Playing Nightmare on Elm Street.

With the radio on turned up so loud, that no-one hears you screaming?

When he finished, he wiped his eyes and bandaged his cuts.

He lay down on the bed and fell asleep.

No you don't know what its like.
When nothing feels alright.

Nothing in his life was alright. His school life sucked and his home life was even worse.

You don't know what its like to be like me~

Nobody knew, nor would they understand, what he was going through. What made him the way he was.

To be hurt, to feel lost.

He always felt lost. Lost emotionally. He was always picked on in school. So that didn't help much either.

To be left out in the dark.

Sometimes if he talked back to his dad, he would be locked outside in the shed. It was dark. He hated the dark.

To be kicked when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around.

He'd lost count of all the times he had been slammed against the lockers or kicked by number 7,845.

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you.

He always felt like at any given moment, at any wrong move, he would break down and Janus, Remus or Remy wouldn't be there to help him.

No you don't know what its like.
Welcome to my life.

This was normal for him. He just dealt with whatever was thrown his way.

Do you want to be somebody else?

Yes. He wanted to be like Roman, Patton or Emile. He wanted to be loved by his peers.

Or maybe he wanted to be like Remus, Janus or Remy. They didn't care what anyone thought about them.

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Yes. He's sick of feeling like shit all the time. Of feeling numb and useless.

Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over.

Maybe? He didn't know what he was hoping to get out of this life though. Maybe he'd get lucky next time.

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Yes. He hated Earth. It was so disgusting now that everyone had superhero qualities. People took their gifts for granted and use them for selfish reasons. Villains didn't seem so bad though.

Are you sick of everyone around?

God yes. He hated everyone in his school other than Roman, Patton, Emile, Remus, Janus, Remy and the one boy from the alley way. What was his name? Oh yeah Logan.

With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,

Everyone had such big egos. He was tired of it all.

But deep inside you're bleeding.

Nobody knew of his cuts. Probably because he never took off his gloves in school.

"No you don't know what its like.
Welcome to my life."

He said as he stood on the roof, cornered by his usual bullies. They kept saying how he got anything and everything he wanted. He snapped.

"No one ever lied straight to your face!"

Roman did that. He told Virgil that he would always protect him. Well, it was foolish to believe such an obvious lie.

"And no one ever stabbed you in the back!"

Figuratively or literally? He'd had both done to him.

"You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be okay!"

He shouted as the tears poured from his eyes like a faucet.

"Everybody always gave you what you wanted.
You never had to work it was always there.
You don't know what its like."

The leader of Dumb, Dumber and Dumbest said as he looked down at the boy.

"What its like?"

Virgil said as he looked up. He pushed himself up off the wall and stated at the teens in front of him.

"To be hurt."

He pulled off his gloves to reveal the bandages. He then ripped those off to reveal the fresh, open cuts along his arms.

"To feel lost.
To be left out in the dark."

The three men covered their mouths. They hadn't realised they had driven him to do this.

"To be kicked when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around.
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you!
No you don't know what its like.
What its like!"

Virgil walked towards the edge of the roof and stood on a bench.

"To be hurt.
To feel lost.
To be left out in the dark.
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around.
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you.
No you don't know what its like.
Welcome to my life.
Welcome to my life.
Welcome to my life."

He mumbled as he leant forwards. Before he could fall, he felt two pairs of arms pull him back. He passed out looking up into Remy and Remus's faces as they cried.

Heyo danger noodles!

Sorry for the angst but I think this song fits well into the story.

I'll post more soon.

Stay safe💜💛, stay great and stay proud🏳️‍🌈. Oh and don't forget to procrastinate.

Peace✌️

Kadence~