Cody's POV

      Ever since last night, I've been very paranoid, it's like the beginning all over again. My anxiety is rising and I can't help the uneasiness in my stomach. Something keeps talking in my ear, telling me that today won't be what I want, but I try to ignore the thoughts, knowing it's only my anxiety messing with my head.

    This morning when James got me up, I was terrified at the prospect of going to school. Even if no one has seen the girl in a few weeks, that's doesn't mean she can't suddenly appear and do all the things she promised to me.

     I tried to tell James that I couldn't go back to school and I could just be a stay at home Luna and quit but he wasn't having it and neither was Jessie or Sloan. They told me I had to go to school since I missed so much and that I might regret letting my anxious thoughts and feelings get the best of me. And even though they were right, I wasn't a happy camper when I got into the car.

     I think James realized that when I turned my knees away form the middle console and towards the door when his hands come out to touch my thigh. He sighed to himself while Jessie called me rude, and returned his hand to the wheel.

    When we had arrived at school, he promised me that if I went through the day, that he would have a surprise for me today. The idea had instantly made me perk up, thinking it would be easy, but walking through the hallways now, I'm no longer thinking that's the case.

       I'm making my way towards the library for my free period and I run into Taylor and Enza on the way.

"Hey, guys." I say to them, raising my hand up to wave shyly and they turn their head in my direction before grins spread out along their lips.

" Hey, Cody!" Enza says in excitement before coming over to me quickly to pull me into a tight hug. I breathe and the smell of vanilla, always loving the way his scent calms my mind. He pulls back a bit before pressing his sticky lips to my cheek making me grin, knowing that it's his signature cherry lipgloss that Taylor loves so much. "I haven't seen you in a while. You okay?"

     I smile up at my friend, ever the worrier before I nod, avoiding his gaze. My eyes connect with Taylor who's standing slightly behind his lover and when he sees my burning cheeks he laughs.

       "Leave him alone, babe. He just had his Monthly." Taylor says and I groan in embarrassment as heat flies up my neck and face faster than before, hating the idea that he remembers when my Monthly is, even if he did used to have to calm me down from panic attacks.

        "Aw my little man is all grown up now." Enza says teasingly before pinching my cheeks and I give him a playful snap of my teeth making him retract his fingers and laugh.

         "I'm leaving now." I tell the two of them sticking out my tongue as I press my cool hand to my face in an effort to cool it down.

      "Don't be embarrassed Cody, unless there's something we shouldn't know about." Enza says to me and my mind flashes with all different sort so scenarios that he shouldn't know about. The thoughts hinder any effects I made towards getting my color back to normal and I do my best to hid it as I flip the two of them off and race away with a tomato face.

The bell rings but since I'm in no hurry I take my time as I make my way to the library. I open the doors a bit with the struggle with how heavy the wood is, and wave at the librarian who always shows me the best books to read. She gives me a kind smile and a wave back as I make my way towards the table that's in the middle of the room, placing my book bag on the chair next to me as I settle in.

I pull out my assignment for mathematics to do but my mind keeps slipping back to my times in the Baby Wing.

     Angelica and I have formed a special bond and the sweet baby has grown to like me very much. Claudia claims that I'm some sort a saint that came down to help her with the rowdy baby, but I just think that Angelica just needs a little tender love and care. I spend most of my afternoon and evenings with the babies in the ward helping Claudia in anyway I can and just spending time with the little beauties that make my day whole.

Even though James and I have had a passing conversation about having a kid, we haven't talked about it since and it breaks my heart a little.

Lately all I've wanted is to be able to have my own baby and show them what it's like to have a caring loving home something that I missed out on and James never got. I talk to my new friend about it but she informed me I what already knew, that my chances of getting pregnant are slim to none.

Though most would assume that since I am an Omega, getting pregnant should be the easiest thing in the world, most don't know that I'm half human. And that stupid fucking fifty percent might be the one thing that stops my dreams from being complete. 'Would you not be happy with us just being a family of our own?' Jessie asks me and there's no malice or hurt in his question only the need to understand.

'No. I would still be happy. But there would alway be a piece of me that would know that my heart isn't full if my belly isn't as well.' I tell him and though a lot of people would tell me that I am being irrational, I don't agree. I try to shake the thoughts from my head, knowing that thinking about them isn't going to help the state I'm in now. I focus on the pages in front of me and begin reading about calculus, the bane of my existence. Just as I'm finally about to start understanding a concept that's been avoiding me for weeks my phone goes off.

I jump harshly at the loud sound, a squeal springing from my throat as I fish my phone out of my pocket. I glance up at our librarian with an apologetic smile and she gives me one in return with a slight shake of her head.

My ears are painted pink as I unlock my phone and I grin in delight when I see that is a text from my papa bear. My heart begins to thud in excitement when he asks to meet me in the dark room, the photography room a couple hallways away from here.

Smiling to myself, I'm quick to load all my notebooks and textbooks into my book bag careful not to crush any of my papers inside. I put all my pencils in and grab my jacket that I had taken off coming inside the library and drape it around my shoulders once more. Once I'm sure I have everything I put the bag on my shoulders and grab my phone before standing up and pushing the chair into the table.

The librarian looks at me curiously, knowing that the period isn't up but she waves back at me all the same as I make my way out of the large room.

I'm making my way down in the hallway happily, barely containing my skip of glee knowing that it's time for me to get my surprise from my sweet sweet Mate. It doesn't take me long to get to the correct hallway that the dark room is on, but I stop myself and go to the bathroom to make sure that I look as cute as can be before I go to see James.

Once I make sure that my messy curls look a little decent and my glasses are on straight, I exit the bathroom and make my way a few doors down to the dark room. I open the door make my way in as the door closes behind me softly. When I turn around there's no one there which means I still have to wait for him so I make my way slowly around the room as I look at the pictures that are hanging up.

I head to the first string that's hanging a few feet from the door and begin to look at the pictures taken. The ones on this line are abstract and you can't really tell what they are because they're so close up but the aesthetic is still pretty as I move on to the next line.

The one behind it is the same sort of concept except the pictures except it's a little further away so I get to see less of the texture and more of the full picture which has me intrigued as I go from line to line.

Towards the back of the room my heart jumps to my throat as I begin to recognize the scenes that are around me. I get a sickening feeling in my throat as I realize that the pictures that are hanging up are all the same thing just a different angles and different distances, but the one thing they all have in common it's me.

Just like the pictures that were left in James' room in the folder and suddenly the room feels too tight and I know I need to get out. Now.

I turned around to make my escape but just as I do the door is open and in walks a figure that's clearly female but with the darkness in the room I can't tell anything else about her. I feel tears pick my eyes as I wish that I had just begged James to stay home today, knowing that he would eventually give it.

I hear the door lock as a figure begins moving towards me and Jessie is only rousing from his sleep when suddenly everything goes dark.

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It's here guys. Ugh. But I promise this won't be as bad as the other one (iykyk) Cody is too sweet to have anything too bad. This book is probably going to end soon though, like this week soon.

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