Part 50 - FINALE
Ashwin understood Aneesha's disappointment, that she wasn't expecting this reply from him. He had no choice either, he had to either let it out to her or live with just his dreams. And he chose to take a chance, bravely and see what would happen.
Ashwin: I can understand..
Aneesha: ellam therinjuma nee ipdilam pesura?
Ashwin: yes, I may not have told or showed you about my feelings, but this is what it is. I know you knew this well too, neeyum therinjum theriyadha mari dhan iruka, adhuvum enakum theriyum..
Aneesha: but why? why me? why would you want to spend your life with a person like me? Un vazhkai nalla dhana poitu iruku, nalla irukura vazhkai'a edhuku neeya kedukanum? Feelings can go haywire at times, you better get rid of these thoughts and start thinking of a better future for you, adhudhan unaku nalladhu
Ashwin: idhu ellame unnoda karpanai, nee nenaikura mari edhuvume illa, un kooda irundhadhan na happy'a iruken, ipdilam pesadha please, idhelam oru reason'a solladha please
Aneesha: Ashwin, listen. This is the truth and fact. You will have to come in terms with that. You can't be fooling yourself by coming up with own imaginations and think all that has happened are nothing. You know it all, and you've seen some of it too, yet you're thinking your life would go well?
Ashwin couldn't handle all that Aneesha was saying, he tried his best to remain calm and make her understand, nothing helped. Without getting any control of himself, he bursted out to her.
Ashwin: Aneesha, stop it, please stop it for God's sake! Enough is enough. I am not going to listen to this same theory again and again, I am tired of it
Aneesha: well, this is the truth
Ashwin: Podhum di, unaku enna pudikilana sollidu adha vitutu ipdilam pesi enna hurt panadha, yaar venumnalum nambalam un theory'a, na namba maaten, nambave maaten
Aneesha: nee yen purinjika maatra?
Ashwin: yaar naana? Who gave you the rights to think you're of a bad luck and a person with a sin? WHO? No one right? You came up with this thought, just after one incident. And kept connecting yourself with it again and again, whatever bad happens, you blame it on you. Who told you that? Who made you to believe that you're of a bad luck? Why do you do this to yourself? Do you know how many of our lives turned beautiful by you? Has anyone said that to you? Have you given the space for anyone to talk about it? Why do you run away from it? Why run away from the truth? Why can't you accept what we are saying and understand that instead? Why are you spoiling yourself, your life and everyone around you with these negative thoughts of yous? Past is past, Aneesha. No one knows how that happened, it was over by then between you two, yet you choose to put the blame on you. Do you know how hurtful it is for all of us to see you like this!? You're killing us
And right after saying that to Aneesha, Ashwin got out of the car, closing his car door louder than usual. All the anger which has piled up on him was out, finally. All the frustrations, emotions were out. He didn't want this to happen, he prayed every day for this, hurting her was not in his intentions. But Aneesha was going off the limits, he couldn't accept her talks and theories saying she's of bad luck.
Aneesha saw Ashwin being frustrated for the first time, he has never shown this of his to her. She felt attacked, like he spitted out the truths, right on her face. She hated how accurately he told them all, she hated him for saying it. She was never ready to face the truth. She began to think of herself, her past and all that which has happened till date.
Long back, during her college days, she fell head over heels for Rakesh. He was her classmate, they took same courses, and they fell in love. Despite all the advice from her friends, she fell for him, for his sweetness, for his gestures, for his love, for his care. He was the sweetest person, from her point of view. But it only lasted a while after the got into a relationship. Slowly, his true colours came out. As soon as he knew she was in love with him and agreed for a commitment, he started avoiding her. Kept giving her excuses like he's busy with work, won't have time to spend with her, he's working hard for their future, there's no time for love and so on. Lots of excuses which made Aneesha feel is she really in a relationship? But she never gave up, she kept going on, thinking he's doing this for them both, she shouldn't think bad of him. Each time they had an argument, he never bothered to talk about it, he would move on to the next day, like nothing ever happened and Aneesha started disliking it. More fights came between them, and whenever she calls him to talk about it, he came up with excuses and once, he told her off saying "Why do you always seek for my attention? Can't you understand I'm busy? We are not in our teens to sit and love day and night, I need money, that's what matters right now, without that nothing will happen. One day, when I don't have money, you will leave too. I don't have time for you, but I want to get married to you, in few years' time, we will, now let's just focus on ourselves instead of this relationship". Those words that Rakesh told Aneesha, that's the moment she decided this relationship will never work, she understood he's after money, which is good for future but what is he going to do with it in future when all his loved ones leave him and go? All he does right now is go after money and party with his friends. He has time for friends but not her.
All his avoidance and behaviour started syncing in and after a lot of thinking, she finally told him "Rakesh, this is not working, it won't work, it's time we look after ourselves like you said. Nee solradhu patha enamo na unna matume nenachutu, enakunu edhume panadha maari pesura, that shows how well you know and understand me. Pesuna varaikum podhum, if this is how fated we are, let it be. I am moving out from this relationship, I had enough, idhuku melayum ennala go through pana mudiyadhu..I am losing myself in this. I wish you a life filled with money". Rakesh was shocked to see Aneesha speaking like this, he has thought that he's the superior one in their relationship, Aneesha would never say anything back and just obey him, the sudden change in Aneesha up to a breakup made him to boil. He tried reaching her many ways, Aneesha never gave in, and cut contacts with all those they know in common. And after a week, Aneesha got to know through Abinaya @Abi (her best friend) that Rakesh has passed away in a drunk and drive accident.
The miserable life she was going through only got worse after this news. At first, she felt Abi is lying and helping Rakesh, but when they brought her to the hospital, that's when she realized, Rakesh is no more. The guy she fell in love with, whom she still is in love with has left her. Then on, she blamed herself for being the reason, she told herself that he got drunk because of her and accident happened. If she stayed in the relationship, he would have been alive, and they could have fixed things. She told herself that she is the bad luck, she carries it, passed it to Rakesh. All that which *Meyshna* went through after the demise of *Rahul*, is exactly what Aneesha went through. Depression, trauma and so on.
Aneesha then met Ashwin, Abi's brother, Abi introduced him to her, slowly Ashwin became a friend of her. She has never allowed him to be more than a friend, never given the space, never let her to fall into it again. But he was there for her throughout, he was the one who gave her the idea of becoming an event planner, she has never done anything like that in her life, he gave her ideas, started up the business for her and helped her out in it. He made her feel that life goes on, no matter what. The one person who kept proving her that she's not of bad luck.
Just like how Ashwin helped out Aneesha for her own growth mentally and professionally, she has always encouraged him to pursue his passion for films and make his Ashna proud. She wanted to be the first one to see his film. Now, all that had happened, except for the fact that he had taken it all having her on mind. Reality started to hit and it's time for her to face it.
As Aneesha had a flash of her past, recalled all that happened, understood why everything happened, she remained in car, waiting for Ashwin to come back in. She gave him the space to get calm. After a while, Ashwin got into the car and apologized to her saying "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.." and Aneesha stopped him. "At least you spitted the truth, which I've been intentionally avoiding all my life". Ashwin looked at her in shock, thinking why this sudden change. He then told her "hey..illa di, na apdi pesirka koodadhu, un kita kova patruka koodadhu, I'm sorry 😔".
Aneesha then said, "Neeyum sollalana eppo dhan na purinjukuradhu? Nee Meyshna oda life a sollum bodhu, each and every part I felt it was me, I related it to myself, that raised my confidence and my hope, in everything, in love, in life and everything else. Enna dhan mind la vechu eduthen nu sonadhudhan I couldn't accept, but that's what it is. It does make sense now, from start to end of the film. Abi, Pranav, amma, all their care for me and of course you. Some I have never said it out to you, but un film la irundhu theriyudhu na solama kooda en mind la enna odudhu nu unnala purinjuka mudiyudhu, solla pona avlo perfect'a adhelam explain panirundha. And then, the life with you, up to proposal about you from my parents was right, I remember saying no to it, but un film la yes nu potruka, and their journey started from there, which didn't, in reality, for us".
Ashwin felt emotional hearing Aneesha saying this, he had yearned for her to understand the reality, now that she did, he had nothing left to say.
Aneesha continued "Na bad luck oh illayanu lam enaku therila aana Rakesh ku nadandhadhu la naanum oru reason, adhu dhan unmai. Adhuku apram ellathikum na ennaye bad luck nu solradhu ennaye yemathikitadhudhan, I will accept that, engada thirupi love, kalyanam nu pechu varumnu bayandhu naane ipdi onnu solli, enna andha circle ullaye vazha vechuten, nee iniki thideernu unmaya pesum bodhu dhan enake purinjadhu evlo silly aana oru velaya panitu irundhurkenu. At least neeyavadhu soniye, neeyum solalana idhelam na realize panirkave maaten pola, vazhkayum ipdiye poirukum".
Ashwin then looked at her and said "I didn't mean to hurt you, I swear, it was a movie of having you on mind and many from my perspectives, my thoughts of your life. You're not of bad luck, not at all, I wanted you to know your worth, how beautiful of a soul you are. And nee en love'a accept panalanalum paravala, un kita confess panenu endra oru thought ae enaku podhum. Vazhakaila ellame namma nenacha mari nadakadhu, we must learn to live with it, idhuvum nee enaku solli kuduthadhu dhan. But I want you to know, movie la sonna dialogue dhan, naan thediya thedal ellam neeye. Movie la sona maari nee en crush'um illa, first love'um illa, namba marriage um panala dhan, but ipdilam vazhkai irundhurundha evlo azhaga irukumnu dhan apdi eduthen. Adhula edhavadhu unna hurt panirundha I'm really sorry. Un kita confess pananumnu romba yosichurken, movie mudinjone angaye solanumnu nenachen mudila, ipo kooda romba yosichen, nee edhadhu doubt kepanu theriyum about moive, un kita inspired from GVM's VTV nu solalamnu kooda plan panen aana mudiyala, I couldn't hide the truth from you anymore".
First time, Aneesha is seeing Ashwin talking like a crybaby. She then told him "Nee last'a movie la Meyshna kita ipdilam vazhkai irukanum nu book la write panirundhiye, adhula oru kanavu ippo vazhalam".
Ashwin looked at her with a shock, asking her "ennadhu? What?". Aneesha replied "Long drive dhana first'a irundhadhu? Ipo namba car la dhana irukum, indha oor muzhuka long drive poga mudiyatinalum, we can go somewhere far, right?". Ashwin, with the same shockness asked her "Does that mean a yes?". Aneesha never replied for it, she just smiled, played an Ilayaraja song, told him to start the car, and placed her hands on his lap.
THE END
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