Recap -

Let's just say, once you got back, everything changed. You refused to talk. You quit being interactive. You stopped training newer recruits. And you stayed in Ulquiorra's room and layed in his bed. You hated all the feelings you had flowing through you. Hatred, grief, heartbreak, disappointnent. All these things were eating at you. And to make it worst, you blamed yourself for the death of your.. lover..that was never even your lover. - End Recap-

Story Start-

'These battlescars don't look like they are fading...don't look like they are ever going to change...' you say quietly as you sit in Ulquiorra's room. Life has been a living hell since he died. Nothing has been the same. You missed his demeanor. You missed how beautiful he was in the moonlight as he trained recruiting arrancars. You missed those beautiful green eyes glaring at you when you would mess up. You couldn't stand the fact that he was gone, and you didn't know how to deal with it. You have dropped several pounds, your natural green hair has lost it's shiny luster, even your green eyes have lost their spark. You have really let yourself go. You figured that since your one true love has died, that appearance didnt matter anymore. Everybody that knew the true you knew that you were changing. Haribel has been trying every day to help you out, but you push her away. Nnoitra has tried to help you, but you just broke down in mournful sobs when he would confront you and couldn't take it. Grimmjow would tell you to stop being a little bitch and get over. You knew that was his own way of being Sorry for you, but Grim is Grim so..you deal with it. Lord Aizen even relieved you of your duties. He didn't like the fact that you did nothing but shove away others. He told you to stay from action until you went back to your old self again. Gin even sat down with you for tea one day and talked to you about Ulquiorra and how he could tell he favored you in more than a fraccion based way. Gin was actually a sweetheart but just didn't like showing it. As time passed, and with the help of fellow arrancars and espada, your depression faded, but the feelings remained strong. Nothing would ever change how you felt for him.

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Dream-

'Oh Ulqui.. lower please lower..' you say as Ulquiorra glided his hot tongue down your bare stomach and abdomen. He had been teasing you for the past 5 minutes, but all were in pleasurable ways. He first started with your lips, pressing his to yours, igniting a fire deep in the pit of your stomach. Next, he kissed from your jaw to your neck and left a perfect little purple bruise right above your collarbone. After that, he kissed to your breasts grabbing each one and torturing each nipple into hardness by nipping and softly tugging on them. By that time, you had already wanted more and pushed his head down. You wanted him so badly and you were finally getting him. You'll be damned if you didnt. After you pushed his head down, his hands grabbed your hips and lifted the slightly, and kissed each of your inner thighs. You were in a state of pure bliss. You were finally calming down until he blew his hot breath against you and immediately reignited that flame in your stomach. You whined a little and he responded by leaning down and planting a kiss to your most sacred spot. You gasped as his tongue and teeth soon started nipping at your sensitive little button as two of his fingers found your opening and slid deep inside. In, out, in, out. Faster, slower, faster, harder. He would continuously quicken and slow down the pace of his fingers, enjoying the sounds you were letting out. After a few minutes of the pleasure, your abdomen grew tight and you whimper 'I..I'm so close..' His fingers sped up as he added a third and before you knew it, you were crying out with an arched back, your body convulsing in pleasure, as you had hit your first high of the night.

Dream End-

You quickly sat up in your bed, your heart racing and your skin hot to the touch. You could have sworn it was real. The pleasure, his lips, his touch. It all felt so real. You were so happy..until you realized it was all just a dream.

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How was that little lemon lovelies? Sorry for the super late update. I had alot going on and low grades so I got grounded. I will most likely add a third part so..yeah. I will hopefully update soon. Baii!! ^*^