Alright! I was stumped for so long with this chapter. I finally got stuff figured out. Also, i made changes. I know I said I was updating the visit, but I came up with a few ideas and changes may help the story progress. Omf guys! I got an African - Fat Tailed Gecko for my birthday and he is sooooo cute! His name is Simon! Anywho, on with the story!
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Recap-

Y/n's Pov-

My head suddenly began to pound after I screamed. One of my hands shot to my head and held it as my other hand had such a tight grip on Ulquiorra's sword that my knuckles were turning a pale white color. I saw Haribel walking towards me, and I don't know what over came me, but I ran right into her arms and grabbed tightly onto her, closely resembling a child clinging to its mother. 'Why did he leave Hari? Why am I feeling like this after this long? Am I going crazy' you ask her. You hear her quiet chuckle and a soft pat on your head. 'Hush child. You are not crazy. You are in love and missing your lover. He didn't leave because he wanted too Y/n. I bet that if he were here, he'd slap your head and tell you to suck it up and be a woman. He didn't fall in love with a child.' As you hear her calm quiet voice speak to you, you lift your head and look at her, amazed. 'Haribel...thank you so much...for being here for me...' you say quietly. She pats your head once again. 'Your welcome. What else are friend's for? Now return to your barracks and get some rest alright?' You nod your head and pick up Ulquiorra's zanpakuto. Tonight was going to be a long night. A long one indeed.

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Story Start-

After you got back to your quarters, you stripped down to your chest wrap and your bottoms. Your head had yet to quit hurting from earlier. You still couldn't understand what was going on. Ulquiorra dying. Syazel saying dreams could become reality. Haribel saying that Ulquiorra truly loved me. It's just really hard to swallow all at once. Your head felt as if someone were striking you repetitively with a rock. Things just weren't adding up. Inside, yoy wished that Syazel was right. That Ulquiorra was still alive in your dreams, but then again, you didn't. You didn't want Ulquiorra to be tied to you in his afterlife. He had already died once as a human, then again as an arrancar. You didn't want to burden him with the suffering of living again. Of course you cared for him. Of course you yearned for his touch. For his voice. His guidance. Ulquiorra was everything you wanted and more. He was the clouds in your sky. Your sun on your dark days. He was quiet, reserved. You were loud and quite retarded. You two were polar opposites, yet you two fit together like perfect puzzle pieces. You weren't the perfect arrancar. You weren't the prettiest girl. You had scars, you had human emotions, yet Ulquiorra was totally different. Knowing how Ulquiorra was is why you doubted that he loved you. Love is a human emotion. An emotion not needed by an arrancar. Yet, you loved him, and he you. Denial was your best friend at the moment, and only a purely surprising miracle would change your mind. And changing your mind has never been an easy task for anybody.

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Sorry if this disappointed any of yoy. I needed a bit of emotional support from the characters to help me write. Again, if you are unhappy with it, please let me know. I want to please you guys! The next update should be after i update my other story. Bye lovelies!