"keep pushing me away. this is a fool, crazy in love, chasing in circles.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

run, run. run, again. it's okay to get hurt. I'm alright, even if I can't have you."

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Jungkook walks around campus, looking for the only person who's on his mind. Elianna.

He's worried about her. He thinks that they're at that stage of friendship or whatever, where he can worry about her. She didn't come to class, hasn't been answering his calls or several messages.

It's the next day and although, she avoided him yesterday, not looking at him at all, he wants to find her and make sure she's okay.

It's the end of the day and Jungkook is walking with Jin. He tagged along and won't leave him alone. Jungkook doesn't mind because he's grown fond of the man.

They walk through a corridor Jungkook is sure they've been through before. They seem to be walking around in circles. Namjoon is stood on the other side, on his phone and Jin ducks down.

"What are you doing?" Jungkook whispers, looking down at his tall friend who's pulling at the end of his ebony sweatshirt.

"Let's go this way." Jin pulls harder and Jungkook furrows his brows, obliging anyway.

As soon as they're away from an oblivious Namjoon, Jin stands up against the wall and let's out a relieved sigh.

"What was that about?"

"Namjoon was my first love."

Jungkook doesn't even have water in his mouth but he chokes.

So ... Jin's what? What about Shira?

"Yeah I don't know what my sexuality is just yet. All I know is that, that was the man of my dreams." Jin points to where they came from. "It was an unrequited love."

"Sorry mate. Unrequited love sucks." Jungkook pats his back, thinking about Elianna and Jin's face holds a sad smile. "But one day, someone will come along."

"They fucking better. I need someone to love me, what's taking them so long Jungkook?"

"Maybe they're stuck in a tree because their horse threw them up there." Jungkook shrugs and rubs his chin, acting clever.

Then he asks Jin. "Did Namjoon know?"

Jin looks at Jungkook. "Yeah he did. I told him what I felt for him."

"And?"

"He said he didn't feel the same way so I forced myself to move on. But now he's here again, I don't know if he's seen me or not."

Jungkook is about to reply until he sees Elianna's figure at the end of the garden path. She has glasses on her head and she's holding a bottle of fizzy drink in her hand. She's swaying from side to side. An oversized hoodie is what fits her frame and she leaps, opening her arms wide when she sees Jungkook walking towards her.

"Where have you been all day?" He grabs her arm.

Elianna fists the front of his sweatshirt in her hand and pulls him closer, leaning into him. "Jungkook- ah- Jungkook!" She's in a giddy mood and she presses her cheek against his hard chest.

Jungkook isn't sure whether or not she's drunk. She doesn't smell like alcohol and she isn't drinking any. He makes her look up at him, trying to get her to answer his question but she doesn't.

Instead, she brings her face to his and whispers. "Can I kiss you? I miss you so much. I want to kiss you."

Jungkook's stomach is filled with the same uneasy feeling, those damned butterflies. He wants to give in and kiss her but remembers Jin is also present. "Come on, we have to go see our teacher. He needs to talk to you about what you need to catch up on."

Jungkook is baffled because yesterday Elianna didn't even look at him- she completely avoided him and now she's holding onto him so tightly as if he's the only thing that made her day better.

—

After seeing their teacher, Elianna is calmer and back to her normal self. They walk out of the classroom. Jin left a while ago.

"Let me walk you home." Jungkook says politely. He crosses his arms over his chest. It's wintry outside and the sky is foggy.

Elianna continues to walk straight past him. "I have somewhere to be." She's back to avoiding him. Her hair is tucked away inside her hoodie and her voice is cold, distant.

Jungkook calls out to her. He stays glued to the spot. His frustration is hitting it's peak now. "What's your problem with me?"

Jungkook's raised voice causes Elianna to turn around, a little surprised. She still doesn't look at him. "Nothing-" She holds her book in her hands tightly.

Jungkook cuts her off. He's mad, very mad. "You keep playing games with me." He looks defeated as he makes gestures with his hands. He wants her to be aware. "One minute you're like this and then-"

Elianna steps forward. Her eyes meet his finally and as soon as both their brown eyes meet, the atmosphere changes. There's frustration, impatience and annoyance. "You love acting like the world revolves around you." She accuses Jungkook.

Elianna flinches a little when Jungkook's voice turns into a shout as his eyes continue to burn right through her. "No you do Elianna." He points at her. "You wrap me around your finger. Who hurt you? Why do you do this?"

That hits a nerve. Elianna clenches her jaw. "You don't even have it as bad as me!"

Jungkook scoffs and takes his eyes off her. "I don't huh?"

"At least you have both parents." He speaks again.

Jungkook can tell Elianna is a person who gets easily frustrated whenever someone tests her. "I might as well not have because one of them is always drunk, out of their mind. One has lost all respect for herself that she can't even care for us anymore. No one fucking cares."

Jungkook lets her rant. There's emotions that need to be let out and she's just a girl who's trying to survive life. "I have to be the adult! I want to be the teenager I'm supposed to be. Everyone tells me I'm the reckless one, the slutty teen that messes around. That's not me! Because in college, at home, no! I'm someone different ... so different. Because I am not always the one you met that night and you don't even know the half of it!"

Jungkook reaches out to her. He always gives in to her, he notices how the tone of his voice has changed and how his anger has dissolved. "Then let me know. Let me be here for you and give you the care that you've never been given, that you deserve so badly."

"You're so right, you're right and no one will ever understand." Elianna let's out an uptight laugh. It looks like she's about to give in to his welcoming arms but she clenches her book harder. "Just leave me alone, please."

She walks away, leaving Jungkook alone with his thoughts and afflicted feelings.

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