Prae side:::

"You are pregnant?" Ren asked once again, "what?!! No! Who is pregnant?" Prae lied through her gritted teeth like she is angry by Ren accusations. Ren eyed her from head to toe in disbelieve, "See I lied to you before but not now, I have changed already!" Prae said and gave her back to him.

"Hmm.. Did you know that my mom is admitted in hospital?" Ren asked to clarify something, "-what? How is she, Ren?" Prae asked causing Ren to smile while shook his head in amusement .

"You are really good at lying, but too bad I already have some knowledge about you!, Mom told me you visited her earlier" Ren said causing her to go frozen. Composing herself she sit in her couch and confessed to him in one breath.

"Yes I am P-pregnant!" Prae said, Ren just nodded his head and settled opposite to her, "That's it? a nod? Don't you want to know who got me pregnant?" Prae asked him with creased forehead.

Ren smiled at her action "I don't ask obvious things" Ren said and leaned forward while placing his both hands on his knees, "I am going to abort it tomorrow" Prae said in a soft voice and lift her face to see Ren.

Ren face showed so much hurt and pain but he changed it quickly with a "ok", Prae got angry, she thought Ren will request her at least once to not abort the baby but he literally ignored it like it's not his matter, does he not care about it? Does he seeing her baby as a mistake like others? Her mind bombarded with so many bad scenarios.

"What is your reason to visit me leaving your wife and daughter alone in this night?" Prae asked full of sarcasm, "To talk with you or shall I say to confess to you?" Ren said to her.

"I love you" Ren said while his eyes staring his love with full confidence, Prae saw the sincerity on Ren words but she ignored it and mocked him "Really? Vow... I never know you can also lie like me!, how can you ask me to believe you when you still in love with your Niya?"

Ren got confused and asked "what are you talking about?" . Prae yelled at him "Don't play around me Ren, you are good person don't make me hate you, your love for her is un-measurably, I am just a infatuation for you that is too because I look like Niya"

"Even now you replied just 'Ok', 'ok?" Who the hell will say ok when their loved one is going to kill a soul? Won't you at least beg me once to not abort it like you begged thousand times to Niya for Anu, Did you feel disgusted on my baby just because I cheated you and sleep with you, i don't want anyone to see my baby as a shame"

"I loved you Ren, I really loved you, I may get this baby on a forbidden relation, but it's not formed from abuse or without a love like me, I don't care even if you don't forgive me for my wrong doings but don't ever see this baby as nothing even though it will not going to born" Prae said with unshed tears, she doesn't want to cry in front of him.

Ren stood and kneel in front of her, he placed his head on her lap, Prae got stiffened and try to push him away but the word "please" from Ren mouth sound so painfully that her anger in heart melted.

"I am sorry if I give you wrong thought, I didn't feel disgust by the baby, it's not only from your love, it's from my love too, I never pressured Niya to keep the baby or abort it in the past, my family pleaded her to keep it".

"I never say a word about it, it's her decision, not mine to say, For you too, although it's my baby it's up to you to keep or abort it, if you got pregnant in normal situation where we are lovers with rights I will surely oppose it. Now i don't have rights, its not you who told me about the baby i find out about this myself".

" I am not ashamed of it, but it's you who have to answer everyone and face the world until we gain the relationship, but I promise you that if you decided to keep the baby or want my word in this one then I will say I will take care of you and my baby with my love".

"I will help you guys to face the harsh people from saying nonsense about you and my baby, I already told you i liked Niya but not love, before I fall for her everything changed, I did  all things to Niya because I don't want her to hurt, she is my crush and best friend from my childhood so I have to do that.

Moreover I don't want Anu to suffer in any ways, for that I even knelled in-front of evil people and beg to spare my child life, I have money and power but I never want to risk my family, I love you, you make me fall for you, you make me feel all weird feelings i longed for, so don't doubt my love on you, it's true that I never feel any of this until you came in my life.

Niya is trying her best to be good wife for me, she is doing everything you did for me but the feelings is not coming to me like you make it come, it's you who can make my heart beat fast, please believe me and give me a chance, I love you...I promise you I will divorcee Niya and ask Anu custody if she is okay with it, I will come to your family and ask for your hand".

Everything Ren said make Prae feels like she is in her dreamland, This is what she wanted, to live happily with Ren and Anu, he is promising her that but is it possible? what if Niya didn't give divorce, what if Anu hates them once she know the truth or what if she hate Ren after knowing he is not her real father.

She put her hand in Ren hair and stroked it, he lift his teared eyes to meet Prae content tears stained face, "I am scared, do you think I am selfish if I say i like your confession and promises!".

Ren shook his head and caressed her tears stained cheeks, "No! Not, Please allow me to handle everything, allow me to be your boyfriend, allow me to convince your family, allow me to take care of our baby if you decided to keep it" Ren voice out his request to Prae with an unresistible plead.

She just nodded her head and hugged him while whispered "You know my mind is screaming to me to throw you out because this journey going to be one bumpy path in my life, but my heart is saying to lock you up with me, is it because of my pregnancy or love? I don't know, but I like it, I like to be in your embrace". Ren nodded his head and kissed her cheeks with a deep grateful smile.

~~~~~~~~~~

Ren stood in front of the door "OK then bye" Ren said to her but he didn't move an inch from his place "close the door"; "don't open it for others"; "call me if you need anything" Ren don't know why he doesn't want to go but he know he can't request her to allow him to stay, they still need lot of talk to achieve the rights to stay.

"Call me even if you don't need nothing!" Saying this Ren turned to the door but Prae stopped him by clutching his shirt "Stay! I-i mean tomorrow we can go to the hospital together if you like it" Prae averted her eyes with a blush.

Ren grinned widely forgetting his misery and commented "sure, After all it rare to see you shy this much!" , Prae just slapped his arms and runs to her bedroom. Ren lay next to her "Did have your food, Ren?" Prae asked while adjusting her blanket. Ren nodded his head with a humm.

"Wait?!! What about Niya and Anu?" Prae asked in panic, "sh... relax I messaged her before coming here that I am staying in hospital so no problem". Prae nodded her head and closed her eyes.

Both lay facing each other, Ren stare prae face in that dim light, he feel happy that prae talked with him not like last time avoided him, he wants many answers from her but he can wait they have time..

"Don't stare Ren, it's creepy!" Prae said with closed eyes.

"Hmmm" Ren just smiled at the remark.

"Prae?"

"Hmm"

"Who else know you are pregnant?"

"Me and my 2 best friends"

"Is that doctor Beam your friend?"

"Yes, but No.. he is my senior and husband of our company lawyer who is also Kong cousin"

"You are working in?"

"Suthilack industries"

Ren just hummed, "who else know about us? I mean the whole act?".

"My friends, doctor Beam and his husband who helped to find out about you and Niya, they begged me to stop my act but I never listened" she said with a chuckle.

"Are you regretting it?."

"Yes but No... I don't know, maybe if I have a second chance to go to that night I will surely confess to you about the accident that happened between me and Niya, I will seek forgiveness from you who knows maybe we may get friends, love may also find its way if we are a destiny couple" Prae answers and opened her eyes at the end.

Ren nodded his head and said "Tomorrow I will tell my decision to Niya and my mom before the surgery, if possible I will also talk with Anu".

"Your promise is enough for me to wait so No rush, For Anu, we need to handle it differently, If it is okay I will accompany you while you talk with Anu, once after everything calm in your family I will take you to my mom, I don't have dad, she is a single mother, she was working for uncle David in Suthilack industries, he is the one who saved her and helped her, so other than my mom I have Kong family only".

"I am sorry for your mom, will you please tell me some more about your past?" Ren asked to Prae who smiled on her memories.

"I don't have any allergies like your Niya, I have 2 friends Kong and Wad, Kong is my diaper friend, he and I are of same age, we met Wad at our high school after that we three are together as friends until now, wad is living with his boyfriend, Kong is engaged to his cute and fierce P'arthit, he is our senior who I admired lot which Kong never likes.. haha. . But if it is not P'arthit and his friends i may dead by now......i.." Prae suddenly start to stutter feeling timid to continue.

"What is it?" Ren asked while rubbed her cheeks with his thumbs.

"I slapped my friend's boyfriend for torturing my friend in high school, that guy got angry because I slapped him in front of the whole school, I complained about him to the school with my friend, that guy tried to kill me when he saw me once alone in the cafe, I am lucky because our hazers were there to visit their friend, After seeing me hop in that guy car in unconscious state they followed us and helped me" Prae said in horror, the memory hunted her for years.

"Its okay" Ren said and hugged her making Prae to put her head on his chest.

"After that I always got tensed whenever a stranger approached me, but through some therapy and counseling I got fine with it, but whenever I tried to get intimate with others it always make me remember that time so I stopped dating anyone after that" Prae told him about her troubled days.

Ren lift her head by placing his finger on her chin, he kissed her lips with Prae tears wet the kiss, it's full of love and assurance, both stopped when they need a breath, when she try to hug him, he stopped her by smashing his lips against her, this time it's more than assurance, Ren explored her without a step but same time not going rough, he capture it in his mind.

When it's went too much sensual Prae moaned Ren name "Ren.." ... pulling from her lips Ren confessed "I missed you", "me to-----" . He stopped her again by connecting their lips for another long and deep kiss while tangling his legs with her.

Kong side:::

Kong ran and slammed his body on the lawn with heavy breathing, After trying so many times to concentrate on his work Kong got irritated and came to the nearby park in the evening, Arthit still didn't call him, that's fired Kong more.

Kong feels his life is surrounding by negative vibes, he decided to run to distract himself, he usually go for 10 rounds but today not even he runs 4 round his body gave up in exhaustion maybe its because he skipped his lunch or any food from the morning.

He drive to his home, he badly needs his lover embrace to calm his mind, Reaching the gate Kong entered and Parked his car inside, he enter the home and got surprised to see Arthit who is sitting on the couch with head back leaning against the couch with closed eyes.

"I am home P'arthit" Kong said while Arthit stood from his place, seeing Arthit's puffy eyes, red nose, messed up hair and crumbled tissue face Kong come to the conclusion that his fiance is sure cried buckets.

Arthit moved to the kitchen while saying "you look tired Kong, go and take shower, I will make dinner for us". Kong didn't follow his lover instructions instead he stopped Arthit "Stop Phi"

Arthit knows from the sound that Kong found that something is wrong with him and Kong won't leave him alone until he spit the truth, "Kong let's talk after dinner" Arthit tried to bargain with kong after seeing how much Kong is tired.

"No! Just answer my three questions" Kong said sternly.

Arthit gulped by Kong's coldness, he could see the seriousness in Kong's face clearly, so he nodded his head to go further.

"Is P'krsit is in hospital?"

"Yes"

"Is he sick? Anything serious?" Kong asked with a blank expression.

"No!" Arthit bite his lower lips in tension, he didn't like the way Kong is questioning him, it's always him who handle this method to inquiry Kong.

"Is P'krist... is P'krist pregnant?" Kong asked without showing his anxiety.

Arthit went paled, this is not how he want to reveal the news, "Kong the thing is...".

"Yes or No?" Kong asked while his eyes keenly studied Arthit's every movement, he can't stop the qualm spreading in his heart.

"... Kong...."

"Yes or No!" Kong yelled causing Arthit to flinch.

"Yes" Arthit said too softly and got a deafening yell from Kong to answer louder..

"Yes! I said yes kong! He is pregnant! He is carrying your child!" Arthit screamed to the silent house on Kong's face.

Kong world stopped, he can't able to process the fact that his whole life changed by his single mistake, before Arthit approach him he runs to their bedroom and locked it. Arthit knocked the door after following his lover.

Kong ears ignored Arthit pleading from outside the door, he slide to the floor and hugged his knees up to his chest and cried harder. Arthit pleaded continuously "Kong ... please open the door... Kong let's talk... I have a solution ... please ... please"

Arthit heard his junior's muffled cries, he runs downstairs and find the Spare key from the kitchen drawer. He opened the door and entered inside. He sat next to Kong and wrapped his arms on his shoulders.

Kong snuggled to Arthit shoulders when he feels the presence next to him, "shhhh..... stop it Kong... let's talk... " . Kong shook his head and whispered in horror "what will I do now P.. (sniff)... it's over ... our life (sniff). I messed up everything (sniff)..."

Arthit patted Kong's head while tighten his hold on kong shoulders and his other hand hold kong both hands tightly. "I am scared that you will leave me... (sniff).. I am scared to face .. (sniff) P'krist... I can't face ... aunt and uncle ... (sniff) after destroying their son's life.. (sniff).. I am scared you will hate me... I am afraid because I can't set back everything like before..(sniff)".

Arthit feels like someone clenching his heart seeing Kong's cries in his embrace, the always brave and strong junior crying in his embrace like a baby making his heart shuddered, suppressing his sobs Arthit confessed.

"I love you kong... I will never hate you or leave you... try to calm down otherwise you will not understand my words, we are fine, Krist is fine, and we all will be fine".

Kong just clutched Arthit shirt tightly in his fist and cried harder "No! Not ok! I spoiled his life, (sniff)...our life, I don't deser--". Arthit lifted Kong face and kissed his lips softly.

Arthit pour his love through his kiss, he wants to prove that they are still the same and he cares about Kong even more now. Kong tasted Arthit lips with his tears, he deepened the kiss in one go.

Arthit got shocked by the roughness but he didn't push Kong away, he knows Kong needs assurance from him that he is here with him after everything happened so he compiled and submitted himself willingly.

Kong senses Arthit surrender, he pulled away in guilt, even after everything his Phi is still trusting him and submitting himself.

It makes him doubt himself? did he deserve his lover forgiveness, he knows it's just a mistake nothing planned, yet, he can't help but blame his carelessness for this unsolvable mess.

He excused himself to the bathroom, Arthit stopped him by taking his wrist, "I will be back in 2 mins Phi" saying this Kong enter the bathroom and before he locked it Arthit stopped him and said "Don't lock it please". Kong nodded his head and closed the door without a lock.

He opened the shower after removing his dress, the water is too cold for Kong body that he shivered in chill, he ignored his body protest and apply the conditioner on his fingers, biting his lower lips he entered his 3 fingers to his hole in one go, the pain is too much for Kong to bear, the tiredness from running and constant stress made his body to lose his stamina.

But Kong wants it, he wants to please his boyfriend tonight to know if he is still in a trusted relationship, he punched the wall when his body feels dizzy, wrong move! since the punch is too strong his knuckles got hurt and start bleeds. His body finally slammed to the floor with a thud..

Thud... thud..

"Kong what happened?" Arthit asked while opening the door, he rooted on his place in shock, snapping out of it Arthit approached Kong when he heard kong groan in pain, "what the hell...(sniff) kong? OMG it's blood.... you moron!!".

Kong closed his eyes while saying "I just tried to prepare myself for yo----" . Arthit shook Kong by slapping on his cheeks but no response, he grabbed the towel hanging on the bathroom, he tied the towel around Kong's waist and moved the latter to bed.

He dried him up well, wrapping him with a blanket Arthit tucked Kong on the bed, he lay next to Kong and caressed the latter cheeks which got red by the cold water, past memories flows to Arthit mind..

FLASHBACK:::

"what's wrong? If you don't want we can stop Phi" Kong asked when he noticed Arthit mind is somewhere else during their intimate moment.

"Its... its... Kong shall we reduce having sex" Arthit asked to Kong who got upset at his lover words that he is mentioning their love moment as Sex. But he didn't show his hurt and asked back after a assent nod.

"OK Phi, but why are you suddenly saying this? Did you feel hurt anywhere? Or did i do something wrong?" Kong questioned him while he hugged Arthit making the latter head snuggled to his neck.

"..hmm.. That is,.. you know my colleague Pat, I mentioned you about how his boyfriend is like you so loving and caring person, they are one best couple i have know but the last 3 months Pat boyfriend start to request pat to try different things, pat too allowed him, soon it became torture for pat, he told me that his boyfriend went too rough and he is getting harm lot now a days, Today he seems so depressed, he told me that his boyfriend broke up with him because he loses his sparks with him that he no more feels special for him" Arthit said while his face clearly shows the dread he hold.

"Do you think I will do like Pat boyfriend Phi?" Kong asked with a disdain.

"No! But I don't want you to feel lost, I don't want our sparks gone, I don't have soft features like female to allure you life long, I am a man like you, if we do it more, then I might loss my pleasing skill and you may not feel satis---" Arthit was stopped by Kong.

"Stop it P! When will you stop comparing our relationship? Why don't you believe and register my words like you care about others or society words? Do you think I am with you for this? What do you want from me to prove that I am loving you and will not leave you for this? I even offered myself to you! But you rejected my offers! Last week when you got jealous seeing me with my classmate you showed me your dominance but stopped it halfway! Why? It's hurt me a lot, is it because I am not tempting like you?" Kong asked after moving to sit position, his demeanour clearly conveys how much he sour with the topic.

"I am sorry Kong, it's just I got frightened that you will leave me after making me fall for you, I don't want to lose you! You are the one who is working hard in our relationship, i can't be open like the way you want and show the love in-front of others like you dream, soon you are going to be big person in the society I don't want anyone to ridicule you in any way even for being bottom to me, that's why i offered my body to you, it's not like I don't want" Arthit confessed with more tears.

"Sorry P.. please don't cry.. please I never love it when you cry".. Kong stopped his arguments when he witnessed his lover tears.

"sorry Phi.. please.... then let's have once per month until we got married. And I will give you my precious body on our wedding night for you to taste, deal?" Kong asked while wink at the end.

Arthit just wiped his tears and went under the blanket silently while Kong tried to remove the blanket by saying "Phi, there is one more rule, 5 blowjob per week" Arthit throws the pillow on Kong's face in irritation.

Arthit smiled with tears, that night is the first night they both slept naked until morning without doing any naughty business, his memory recall stopped when he heard Kong murmur something inaudible, he placed his palm on Kong's forehead and flinched by the heat, he swiped Kong's sweats while calling the doctor.

Beam came after an half an hour and treated Kong, Arthit chewed his lower lip in worry when Kong hissed in pain while Beam treated him, "He needs plenty of rest and food... seeing his condition his fever will not go down in a day, so take care of him well" Beam said to Arthit who nodded his head with unshed tears.

"What about...." Arthit dragged his words awkwardly. "His nails scratched that area badly, he might did it in hurry, I placed the cream on the table next to your bed, Apply it for 2 days" Beam said to Arthit who once again nodded his head.

Before hopping in the car Beam said "I don't know what happened for you guys to come this stage but never stop fighting, face the struggle and yell at each other, talk with each other, I am sure one day everything will be back like before, god never betrays good people Arthit" Beam hugged Arthit with more comforting words.

"Beam please don't tell P'forth or his family, we need to be alone for some time" Arthit said to Beam who hopped on his car to drive away after assuring him "OK take care of you and him".

~~~~~~~~~

In the morning Kong blinked and opened his eyes to meet Arthit dark and puffy eyes staring him back, he closed his eyes and turned to face other side but flinched in pain when the throb hits, his body burning like fire, both his knuckles and back is sore.

Arthit moved his hand to take the pain relief cream from the side table, moving to the other side of the bed he takes Kong wounded hand on his hold and applied the cream to ease the pain. After done with the knuckles Arthit pulled the blanket down and sat between Kong's legs.

Kong noticed he was in his t-shirt only, before he could process further Arthit spread Kong legs apart and applied the cream slowly with his single finger, Kong hissed in pain when the cold cream touches his scratches, he arched his back hiding his face with his forearm.

Arthit leaves his lover side and entered the bathroom to wash his hands, Kong watched his lover every movements from his position, he wants to be alone so when Arthit try to lay next to him, he asked in his soft voice, "Phi I want to be---...".

Arthit cut him off by "No! I will not leave you alone". He sat next to Kong lifeless body, "But P--.." Kong was once again got cut in the middle. "If you want to see me in the hospital then throw me out from here!" Arthit challenged Kong who closed his mouth.

When Arthit leaned to kiss the latter forehead Kong moved his face away, he leaves from there before he snaps at Kong for his ridiculous behavior, he filled the bowl with porridge and went upstairs again.

"Move" Arthit ordered him while helping the latter to sit, Kong zipped his mouth tightly and turned his face to other side, Arthit gritted his teeth in anger while his hand clenched the spoon hardly, but he controlled himself and begged him which he knows will win Kong heart.

"Please... " Arthit voice brings pain to kong who opened his mouth and ate the food, in the middle he stopped Arthit by grabbing his wrist, he turned back the spoon to Arthit mouth who shook his head after understanding Kong's intention.

Kong tears is enough to melt Arthit and take a bite from the food, both finished the remaining porridge with tears running on their face, placing the bowl aside Arthit slapped on Kong's cheeks not too hard, and punched the chest area continuously with his fist "Why? What did I do for you to torture me by hurting yourself?"

Kong voice sounded so weak to Arthit "I... is P'krist gonna abort the child?" Kong asked barely audible. Arthit wiped his tears and feels glad that finally kong get interested in the baby "No kong, we decided to keep i-----".

"No"..

"What?"

"Convince him to abort it or break up with me P'arthit"

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