You saw that gel drop from his lap as he got up and rushed out, and you gasped.

Was he trying to help you?

A pungent smell and kind of prickly sensation from your shoulder was the answer. He had tried to help you but you misunderstood him. Your heart started aching as you realised your mistake.

Your head was a mess. You hated him but you also felt guilty about everything that had happened.

You went out to look for him but he was gone already. You knew your family and his too would be coming over to see your so called "happy home". Something that never existed. Happiness and home both were lost things to you. So you took a cab and went to the beach instead.

The waves crashed at your feet and you closed your eyes, looking up.

Lost.

You were so lost, with so many questions and no answers.

Who am I?

What am I looking for?

Would there be anyone who loves me?

You stayed there, until the day lost its light. People came and went away and you just sat there, looking at the horizon with empty eyes.

You went home pretty late but there was no sign of Jimin. You kept waiting until 11 pm and that's when you heard someone cursing at the door. You went to open the door and saw him with dishevelled hair and loose buttons, reeking of alcohol.

"You did it again?" you yelled at him as he entered the house.

"Don't wanna talk to you" he mumbled.

"Look at me!" You held his arm but he just pushed you away and you fell backwards. Your back hit a crystal vase and it broke. You looked up at him with resentment, your lips trembling and there it was again, that guilt and regret.

"Don't!" he walked towards you and you thought he was going to hit you but instead he punched the shards of glass "Hurt my wife! Don't hurt her!"

"Jimin stop! You're hurting yourself!" you held his arm but he wasn't stopping. He tried to pull his arm away from you and ended up hitting you in the eye with his elbow accidentally. You fell back, crying in pain.

He stopped and looked at you, then he looked at his blood drenched hands and he laughed miserably.

"See?" he said " I always end up doing the worse. I'm always the bad person. I wanna let go but I can't. I just wanna fucking die but I can't because of my mother. I tried today but I couldn't when I thought of her. And you... I wanted a perfect home for us... But look at us... look at us..."

"Jimin..." you reached out to him. You were in pain but more so mentally and emotionally because of how broken he looked. You were never raised to be a cruel person and in that moment you could see his pain clearer than your own.

He had his own pain, and his own story. You didn't have to make him miserable because of what Jungkook had done to you.

"Let me help you, hmm?" you cupped his face and he tilted his head to a side, as if looking at a stranger.

"B-but I'll end up hurting you..."

"You won't. Come with me..." you held his arm and helped him stand up. You walked him towards the car and as soon as his head touched the headrest, he fell asleep.

You drove towards the hospital, taking glances at him. He looked like a little baby with tear stained face and lips slightly apart. You couldn't help but feel sorry for him. There must be something bothering him too, something must be hurting him too... you thought.

You rushed him to the emergency and had the doctor check him. You were told that he would be getting stitches in both hands and you had to get a ton of medicine from the store before they could discharge him.

You went and asked the pharmacist to give you the medicines. While he was looking up through the shelves, you heard a voice that seemed familiar.

"Dude just get the drugs, your T Cell count is below 100"

"I hate this fucking virus"

"Does he know you have it?"

The familiar voice laughed, bitterly.

"Oh he'll know. He'll know when I transfer it to him. He'll know when his world goes dark like mine did"

"This is so wrong. It's not his fault you got HIV"

"But he'll pay for it. If he had not used me like that, I would've never let all those other men..."

"Miss, here is your bill and the medicines" the pharmacist turned to you before you could hear more.

The voices were so familiar and their conversation bothered you so much. Someone's life was at risk but you didn't know who. After paying the pharmacist, you went to look and see who they were, hoping you could stop them but they had left.

You went back to Jimin and took him to the house. You tucked him in and looked at his beautiful face that had a little frown.

"My heart is so broken, I can't feel alive again but let's see if I can help you be happy. I may break... but I won't let you carry the burden of my pain. Your mother loves you so much, I can't be the reason she loses you. I may never be able to become your lover but let's try and see if we can be friends"

You stayed by his side and heavens know in what moment, you fell asleep but when you woke, you were staring at Jimin's wide eyes as you found yourself lying on top of him.

"IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK!" you yelled, getting up.

He cleared his throat and got up too. He looked down at his hands and sighed.

"I got drunk again? Please tell me I didn't hurt you?" he asked you in a broken voice.

"N-no, you didn't. And I'm sorry yesterday I thought you were.. um... trying to you know..."

"You... I..." he looked overwhelmed "I-I am sorry too for whatever I did when I was drunk. I didn't mean any of that... I would never hurt you intentionally..."  He looked into your eyes, so deep you thought you would get lost.

"Um, go wash yourself you stink" you pinched your nose.

He smelled his shoulder instinctively and you smiled at how cute he looked. You asked and went to the kitchen to fix a breakfast for the both of you but after a while you remembered his both hands were injured. You slapped your forehead and went to the washroom.

"Uh..." he turned towards you and looked at his hands then back at you.

"Yah! You're going to strain your wounds! I'm not taking you to hospital again!" you yelled.

"Then help me instead of standing there and scolding me"

"Huh? Okay... So.. um... how do you do this?" you said getting closer to him.

"Take my shirt off"

"WHAT?"

He raised an eyebrow.

"Oh, Okay." you winced as you got closer to him. Slowly you opened his buttons and he spread out his arms so you could slide his shirt off. You looked up at his face and saw him watching you with such an intense gaze your breath hitched. You looked down again and saw his perfect abs and that v-line.

Shit.

You slowly slid the shirt down and threw it to the laundry basket.

"Okay bye" you waved a hand and turned around.

"y/n??" he called out your name with that hot, needy voice of his and you bit your lip, clenching your eyes shut. You turned around to face him and he motioned towards his toothbrush.

You hissed and picked it up. You put a hand on his shoulder and pushed him back, making him sit on the edge of the tub. You turned on the tap for the warm water, letting the tub fill while you brushed his teeth.

"Open up"

He did, staring up at you.

"Stop staring at me"

"I don't know where else to look"

You cleared your throat and started brushing his teeth aggressively. When it was done, you put his brush back.

"Get in the tub and don't move. Just sit there like that with your hands above the water and uh, maybe use your feet to rub places you can reach" you dropped two bath bombs in the tub and tried to shimmy out of there.

He sighed.

"How am I supposed to take off my pants?"

"I DON'T KNOW OKAY?"

"Guess I'll do it myself" he stood up.

"No wait, ughhhh" your hands flew to his jeans and you opened his button, biting down your lips and holding your breath. Then you pulled down his zipper slowly while your heart drummed louder than .

You pulled his jeans down and he stepped out of them.

"I'm not going to look" you told him.

"I don't mind if you do"

"You want me to drown you in the tub or something?"

In response he just shrugged. With eyes closed you slid down his boxers, and kept your eyes clenched shut as if your life depended on it. You heard his footsteps walk away and splashing of the water in the tub. You turned around, opening your eyes.

"At least wash my hair" you heard him behind you.

"Just say you want me to touch you all over"

"I want you to touch me all over"

"W-what?"

"You just told me to say it!"

"Wahhh look at this man go, huh? Look at the nerve!" you said as you grabbed the shampoo bottle and poured a generous amount onto your hands. You rubbed it onto his scalp and made sure a little goes into his eyes.

"Yah, y/n-ah!" he yelped. You just smiled evilly, enjoying him trash around his legs until he dug his teeth in your shirt and pulled you down. You fell in to the tub, landing in his lap with a loud splash.

"Uh-oh" you said as you looked into his warm eyes, his hands held awkwardly at both of your sides and his beautiful lips so near to yours.

A/N:
Thank you sweetie pie for this beautiful cover 😍😍😍

And also thanks @sugasunkownfan for this amazing cover 😍😍😍

Tysm @celeste226  this cover is lovely 😍😍😍