Dear Ayla,

I am you but I'm currently living in a parallel universe. Well, to be honest, hindi ko alam kung nag e-exist ka ba talaga o meron ba talagang parallel universe katulad ng mga kumakalat sa social media lately. But the thing is—I'm really desperate here.

I want to talk to you about Jason. Yes, si Jason---yung gagong lalaking yun na ipinaglihi ata sa bayani kaya masyadong naging dakila sa atin.

Jason, the guy who did nothing but to love me but I hurt him in return.

Sobrang tanga ko, Ayla. Naging bulag ako sa maraming bagay. I took him for granted and now, he's gone.

I have been so toxic to him. Lagi ko siyang inaaway over some petty things. Pag stress ako sa trabaho, sa kanya ko ibinubuntong lahat ng stress ko. Hindi ko na rin mabilang kung ilang beses na akong nakapag bitiw ng masasakit na salita sa kanya. Pero hinahayaan ko lang. Hindi ko sinubukang magbago. Kasi lagi naman siyang nandiyan sa tabi ko, eh. Never ako iniiwan. Never akong sinusukuan.

Pero nawala sa isip ko na tao lang din siya at napapagod din.

I still remember the day we broke up. Parang gago pa ang panahon nun na tila nang-aasar kasi ang lakas ng ulan. Hindi ko na maalala kung ano ang pinag awayan namin, pero eto na naman ako, binitiwan ang mga salitang 'break na tayo.' I never meant it. Lagi lang lumalabas sa bibig ko 'yun kada nag aaway kami, pero never ko naman talaga tinotoo, eh. At never din siyang pumayag na mag break kami.

But that day was different. Nung binitiwan ko ang mga salitang 'yun, ayun ang unang beses na sinabi niyang pagod na siya. Na oo nga, baka nga dapat na mag break na kami. He left me that day. Sumugod siya sa ulan na walang payong, basta lang makalayo siya.

Hindi ko siya hinabol.

At hindi na rin siya bumalik.

Ngayon, ikakasal na siya sa iba at sobrang sakit dahil ang dami dami kong bagay na pinag sisisihan.

Sana hinabol ko siya nung araw na 'yon. Sana hindi ako nakipag away. Sana hindi ko sinabing mag break na kami.

Sana naging better girlfriend ako sa kanya because he deserves someone who will treat him right.

Ang sakit dahil hindi ako yun.

Kaya Ayla, please don't do the same mistake that I did. Sana kayo pa ni Jason ngayon. Sana mahalin mo siya nang husto, alagaan, at wag na wag mo siyang papakawalan.

Please be the better girlfriend for him. Gawin mo ang mga bagay na hindi ko nagawa para sa kanya.

Para man lang diyan, sa universe kung saan kayo nakatira, at least masaya kayong dalawa.

Love,

Ayla from the Parallel Universe

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Dear Ayla from the Parallel Universe,

This is Jason from another universe and I am really mind blown right now to have read your letter. I was not expecting that this shit is real. Until now I can't wrap my head around the idea that I'm reading your letter from another dimension.

Anyway, if this is true and not a prank, (I swear I'll kill you if this is a prank though), I don't know why your letter got sent to mine instead of Ayla's. But your letter came during the time I needed it the most.

You see, my life here has been a wreck. I am not like the Jason from your dimension. In this universe, I am the jerk one here.

Ayla in this universe is the kindest soul. God knows how much she loves me. Ang tarantado ko lang because I failed to take care of her.

Like you, we have also been in a fight. I am the one who broke up with her but in the end, hindi ko pala kaya.

I tried to bring her back, I tried to fix things, but I'm already too late because she's so done with me. And now, she already married someone.

The emptiness I've felt when she left me was so big and so deep. Kahit anong gawin ko, no one and nothing can fill that void.

I have nothing but regrets.

But after I read your letter, I felt lighter because at least I know, the parallel universe me loves you with all his heart and took care of you. At least now I know the me in that universe was able to do all the things I wasn't able to here.

Even though you didn't end up together, I'm still glad that he gave his all to love you.

And as a consolation, Ayla in this universe loves me too so much, more than her own life.

Maybe it's time for us to forgive ourselves and move on.

Let's do better next time, Ayla from the parallel universe.

Love,

Jason

~ Fin ~