Yeah.. Well Shawn's friends live an hour awayfrom here. His friends are friends with people a my school. So I guess I should've known. I wish I won't see him.

I tried to forget about it and got ready for the party. My mom was trilled raise it was my first party even know I'm seventeen.

My mom gave me a lift to the party. I arrive at seven twelve. I entered in the house and too many people were there I couldn't find Emma. I was looking everywhere. And then. What shouldn't happened. Happened. I saw Shawn. I wasn't sure if he saw me so I tried to find Emma

Someone hit me on the shoulders. I turned around and thank god it wasn't Shawn but Emma. She saw that I didn't look okay.

-what's wrong Sara ?
- well.. Do you mind if we spy on Shawn
- no I like spying on people.

We got close to him but not too much so he couldn't come and talk to us. Shawn looked so depressed. His friends were having so much fun and it looked like they were trying to help him have fun.. Like they wanted him to forget something. He was sitting on a chair beside his friend.

He received a call and he answered. He seemed upset. The music was too loud to hear anything but it looked like he was almost screaming to the person on the phone.. Then he started to cry and got outside the house.

Me: Emma, I need to go check on him. , I screamed.
Her: it's fine I'll go with Bethany (which is her friend)

I followed Shawn. He went outside. I went outside too. I saw him with his back on the garage door and was crying. He was still on the phone  but was only listening. Then after a minute he said : I can't do this.. I'm sorry, bye.

I couldn't resist to go talk to him.

- Shawn?
- I'm sorry but I really don't want to fight with you right now, I'm already tired of everything
He paused. He wiped his tears
- oh Shawn..

I gave him a hug. At first he seemed surprised but then he put his arms around me. 

-I missed this so much, he said.
-I can't say I don't .. But Shawn you have a girlfriend now.
-no I don't anymore.
-what???
- I breakup with her.
- why ??
- because I couldn't get you out of my mind and it was unfair to her.
- I feel bad
-don't.
-Shawn I'm not ready to
He didn't let me speak.
-i know. I just couldn't stay with her while I was thinking at you.
- so .. We're do you live now?
- well she kept the apartment so I'm staying with my parents.
- I you need a place.. There's always my basement..
- like old time
- yeah ... Like old time.
- do you mind if I stay at your place tonight because I'm an hour away from home and I don't feel like being with my friends I just want to be alone.
-yeah it's fine.

I texted Emma to say I was going home. She said it was fine. Shawn and I took a cab and went to my house.

I took a shower and went to sleep and Shawn went to sleep downstairs.

I woke up at midnight I think. I heard my door open and wondered if there was a killer in my room. I put the blankets on my head and closed my eyes.

-it's just me.

I didn't recognized the voice.

- it's Shawn.
-Shawn! You scared me!
-I'm sorry.. I can't sleep.
-ok...
-can I stay with you?
-uh.. Ok but not close please.
- promise

He lay beside of me but I made sure my skin wasn't touching his.