nineteen: heartbeat

"I know me before you was a ready made me. But you designated me and you did resume me. I've been calling your name in this whole universe (Now I need no space) I got youniverse."

//

"Elianna, come here."

the said female shifts her eyes to the man who's calling her. he's across the room, still neatly suited with his skinny waist and sharp shoes on show. they dance along the floor, gliding smoothly as he waves his hand at her. her eyes cast across his appearance, taking in his starry eyes and soft murmur. it reminds her of when she'd be beneath him, above him and equally at his level. his eyes have a certain power over her, fluttering eyelashes and stars that were picked uniquely from the vast universe.

she raises her brows and looks away when he says nothing. the same confused expression lands on her face again because the boy repeats his calling with a playful facial expression, "Elianna Elianna Elianna."

she looks at him again, bronze eyes glinting with amusement before she makes her way over to the boy. she shamelessly looks him up and down, blushing when she notices Jungkook doing the same. she stands in front of him, waiting for Jungkook to speak but he doesn't.

he just stares so she imitates, "Jungkook Jungkook Jungkook."

the boy is sober, she thinks. it's hard to tell when Jungkook is drunk because he's quiet and well spoken as always. "i was really stupid..." he starts, staring down at her with big eyes. he licks his lips, biting down as he gathers his thoughts. "how could i ever think i could live without you?" he sighs.

he leans forward, head resting on her shoulder as his slightly sweaty and messy hair strokes her face. it doesn't last long because he moves away, brushing his hair away from his forehead. he lets out a deep breath, eyes squinting with a smile on his face.

Elianna tries not to lean into Jungkook who's skinny arms seem very inviting. she pulls her reddening lips into her mouth when she notices the two of them are staring at each other. just the way they used to at college parties, so much has changed. now that all is fixed, what does this mean for them?

"we've both been miserable huh?" the words float in the atmosphere between them. as well as recognition of their feelings, there's also intimacy and a clear solution...

"there's only one solution."

Jungkook looks hopeful and stands dangerously close to her. "which is?" the music fades.

"to kick your balls."

Jungkook's innocent, chestnut eyes widen in unexpected surprise. he lifts his hands, silver rings gleaming beneath the matching spotlights. "oh god, please don't." he genuinely looks scared but amused and the fear doesn't fade when the girl smiles.

"i'm kidding." Elianna sighs and pushes her hands against his chest. she allows herself to do what she wants to do and feel what she feels. after all, this is Jungkook. he isn't just anyone, he's the one for her and maybe, it's time their hearts joined again. they deserve their happy ending right? "i love you." she breathes out, letting the truth slip from her lips finally.

Jungkook stares with big eyes, stuttering with his words. his shyness slams into his body as he gulps harshly. he takes Elianna's cold hands off his chest and into his, thumb gliding over her knuckles as his heart swells into a puddle of common affection and desire. "w-what, wait really?" he asks, chest moving up and down as he looks at her directly in the eye. "i love you Elianna, holy shit. someone pinch me," he mumbles. "i'll say it over and over again now."

he pulls her closer, into his chest as his arms wrap around her as if it was their sole life purpose. "Elianna," she hums in response. "i'd love it if you could give me a chance again."

"i never stopped loving you." the boy chokes out, long term emotions on show as he sighs. Elianna can sense the pain and struggle in the tone of his homely voice, it's gentle but it's one that makes her feel pitiful.

"me too Kook, me too." she reassures him and squeezes his hands. "let's finally get the good side of love yeah?" Elianna leans forward and captures the boy's lips with hers.

//

Z E L D A

once upon an ending, i discovered that love wins.

love wins, regardless of what shape, size or format it is portrayed in. whether it's the power of friendship, past fixations and romantic love.

love is the best solution to anything.

why would anyone act with hate?

when i look in Jimin's eyes, i see everything that i deserve and he told me he sees the same thing. it never used to be that way. it's healthy and gentle, with the taste of longing, when we live together, when we communicate and even when we argue- we breathe.

our child was delivered beautifully too. as soon as i felt her in my arms, i cradled her with motherly love i had never experienced myself. i looked at her closed, confused eyes and saw everything i deserve too.

every tear that fell was full of love and my heart exploded into a blissful and affectionate firework when i saw my husband take a picture. our friends surrounded us at once and all i could see was love.

i see love when Maeve and Yoongi kiss or like the time she stopped the boy from fighting a stranger at a bar. she wrapped her arms under his, bringing him into her chest. he seemed so vulnerable as he let himself be held. there's dark moments in life but a hug can help.

they live together now, have no thoughts of marriage or children but every time they wake up and fall asleep, "goodnight love." holds love.

the maze had found an ending.

i witness love when Namjoon and Jin moved on from each other to find who they were and their potential to be more in the world. although they didn't work out, there's love in every shoulder pat and words of encouragement. there's past but also a future.

love is there when Hoseok dances and instructs passionate and cheeky children in his spacious studio. it's shown when he moves a kid's arm gently, thanks a parent for bringing them before making his way home.

and there is so much love in what he calls home because he arrives to his wife in translation on the phone, pregnant with another as she assists Esmerelda who is growing.

they live their life how they want to, not according to what father's say or stopped saying.

Talulah and Taehyung had their ups and downs like every couple, arguing in the streets before dragging the other into a heated kiss. then one day, the boy proposed and they made the effort to make it work. they didn't want to lose each other again so they worked hard and that is love.

and i smile every time i see Talulah come into the office, drop me off to the florist as she bumps her shoulder into her husband's.

Shira and Hussain started off awkwardly but doesn't everything in life? then as inevitable time passed, things were gotten used to and now Shira is pregnant with a family to look forward to. she continues to pursue her career in accounting, not letting go of what makes her independent and successful as a woman.

"you're all my family too." she says.

i'm going to now leave you to read the ending scene of this universe...

Elianna makes her way down the streets of the places she's grown accustomed to. street lamps, busy faces and a distant park greets her back. the comfortable home of her heart is on her sleeve as she shakes out her hair and unzips her leather jacket.

she steps in front of the glass door, taking a moment to pause as she collects her thoughts and feelings. there's no negativity or nervousness, it feels just right to be doing this.

she pushes the glass door open, eyes glancing at the open sign before she's met with familiar faces, clinking of tea cups and a warm atmosphere she's been deprived of for years. she's finally here, in Two Euphoric Hearts.

Elianna and Jungkook make eye contact from across the dreamy cafe, fluttering and excited butterflies stirring emotions in their bodies as they share a smile. the stubborn female has finally visited the cafe that belongs to her lover. after all, she is the one who inspired him to chase his dreams.

"welcome to Two Euphoric Hearts!"

//

what a journey :"(

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