"Fuck!!"

For the twelfth time today, I'm trying to clear an error on my client's hard drive but I seem to run into another issue every time. This shit is making me crazy. Hell, everything is making me crazy lately. For, oh I don't know, the past sixty days or so.

"Fuck, fuck!!"

My assistant comes running in.

"Solomon what's going on? I've never seen you struggle like this." Calvin looks at me, peering over the rim of his glasses, concern in his eyes.

I growl at him, "This shit is pissing me off! I can't figure this thing out to save my life!"

He comes around behind me, and glances at the configuration on the screen.

"Um, why don't you take a break for a bit Solomon and let me look at it."

Rising from my chair and running my hand across the stress that's been residing on my neck lately, I nod.

"Yeah ok, I think I'll do that."

Calvin glances over his shoulder at me for a second and says, "Better yet, while you're at it, why don't you just knock off for the day. I've got this stuff covered."

I toss that around my mind and agree. "Ok, you're right. I need to just step away. Thanks man...I'll see you Monday."

Jumping in my truck, I grab my phone, which I've done a million times since getting back. She could find me if she wanted but apparently, she doesn't want to.

Fuck man. I need to get out of my own damn head, and I know what my next move will be. It's good to have friends and I definitely need to release some of this damn tension that's been eating at me lately, so I make that call.

"Hey what's going on Kat? Can I swing by?"

Katya is a good friend that I've known for years. We hook up every so often, no strings attached and then go on about our lives. It works for us.

Pulling up to Kat's condo, I sit in my truck for a bit, staring out the windshield.

I don't really want to be here. But I feel like I need to keep trying...trying to get Victoria out of my head. Sometimes it seems like she's holding me captive, and I don't know how to make it stop.

Knocking on Kat's door, she swings it wide with a welcoming smile. "Hey there handsome, long time no see. I was beginning to think I wouldn't have the pleasure of your company again."

Something on my face, makes her expression change immediately. Kat reaches for my hand and pulls me inside. "Uh oh, what's going on Solomon?"

Plopping onto her sofa, I watch her go straight into the kitchen to pour me a drink.

She hands me the glass and looks at me with soft eyes. "Talk to me babe, what is it?"

And I spill my guts, telling her everything. Everything about Grenada, everything about Victoria.

"Well, well..." she looks at me with a soft smile. "It looks like your little vacation adventure, turned into a big adventure, with some feelings sparking up, huh? There's nothing wrong with that. Have you called her?"

Staring into the drink I have yet to taste, I swirl the amber liquid and shake my head.

"She's much better than me Katya. Her friends see it so I'm sure she does too. All she wanted was a vacation to do something she'd never done before." I pause, sighing deeply, "And that's what I gave her...a good time."

Kat stares at me intently for a few seconds and places her hand on my arm. "Ok, look Solomon, it seems to me like you did something I've never known you to do...you let your feelings in. If you are interested in this woman, which from the looks of things, you are, then you need to find her. Tell her how you feel."

But I shake my head, "No, I just need to try to go on with my life, like I'm sure she's done. Besides, Kat, if she wanted to see me, don't you think she would've called me? We have mutual friends. She could get in touch with me as easy as I could her and trust me, this has been some crazy shit for me. I talk myself out of reaching out almost daily."

Looking at my friend, I give her a soft smile. "I need to move on I guess." Tossing back my drink, I sit the empty glass on the table and pull Kat into my lap, so she straddles me.

My head falls back onto the sofa, as her hands go straight to my hair, watching me closely. "I've never seen you like this babe. You sure about this?"

I silence her by placing my fingers on her pretty mouth. Kat gives me a smile, licks my fingers, and proceeds to undo my belt.