Raidah's PoV

Things are not moving here, he is furious yet and there is not a little betterment that has happened. Even though he said 'it's Okay' i know he didn't mean a niche of it. He is cold towards me.

The sun is bright today.

He pulls the curtains close. He is getting reading to go to work, it is a pity he has to go all the way to the city to work and come back by night. It a long tiring journey. I try to help him but I know a little about his needs.

"Raidah keep the curtains close and avoid leaving the room"

He says strictly.

I nod. Why does he keeps me away from the family?

Latifa and Sana, his brother's wives; they do everything for me like get me food at all three times in my room,they take care of me basically but he has forbidden me to know them. I'm stuck cause if I don't get to be in the family I won't be a part of the family.

"Baraaq are you still mad at me?"

It was more request than a question for him to stop being with me the way he was.

"No, why do you say that"

He replied angrily.

I sigh. I heard him mumble and make a face as he jerked his head and grit his teeth. Unbelievable.

"I hate this as much as you"

I muttered.

He heard it,maybe I wanted him to hear it.

He frowned at me and turned away.

"Absolutely"

He said as he wore his shoes like all the time still ignoring me.

I should calm down. If he is fire, be water. I took a deep breath and sat beside him and placed my hand on his shoulder.

"I want to make this work, I am heartily sorry Baraaq"

I stated lovingly.

Instead he laughed. An uncertain laugh.

"Sorry as sorry you were to marry me and is this how you make up with all men when they are mad with you,have you been sorry this same way to him as you are to me; then tell me did he forgive you?"

My breath could not make it,I swallowed after a long silence. What does he mean? I didn't knew what he was saying but my eyes were filled water and lips began to swell. I am heart broken and I am trying,why is he saying such shallow things about me?

I shook my head and started crying. I don't want to live with him! I hate him!

"I hate you!"

I said as I rushed and threw my bag open.

"You leave wherever you want to! I don't care about you! Go to your Boyfriend and rejoice! Tell him what he wanted would soon come!"

I couldn't believe,I waited my whole life for this man! This very man who is standing here humiliating me.....I stayed loyal to him wen didn't even existed to me and now he is honoring me with a salute of a disloyal badge to me!

Why..? How was foolish as I to think that my wait would be worth!

I stormed out of the room and the curse humiliation doubled with everyone watching me leave crying and dragging my bag on my own.

Disloyal! Boyfriend! What the hell is wrong with him!

I sat in the car and cried and cried. He sat in and drove me to mum's place. It was a long way and he didn't console me a bit. He didn't bother to ask me or tell m about what he has just labelled me up with. I cried and cried.

I raised my head only when I saw my house and got out of my car and tripped over my Abaya and had a fall on the floor. He just sat there motionless.

I got up myself and ran inside my room. Rumii came in but I was way to broken to explain.

When I heard mum I shook my head to Rumii, don't tell her,don't let her know!

She went outside and I could hear mum ask her.

"I heard someone come in"

"No mum, nobody's here. Might have heard the cat jumping or"

"Oh-kay close the door darling"

She came and I went inside the bathroom and locked myself. She kept knocking but I'd don't wanted her to see me in such a state, such a pitiful state.

At last when my tears dried up,I stood up numb.

I opened door,saw Rumii's face all red and sore.

Don't cry Rumii,don't cry. But everybody will be hurt if I won't be strong.

"Please Raidah! Tell me what happened!"

She begged.

"Did you tell mum I'm here?"

I enquired.

"No..she's not well"

"Don't tell her,I'm fine Rumii. Did you take her to the doctor?"

"No..she says she has the medicines,she'll be fine. Raidah please tell me"

"I'm alright. Just don't tell mum I came. I'm leaving. Take care Rumii"

"No! Raidah! Where are you leaving in such state! Look at you! Please raidah!"

I couldn't hold in but I took a deep breath and hugged her and marched outside.

She kept pulling me but I kept walking.

I am so foolish,I shouldn't have come home. I have worried Rumii! Allah please help me!

I walked a few blocks away,distant from my home and my brother's to be far enough.

I called Baraaq,he didn't pick my call.

I can't go all the way by myself. I called him a couple of times again till I had no choice.

I took a cab and left for his place. I cannot stay at mum's. She would pull down the world. And everybody would know about me,us and this unsuccessful marriage. And maybe it is my fault. I cry knowing that's it not all mine but I kept saying that to myself to make it believe because I had to face him and apologize;even though I don't want to. Because there is no other way o make it work but with these Twisted Apologies.

Khadeeja's PoV

I am working in the kitchen when my mother informs me there would be Samara's friends coming to see me. I have prepared a likewise meal. Mostly snacks and good dessert. They came in early and are sitting in the living room with the girls are their mother who are friends with mum.

I join in with fresh drinks for everybody and presented myself a little better than I usually do.

It was not long before I eventually got bored. I would get up every now and then to get them something and find excuses to rather stay in the kitchen. Maybe I'm not very friendly.

They are not talking to me but each one to the other except me. I thought better than a mum mould in their party I am better out.

But periodically I had to be seen as they came home to 'see me'.

"She's your cousin right?"

Thankfully one of her friend gave me a notice.

"Yes"

Samara cheerfully answered.

"Is she the one that was very good at make up?"

She asked as all the attention shifted at me.

"No,that's Janaziah actually. Her younger sister"

"Oh.."

She hissed.

"Oh then she might be the one who designs jewelry!"

Another one exclaimed.

The point of humiliation I felt knew no bounds.

"That's raidah,the other one!"

Samara answered laughing and cross smiling.

"Oh..then what she does?"

She asked offensively.

"She cooks really good food"

Samara said after a long thinking.

"Yes the food is delicious"

An aunt exclaimed.

"Oh Jana cooks such great food as well and Raidah too,should have you try her desserts"

Mum interjected in between.

As I could see Samara suppressing her smile they became half visible like my tears.

Why are they insulting me like this?

I apologized and left. Even though I didn't want to but sobs left me.

Raidah's PoV

I have apologized and explained him things. Completely baseless we're his allegations,he checked my text and found Charlie's messages and with that my reply that I was married and I was sorry. He misinterpreted the message, I was sorry for him and not for my marriage with Baraaq. He nods, I don't know if he's convinced or it will take me some more sleepless nights.

"Baraaq the only person I wish to love is you"
I stated as I sighed.

"Maybe we should start over"
He says as he rests his head on the pillow.

I would love that.

"So do you like Chinese food?"
I asked.

"It's too late I wanna sleep, I have some really important work tomorrow"
He utters dryly and turned away.

Oh-Kay how I'm I supposed to feel about this?