I never knew I would ever be able to have friends again. It's been 3 years since I have even had anyone my age to talk to. Sunday was...an interesting day for me. I never really...cared about people until now. I guess middle school was just a cruel, cruel environment for me.

*Flashback* Middle school. 

"(Y/n)!" yelled a girl behind me, tackling me from behind. Her name was Anika. She had burgundy hair and sparkling gray eyes. "Hey! They're selling some leftover pizza for lunch! Want me to buy some for you?". I smiled at her. She was always so loyal and generous. 

"Nah. I'll go buy it myself. Shouldn't you go finish your math test? Lunch is almost over."

She shook her head. "I'm pretty sure I got a good grade, even if I didn't finish it."

 We were walking down the hallway, holding hands, searching for our art class. As we entered, we noticed that there was a new student in our class. She had a short bob with caramel hair and hazel eyes. She noticed that we were staring at her and she gave us a small smile. 

"She seems nice. Should we introduce ourselves?" suggested Anika. "I don't see why not." I replied. As the new girl was sitting on her desk reading a book, Anika and I both approached her while giving smiles. "Hi! My name is Anika! This is (y/n). I guess we are in the same class from now on!" Anika introduced while gesturing to me. She placed her book down on the desk and looked up at us. "Nice to meet you. I'm Miki".

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Only a day has past and all three of us became instant friends. We hung out later after school at her house. Her house was fairly close to mine so I managed to walk the whole way. Once I arrived at her house, I knew instantly, just by the look of her house, that she was a rich girl. I rang the doorbell (which was an actual bell!) and Miki arrived at the door with a grin on her face. I noticed that when she glanced at me, her frown vanished. Pretending I didn't notice, I blurted: "Hi Miki"! 

"Hey. Uhm, isn't Anika with you?" she questioned.

"Well, she had a dance recital today so she wasn't able to make it. But lucky for you, I still came! I needed to avoid doing homework" I explained.

"So, I'm technically just an excuse for you to come? I was expecting both of you to come here. Nevermind. I have some stuff to do too. Lots of homework. Bye!" she spoke in circles. But before I could ask her if she needed help with her homework, she slammed the door on me. Startled by the sudden attitude change in Miki, I walked home, pondering if I did anything wrong. 

The next day, we had a science assignment in which we had to do in a group of 3. Anika and I had already planned our group of three. Once the teacher let us loose for choosing partners, we scurried to Miki. But Miki already had a partner. "Oh! I have an idea! How about we take Anika and (y/n) can go with the geek group over there!" exclaimed Miki while pointing to a group of unattractive boys. Everyone laughed, thinking it was a joke. Including me. 

I wish I hadn't. I ended up with "Bernard" and "Carson" as my partners. 

It took me a while to realize that Miki was only using me to bring Anika closer to her. But being the loyal and optimistic person I was, I kept pretending my feelings didn't matter. 

Miki would get blamed for things and I would be the victim. I pretended it didn't hurt me. She would force me and Anika to do things that we have never done before. But neither Anika and I were her maturity age.

She would taunt me as a joke. She would push me around. Whenever I would ask her to stop, she would jeer at me some more. Anika never stood up for me anymore. She stood aside and pretended not to notice. I kept up with it for a while but I knew that this was not a good spot for me to be in. I decided that they were a horrible group choice to hang around and I shouldn't be bothered by them anymore. I left and tried to look for new friends. 

Nobody wanted to even look at me. Every time I would walk down the hallway, they would laugh and stare at me. I was known as "Miki's Pet" or "Miki's follower" or "an uncontrolled Miki minion that tries her best to be part of the group but eventually gave up to become a loser that walks the empty halls of the middle school". I was a nobody. Miki had spread many uncontrollable rumors about me that she knew I couldn't handle. I tried to explain my situation to Anika, but she didn't believe me.

She thought that Miki was the calmest, sweetest friend anyone could ask for.

She then went to a party that I, of course, wasn't invited to. A party that involved alcohol. Anika was personally invited by Miki. I begged Anika not to go. Not because I seemed jealous, but because I did not want her to become one of them. Anika was a sweet, kind spirit and would never hurt anybody even for her life. If something horrible happened to her, she would be mentally scarred forever. I begged and pleaded. She ignored me. 

That was the same day I was leaving for Ouran Academy.

I cried while riding on the car to my new home. 

I never said goodbye to the Anika I once loved.

Now she was gone.

I still received calls from Anika but it wasn't the same like old times. Whenever she wanted to come over, I was busy. Whenever I wanted to come over, she was busy. She lived much farther away than where I am so it was almost impossible to even meet each other again. It was useless. We drifted so far apart that I only receive calls once every two months. Or years. I'm surprised she even remembers me.

Whenever I try to remember the people we used to be, I would burst out in tears. It hurts to even think of her. She was the only friend I ever trusted. I didn't want to become friends with people anymore because I was afraid I would get my heart broken again. I didn't want risk another chance. I was done with friendship. Little did I know, I would have made new friends either way. But I wasn't sure if I wanted to trust them just yet. I don't think I'm ready yet.

*Flashback over.*

"H-hi! I stuttered at the screen. "What took you so long?" argued Hikaru, who was beside Kaoru. "I did say I had some stuff to do anyway!" pointed out. 

"Whatever. Anyway, when are you available? I can't stand any more of Haruhi's complaining."

"I never am. Go to Haruhi's! She has a house too you know! Or better yet, invite her to your house! You guys are so annoying!"

"Awww. Please?"

"NO! I have my own problems to deal with than to hang around with you...you..."

They both stared at me with an unsatisfied expression.

"Fine. Come over to our house then." stated Kaoru.

"Seems like a plan." I replied without thinking.

They gave me their address and we continued to talk some more. Which wasn't in my plan. It was already 11:57! 

"You guys...I have to go now. My eyes hurt just  by staring at my screen." I groaned.

"Aww. Come on! You're our friend now! Friends aren't allowed to reject friends!" whined Kaoru.

Yeah right. Nobody should even have friends if all they do is stab your back. I scrunched my eyes just by hearing that memory triggering sentence.

 "I have to go." I whispered, hoping they wouldn't hear me.

"Hey, are you ok?" they both asked.

I didn't even realize that tears were slowly streaming down my cheeks. Pathetic. I ended the call and threw my phone to the ground. I stuffed my face onto my pillow and began to sob. It hurt. It really did. My phone continued to buzz and ring while it was n the floor. I ignored it once again.

I woke up the next morning with my cheeks all dry from the tears of last night. I shifted over to the other side of the bed and stared at my phone. I cringed and went to grab it. I opened it to view my messages. 48 messages and 10 calls from Kaoru. I stared at those words before finally reading the messages. 

Kaoru

(y/n)!

ANSWER PLZ

you ok? 

ANNNNSSSWEEEER

open your phone!

plz

whats wrong?

tell us!

we won't judge!

ok maybe but still!

it depends on whats making you sad.

come on.

please answer us.

what happened?

did something bad happen?

tell us who made you cry

tellustellustellustellsusss

seriously

we are going to come to your house if you don't tell us right now.

open your messages!

WHAT HAPPENED!!!11!!!11!!!1!!

(y/n)?

did we do something wrong?

(y/n)!!!!

plz

talk to us.

you can trust us we're ur friends.

tell us whats wrong.

I didn't know what to say.  I actually felt bad for not answering them. Would I really be able to trust them after the past I went through? 

I wasn't so sure.

;-;

That_Fandom_Freak

Published: December/19/2016

Edited: December/19/2016