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"You may not always end up where you thought you were going, but you will always end up where you are meant to be"

Connor

I stood in the backyard of Julian's luxurious house, a hardcore party going on behind me. Everyone had gone inside the house, I was standing by myself.

What did I do? I sobbed What did I do to deserve this?

Harley told me she loved Caleb.

How could she?

Didn't she see how much I cared for her?

Didn't she see how much I ached for her?

I stood, both hands inside the pockets of my jeans, looking at the perpetual night sky. The stars glimmered like tiny dew drops suspended in air.

They looked sad.

Some stars were really close together, clustered into a group. Others were just far away, alone, no one to accompany them and these were the once who looked saddest.

That's how I felt right now, I felt like those lonely, depressed stars.

Somewhere, someone is looking at them too and perceiving these stars as 'happy'

No one, no one sticks with me. I was a disease, a disaster everyone covertly wanted to stay away from.

I was just cursing myself when I heard a familiar voice.

I turned around.

Gina came scurrying out of the house into the backyard, both her hands covering her mouth.

"Gina?" I asked.

She looked at me in dismay, and when she did, I could see her eyes sore and traces of tears on her cheeks.

She was crying.

"Gina?" I walked up to her "What happened?"

She cried even louder when I asked that. Dropping on the grass, she brought her knees closer to her body and covered her face in her hands.

She continued to weep.

Then I recollected; Caleb must've broken up with her.

I felt her grief.

I dropped on the grass beside her and patted her shoulder "Gina, stop crying please"

"Why should I?" she hollered "He's such a jerk!"

"What happened?" I asked, so she doesn't doubt my knowledge.

"He was flirting with other girls" she wiped her tears "So I had a fight with him"

"So he didn't break-" I immediately stopped "Uh I mean...uh...he didn't start the fight?

"No, I told him he was a jerk and I started the fight" she looked behind at the backdoor of the house "You see he didn't even follow me out here!" she began sobbing again.

I felt exactly how she was feeling.

I shushed her kindly "It is okay Gina, stop crying, we'll work something out"

"I love him so much" she wailed "he doesn't appreciate my love for him"

Yes, yes he doesn't.

"I try so hard to please him" she stopped crying for awhile "but he always tends to go flirt with other girls. What do other girls have that I don't?" she looked at me.

Was she expecting an answer from me?

"Uhhh..." I didn't know what to say, she was perfect "You know what? I think you should forgive him"

"No"

"Gina, look at me" I turned her toward me "You are a wonderful person. Let's just accept the fact that Caleb is a bad boy"

Her head hung down, her shoulders slumped.

"Caleb is a badass" I told "He wouldn't change his habits no matter how much you try, it's just how he is. Believe me, I've spent eighteen years with him"

"But..." she looked up at the sky "What if he likes someone else?"

Yeah, you're right, he's in love with your best friend.

I laughed my head off "You kidding me?"

"Why'd you laugh?" she flinched "It's not funny"

Wow, I really had great fake laughing skills.

Forget girls and the charms, I should go work as a comedian.

"Gina, you're the best" I snickered "I know you know there's no one better than you. You know you're that girl who stomps around in her heels in the highschool, flicking her hair and winking at all the hot guys, flaunting your flamboyance. You know Picasso carved you"

She smiled "Shut up Con"

"Forgive him Gina"

She exhaled loudly "Okay, I'll go talk to him"

"Now that's like my brother's girlfriend" I punched her gently on her shoulder.

She rolled her eyes "Thank you Connor, you'll get a girl who is very generous and amazing like you someday"

And that girl will marry Caleb.

"Thank you Gina" I smiled.

When she went away, I felt alone again, almost immediately.

"Dude what're you doing out here?"

I turned around to see Alberto run up to me.

"Dude, where were you?" I asked getting up "I looked for you everywhere"

"No buddy I got busy with this chick"

"You're not drunk?" I asked, sounding confused "That's weird, you're hooking up without getting wasted"

"I wasn't hooking up" he rolled his eyes "This girl came up to Julian's doorstep asking for directions. I would've shut the door on her face but she was hot so..."

"You perv" I gave him a push.

"Let's go get drunk!" Alberto yelled.

"Yeah sure" I giggled.

"Wait" Alberto chuckled, backing away a little "So 'Mr. Goody-goody wants to get drunk'?"

"Yeah" I laughed "I really want to forget"

I really wanted to forget all the melancholy, hatred and fear.

I wanted to live carefree.

I wanted to forget everyone that made me feel worthless, everyone that made me feel like this volume that I'm occupying in this atmosphere wasn't worth it.

I wanted to love myself as much as I loved happiness.

I hadn't drank before. I remember promising myself that I would never get drunk.

But things have changed.

Since Caleb and I discovered about our obsession with Harley, he spends more time with his friends than with me. We're having problems sharing secrets with each-other. We're scared we'll discover something again that will tear both of us apart.

But if everyone can do it, if Caleb can do it then I can do it too.

While on my way inside the house, I thought. I thought deeply. If I wanted to make myself happy, I'll have to start thinking about myself.

If I start being selfish, if I start doing what my heart desires and stop making sacrifices for others, maybe, just maybe I'd be a happier person.

That means I wouldn't let Caleb take Harley. If Harley liked Caleb it was her problem. My goal was to have her and no matter what, I will have her.

I just had to get Caleb out of the way.

What can he do to stop me?

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